♕ |[56]| the bells I hear, the people all exulting,
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It's difficult, in the depths of winter, not to think about... things I shouldn't think about. Where I've been and what I've done, part of seizing the day is not getting caught up in regret. The past shapes us, it doesn't have to define us. I said that a hundred times and-- I think, did it make a difference?
I don't know.
But I ought to think about the good things, not the awful ones, even if sometimes it's hard to separate them here. It's been more of a good year than a bad one, hasn't it? Part of that is how you look at it, though. I try to see the good side when I can manage it. Sometimes, though...
Maybe it would all have been a little easier if it wasn't Christmas.
Justin was a true Poet and a member of the Society without knowing it. I just hope he knew knows what a difference he made while he was here.
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New Year's is a funny holiday to celebrate, here, since I think really the only reason there's a year or a month even is through consensus. Because everyone says there's no one in the City except people who were brought here, and without people there wouldn't be any time. Or at least, no measuring time. But time does pass, the seasons change, so I guess the year does too.
I suppose I should be thinking about what plays we should do next. I don't really want to make resolutions, I don't think I've changed my philosophy any so I'd resolve to do the same thing I always mean to do.
I hope the New Year has more good days than bad ones, I think that's all I can really say.
It's difficult, in the depths of winter, not to think about... things I shouldn't think about. Where I've been and what I've done, part of seizing the day is not getting caught up in regret. The past shapes us, it doesn't have to define us. I said that a hundred times and-- I think, did it make a difference?
I don't know.
But I ought to think about the good things, not the awful ones, even if sometimes it's hard to separate them here. It's been more of a good year than a bad one, hasn't it? Part of that is how you look at it, though. I try to see the good side when I can manage it. Sometimes, though...
Maybe it would all have been a little easier if it wasn't Christmas.
Justin was a true Poet and a member of the Society without knowing it. I just hope he knew knows what a difference he made while he was here.
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New Year's is a funny holiday to celebrate, here, since I think really the only reason there's a year or a month even is through consensus. Because everyone says there's no one in the City except people who were brought here, and without people there wouldn't be any time. Or at least, no measuring time. But time does pass, the seasons change, so I guess the year does too.
I suppose I should be thinking about what plays we should do next. I don't really want to make resolutions, I don't think I've changed my philosophy any so I'd resolve to do the same thing I always mean to do.
I hope the New Year has more good days than bad ones, I think that's all I can really say.