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[h_christensen]

When was the last time I updated? When I was flying

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[patsharp]

I think sometimes I read my own thoughts in other people's words. It gives me hope.

[h_christensen]

Everything that happens already has to someone or something somewhere. Or at least I tend to think that way. You doing okay?

[patsharp]

All things considered, yes. For us hockey players, it's that time of year when we all go our separate ways, and when the one you love and have spent every second of every day with is now a thousand miles away, it gets difficult. And we've had our ups and downs and in-betweens, but everything will work out. That which doesn't kill us makes us stronger, eh?

[h_christensen]

I always used to hate when people said that last line to me. But then experience happened, and I realize now how true it is, damned or not. I'm always around if you need to talk about it.

[zac]

I'm really happy for the both of you. I hope it all works out.

[h_christensen]

I hope things go well for you, too :*

[lchabert]

This is beautiful, almost bittersweet. Hitting rock bottom, the a loud thud, is one of the hardest parts, but sometimes you have to, so that you can slowly, shakily, stand back up.

Realizing you need something too, not just want it, is a huge realization in itself. Often times, that hits us when we least expect it, snapping us back into reality. You're taking things so well though, being optimistic and positive. Keep your chin up.

[h_christensen]

It was a huge surprise, definitely. To suddenly realize that I simply couldn't exist without him. That everything felt wrong and raw and awful and just... unbearable for the most part. I had to be with me.

Everything happens for a reason, and I guess we had to get torn apart so that I could realize just how much we belong together.

[seanbeano]

Sometimes you have to lose someone before you can truly appreciate them. I wish you both all the best.

[h_christensen]

Did I ever. I think that this needed to happen though. I think that I needed to get completely fucked up and broken down so that I could realize all of these things.

[marc_blucas]

I've read this a few dozen times and I'm still not sure what to say to it. I've been trying to think of something to update on my side and haven't been able to find the words so you even coming up with this is something to me. What you say to me in private means more to me anyway. It's going to be a long road and I'm glad you know that. Some things don't come easily but that just makes them all the better when they end up happening. I love you.

[h_christensen]

The words are so hard on this, aren't they? I find myself torn about what to say most of the time too. But I knew I had to say something. And yeah, things are going to be hard, we're still going to have moments of being angry or hurt or terrified. But we'll get through them, won't we? You let me go and I came back to you. I realize now who I'm meant to be with.

[marc_blucas]

They are hard, yes. Mostly I've just stayed hidden away while I get used to things again and try to make sense of it all. We'll take it all one day, one decision, even one moment at a time if we have to. I hoped...I hoped against all hope that you'd come back. Someone told me I had to let you hit bottom before anything would get better but I hated thinking of it in those terms. If it meant that you realized that though, I suppose it was the best thing that could happen.

[h_christensen]

I think that it had to happen. I had to rip apart all those preconceived notions about what our relationship should have been and how things with Aaralyn were supposed to go. That all had to go away so that we could figure it on our own. I never realized how much pressure I was putting on us. Which I'm still sorry for :[.