[50 Songs Fic Challenge] Whispers
Author's Notes:
-Written for the 50 Songs Fic Challenge on writersrebirth
-Song used in this drabble is Jung Yong Hwa's Cruel Memories (추억은 잔인하게)
-Written and completed on March 5, 2015
-Non-beta'd. Do bear with me.
-Enjoy!
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Whispers
If only it was erased, if only it disappeared
The stubbornly remaining memories
The saying that time helps you forget
That’s all wrong, you still remain with me
It’s been far too long already. I thought distracting myself away from the thoughts of you would help me forget. It’s been more than a fucking year already. What does it take for you to go away?
Here I was minding my own business when suddenly, I heard your name from a friend. I stopped breathing. My heart skipped a bit. My world froze up. Just when I thought I’m finally making progress with forgetting you. Oh, boy! I was wrong! Totally wrong. You’re still inside my heart laughing at my failed attempt at kicking you out. Funny, right? It’s just your name I heard. You’re not even there in the first place. You were just mentioned in passing yet my body reacted toward your name. That name I wish I’d never knew.
These memories, these many memories
I don’t need any of them now
When will they be forgotten?
Memories cruelly still remain with me
“Remember?” You whispered in the depths of my heart. “Remember that time I held your hand?” My mind answered back, “I do, you idiot! I do! And I’d kill to have amnesia so I could forget.” My mind screamed for you to stop whispering nonsense in the depths of my heart. It kept on shouting, telling you to quietly reside in there if you don’t want to leave. But no, you made it a point to constantly remind me of your existence. Reminding me that you’re still there. That our memories are alive in the pit of my brain. You jerk. You’re always spot on. You know my blind spot. You know-it-all git.
Please leave, the happy memories, I just want them to disappear now
Please leave now, please help me forget now
I just want the memories to change, it makes it even harder
Just go away, please. Take them all away. Take everything and leave. That’s what you did, anyway. You took everything but why are you back? Just leave and never come back.
And in times like this, you’ll whisper “I won’t go unless someone else takes my place”. You knew all along, huh. You knew all along I ain’t getting anywhere unless someone else comes in. You’ve known and you’re sticking around until I find someone new.
You’ve done it to yourself but I can’t? You’re free from me yet I’m still encased in your memories? Oh, irony.
The past times, the happy times, I just want them to disappear now
I really want to forget you, I really miss you
Memories will never change so it makes it even harder
And you knew it won’t be easy. You whispering in my heart is making it worse. I need you out of my life yet my heart yearns for the only thing that remains in it, your voice telling me I’m still here.
I and our cruel memories….
-Written for the 50 Songs Fic Challenge on writersrebirth
-Song used in this drabble is Jung Yong Hwa's Cruel Memories (추억은 잔인하게)
-Written and completed on March 5, 2015
-Non-beta'd. Do bear with me.
-Enjoy!
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Whispers
If only it was erased, if only it disappeared
The stubbornly remaining memories
The saying that time helps you forget
That’s all wrong, you still remain with me
It’s been far too long already. I thought distracting myself away from the thoughts of you would help me forget. It’s been more than a fucking year already. What does it take for you to go away?
Here I was minding my own business when suddenly, I heard your name from a friend. I stopped breathing. My heart skipped a bit. My world froze up. Just when I thought I’m finally making progress with forgetting you. Oh, boy! I was wrong! Totally wrong. You’re still inside my heart laughing at my failed attempt at kicking you out. Funny, right? It’s just your name I heard. You’re not even there in the first place. You were just mentioned in passing yet my body reacted toward your name. That name I wish I’d never knew.
These memories, these many memories
I don’t need any of them now
When will they be forgotten?
Memories cruelly still remain with me
“Remember?” You whispered in the depths of my heart. “Remember that time I held your hand?” My mind answered back, “I do, you idiot! I do! And I’d kill to have amnesia so I could forget.” My mind screamed for you to stop whispering nonsense in the depths of my heart. It kept on shouting, telling you to quietly reside in there if you don’t want to leave. But no, you made it a point to constantly remind me of your existence. Reminding me that you’re still there. That our memories are alive in the pit of my brain. You jerk. You’re always spot on. You know my blind spot. You know-it-all git.
Please leave, the happy memories, I just want them to disappear now
Please leave now, please help me forget now
I just want the memories to change, it makes it even harder
Just go away, please. Take them all away. Take everything and leave. That’s what you did, anyway. You took everything but why are you back? Just leave and never come back.
And in times like this, you’ll whisper “I won’t go unless someone else takes my place”. You knew all along, huh. You knew all along I ain’t getting anywhere unless someone else comes in. You’ve known and you’re sticking around until I find someone new.
You’ve done it to yourself but I can’t? You’re free from me yet I’m still encased in your memories? Oh, irony.
The past times, the happy times, I just want them to disappear now
I really want to forget you, I really miss you
Memories will never change so it makes it even harder
And you knew it won’t be easy. You whispering in my heart is making it worse. I need you out of my life yet my heart yearns for the only thing that remains in it, your voice telling me I’m still here.
I and our cruel memories….