Dilemmas I Hate Thee
URGH.
That gurgle sound pretty much means that I've got something to complain about again. Specifically it means "why don't I post stuff that isn't done like other people?" and I wonder how well complying with that will do for my sanity. I've seen other people's blogs on Tumblr or LiveJournal and at times the ones who write or draw will post excerpts and sketches as they go. It's good to see the progress if you follow them and become interested (I would know; I follow some of them near religiously) so I can see the appeal of it. Now, what are my doubts about it?
Ah. I see. Logic is quite right about these things; at times it is flawed but sometimes you can't go wrong with a little of it around. What am I waiting for then? Probably a beta reader but we won't get into that. All right, I guess I know what to improve on OTL Thanksgiving is coming up and I know one of my "Thankful Turkey" segments better have some words about how I'm getting better on this. School is keeping me busy but if I had time to write 3 pages of a story idea in class then that should mean I can handle this.
Logic: In the very least let's try to stay away from the excuse that "you don't have time". You do in fact have time but it takes some finesse and elbow grease and most definitely so reasonable task assigning to get into a good flow. Once you're in a routine, you'll be able to make the most of the time you give yourself.
Just got to give myself a chance is that right? Well, things like this seem like a trial and error so all I've got to do is jump in. Like double-dutch, it's all about timing and hustle lol.
I'll get it eventually, everyone. OTL
NEWS:
I've got a few stories in the works right now. I'm still working on two requests that I took on months ago in June - July time frame (ORZ) that I overwhelmed myself with just trying to attempt it. I mustn't forget that less is more. My D.C. friend guessed one of my 100 Theme Challenge prompts right and I have to write his request; of course it would have to be a prompt so opposite of everything that interests me. I must rise to the challenge for that as well. In the meantime I'll binge on other people's art and fics while trying to kindle an interest in my studies lol
All right, it seems I've regained a sense of purpose now, if I haven't learned my lesson I can look back at this and beat it into my brain. I'll try to be more chill and get to improving my art and writing with the avenues I've created for myself. Sometimes it takes a little reaching out to get some attention but I promise to not be obnoxious about it.
That's it for now so I will say goodnight and 'til next time! Fun Fact: I've been coding my posts with simple HTML and LiveJournal knowledge ever since a glitch in the posting process didn't allow me to correct a past entry in the rich text format. Power to disable auto-formatting. /fist
That gurgle sound pretty much means that I've got something to complain about again. Specifically it means "why don't I post stuff that isn't done like other people?" and I wonder how well complying with that will do for my sanity. I've seen other people's blogs on Tumblr or LiveJournal and at times the ones who write or draw will post excerpts and sketches as they go. It's good to see the progress if you follow them and become interested (I would know; I follow some of them near religiously) so I can see the appeal of it. Now, what are my doubts about it?
- I'm afraid someone will steal my idea before I can make the best of it.
- I feel that if I want to make a picture I have to finish it.
- I feel the writing I post needs more work. I doesn't feel like gold in my hands.
It's taken me forever to gain what little I have but it'll take even longer for me to develop it and be satisfied with it (some never are) and it would suck to have a person steal that idea to do what they will with it. What would make it worse would be if they took my whole outline and went through it based off of that.
Logic's Response: They're never be able to write it like you unless they claimed your finished product as your own and even then they didn't write it. Besides, it's fanfiction; why so serious?
It's something about posting a sketch that makes me uncomfortable. Posting it, to me, feels like something final (despite the ability to delete the post) so I can't stop myself from trying to finish it beforehand. Especially if I'm having trouble with the proportion of a body, I'll work on it forever and frustrate myself into letting it sit for months. This is a recent occurrence so part of that irks me also; I'd like to cure myself of that.
Logic's Response: You have to let go sometime. Everything must improve and if you'd like some critique what better way than in the beginning stages? Some of the frustration comes from not enough practice (you know you don't draw as much as you used to) and part of it comes from expecting it to come easy when you haven't trained yourself. People will judge but it's your choice whether you listen. You improve, you practice some more, and you grow without letting that fear get the better of you. Relax.
Logic's Response: We already talked about this but let's go through it again. You are exposed to your own writing everyday. It stands to reason that you won't think it's very extraordinary or worthy of awards when you're reading through it. It takes some time to go through your writing as if you haven't read it before and even then you might not think it's worthy of public attention. But having the public's attention means that you get a second opinion. Isn't that what you want?
Ah. I see. Logic is quite right about these things; at times it is flawed but sometimes you can't go wrong with a little of it around. What am I waiting for then? Probably a beta reader but we won't get into that. All right, I guess I know what to improve on OTL Thanksgiving is coming up and I know one of my "Thankful Turkey" segments better have some words about how I'm getting better on this. School is keeping me busy but if I had time to write 3 pages of a story idea in class then that should mean I can handle this.
Logic: In the very least let's try to stay away from the excuse that "you don't have time". You do in fact have time but it takes some finesse and elbow grease and most definitely so reasonable task assigning to get into a good flow. Once you're in a routine, you'll be able to make the most of the time you give yourself.
Just got to give myself a chance is that right? Well, things like this seem like a trial and error so all I've got to do is jump in. Like double-dutch, it's all about timing and hustle lol.
I'll get it eventually, everyone. OTL
NEWS:
I've got a few stories in the works right now. I'm still working on two requests that I took on months ago in June - July time frame (ORZ) that I overwhelmed myself with just trying to attempt it. I mustn't forget that less is more. My D.C. friend guessed one of my 100 Theme Challenge prompts right and I have to write his request; of course it would have to be a prompt so opposite of everything that interests me. I must rise to the challenge for that as well. In the meantime I'll binge on other people's art and fics while trying to kindle an interest in my studies lol
All right, it seems I've regained a sense of purpose now, if I haven't learned my lesson I can look back at this and beat it into my brain. I'll try to be more chill and get to improving my art and writing with the avenues I've created for myself. Sometimes it takes a little reaching out to get some attention but I promise to not be obnoxious about it.
That's it for now so I will say goodnight and 'til next time! Fun Fact: I've been coding my posts with simple HTML and LiveJournal knowledge ever since a glitch in the posting process didn't allow me to correct a past entry in the rich text format. Power to disable auto-formatting. /fist