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[gypsygirl]

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[kaeruemi]

"Did I just say I should love myself? I should feed myself? Yes. Yes I did. But I'm not quite sure how to do that yet."

me neither... i haven't eaten since saturday... today before i went to the bar i was thinking i should eat something... i cut a couple slices of bread that i made a couple days ago... buttered them... then i threw them in the trash and thought "what are you doing asshole?" guh...i've never thrown food away before like that...

hooray for new tatooes!!! i want one!...

and i know how you feel about medication... as much as i remember the good meds did me, i really can't imagine being on them again... to distance myself so much from the feelings... so much from the pain... that which seems to drive me... etc... alas, whatever you go through, know that i'm here. drunk or not, i'm here :)

*hugs*

ok,i need to go to bed ahhhh... alarm set to wake up like 3 friggin hours from now... bleh... i really don't wanna go..... it's my birthday haha... poop...

[azladybug]

who says you have to take chemicals? there are lots of other options like meditation and accupuncture. i haven't had accupuncture yet but i have taken a few meditation classes and it has been really really helpful. and yeah all suggested to me by my psychiatrist.

[gypsygirl]

hmm, I dunno. I didn't mean there ISN'T any alternative...only that the first thing they'll look to will be medicine. You're right though! Its my responsiblity as much as theirs to come up with solutions to being horribly can't-pick-yourself-up-off-the-floor sad.

[azladybug]

you won't necessarily get drugs, it depends on the doctor how liberal they are with prescribing drugs. for people that are having a really hard time and can't function in life yeah they usually do prescribe drugs right away because meds can help people get it together enough to be able to try the other ways of dealing with their problems like talk-therapy, meditation, etc....the doctor will work with you to find the best solution for you, they won't "fix" you or tell you how to cover up your feelings or any of those things, they will help you to gain the coping skills so you can help yourself, so that you can feel sad but not let it make you fall apart, its about managing your feelings, not eliminating them

[gypsygirl]

Well, I guess I've just experienced the eliminating feelings/take some pills docs. Hopefully this one will be different. Thursday. Cross your digits.

Erin...

[justify_me]

why are you starving yourself? And WHY do you think you need meds? If you don't want to tell me here - you can email me at justify_me@yahoo.com okay? ~muah

Re: Erin...

[gypsygirl]

starving myself because:
I want to lost a few pounds. My life spins sometimes and I don't know how to handle it. I want to stay 10 years old so everyone will continue to love and hug and protect me. My mommy is dead. And I feel empty, but I'm not most of the time and I'd rather be.

meds because:
I've been on them every time I've been to the head doc. Talking never helps me. And when there is no other answer, chemicals are the number one choice.

Re: Erin...

[justify_me]

hmm. Why would you rather feel empty?

Re: Erin...

[gypsygirl]

I dunno. It feels better than being full.

[1in4wins]

I sure don't see it as a coverup, the sessions I go to, the pills I take.

[gypsygirl]

thats GOOD! I hope I won't either...

Re: wow

[brucelover4ever]

Girl, you are my hero!! A tat2 of the penguin? Too cool!!! I am ready for a new one. I want a beautiful butterfly, just not sure where to put it. Too fat for the hip or lower back. Errrrr!!!! I also want a "toe ring" tat2! But, I heard those REALLY hurt!!

Hugs to you (my adopted daughter!)
Vickie

Re: wow

[gypsygirl]

Vickie I say go for it! You're cool and hip! :) And I'm too fat for the hip place too, but its inspiration to not be, huh? :D