Oh... so we broke up on Wednesday. I can't believe I cried. It pissed me the fuck off that I cried. He was fun in the beginning but the bastard didn;t care for me. He called me the day after I told him I didn't feel well and he responded by saying okay bye, and asked if I was fine. I full of fury flipped out for the very first time. I called him ( Read more... )

Oh man! I am ecstatic. Last nigth I went to China town with Madeline, John and Marie, the usual group. We had some boba tea which is brilliant but sucked at this particular restaraunt. Then after the tea we decided to venture out to the village in an attempt to find me a fake ID. So we walked around and felt defeated because it was too late anyways ( Read more... )

almost forgot... what are you doing Februaury 20th? hmmm? I know and this is especially directed towards BenBlack hahaah because he is in NYC. Uhhhhhhhh well hahaha and i thought i vowed never again to go to these ridiculously late night events on a sunday but what the fuck and with fuck on the tip of my tongue-- MotherFucker! are you going ben? I ( Read more... )

so mother fuckers back and lazy as ever. i am getting nowhere with you but i guess i am pleased. i am detached but still holding on stronger than you are. your hands must be soft putty because you dont care for me at all. you claim and you say you tell me you care a lot although you say it reluctantly. and if anything i should be believing you ( Read more... )

you must be dead.

On the way back to New York I listened to John Denver, oh how I love that man. I was feeling sour about everything for a long time and now I can safely say that I am back on a good track. In fact, I am more than pleased with the way my life is going. I am in the process of applying to a few schools, I have been writing essays, reading a few books, ( Read more... )

Time is dragging today and I just can't wait for a new day, a new year hopefully. Jon came back from the dead last evening. He had many bad things to say and I kept suggesting that we break up. It didn't happen, he didnt agree so I guess we will keep trying ( Read more... )

hahaha okay so today is Wednesday and I haven't heard from Jon since this weekend. I have a few possibilities running through my mind, I think he probably died and nobody has bothered to contact me, or he hated the time he spent with me and will probably feed me some dumb excuse like, "I lost my phone" again.

hahahahaa

Madeline read the last entry and instead of feeling for me, consoling me,or agreeing that Jon is a good catch, she says, " a good dresser? MMMMM"

I finally caught up with everyone's old live journal entries. It's been so long since I've caught up with whats going on in Massachusetts. I keep wishing I was home still in theater and full of happiness. I think the winter's cold is getting in my bones and I'm depressed again. So yesterday I posted a private entry and I mentioned my highschool ( Read more... )