Swing of lie chapter 6 (end)
Title: Swing of lie chapter 6 (end)
Pairing: Yabu Kota x Yaotome Hikaru
rating: NC-17
type: Chaptered
Author: Hagino_aimi
Summary: they started it randomly… confusion starts. Will they really become like this until the end?
A/N: I just had to end it because it keeps haunting me to end it.
“Congratulations on your graduation, yabu!!! I will miss you!!!” Daiki embraces Yabu with all his might it’s as if not wanting to let go.
“Awh come on now, Daichan~~ we’ll still get to see eachother outside school” Yabu laugh and patted Daiki’s head.
“my turn to hug senpai you chibi!” Yuto tried to pull Daiki from Yabu but he was sticking to yabu so hard that it’s hard to part them.
“NO! NEVER! YABU IS MINE, MINE, MINE!!” Daiki exclaimed and kicked Yuto. Yabu could only laugh.
Hikaru saw from afar. He so wanted to go there and bid farewell to Yabu. But ever since last year, he still couldn’t face him. Not to mention after his girlfriend, Sawa passed away last year on November, she collapsed after waking up one morning in her room, and because she had asthma, it was difficult for her to breathe which led her to heart failure. It was a huge impact for Hikaru, because he did love her even with Yabu in mind.
Everyone in class was sad about Sawa’s death but it didn’t take long until they go back to their natural days but It took Hikaru weeks to recover from the tragedy, even the people that knew they were a couple felt bad for Hikaru especially Daiki.
He took a deep breath and left the entrance where there were a huge crowd of people graduating. Hikaru just sat down at the corner of the cafeteria and took out his novel to read.
“Hikaru…”
Hikaru look up and it’s Yabu. He didn’t feel cautious or anxious anymore, well not as much as last year. With everything going on around he couldn’t help but felt much less uncomfortable.
“Can I join you?” Yabu asked.
“…. Sure” Hikaru unconsciously said and instead of sitting facing him, he sat beside Hikaru.
“…How are you holding up?” Yabu questioned and place his flower and certificate on the table.
“I’m fine” Hikaru answered bluntly while not taking his eyes of the book.
Yabu nodded to that and cleared his throat. He didn’t really have anything to say to Hikaru, just that he can’t help but worry about him and plus he’s leaving; he won’t see Hikaru as much anymore now that he got into university. So might as well talk to him now.
Hikaru kind of felt bad for ignoring Yabu. They’ll see eachother less and he knows that.
“Congratulations…” Hikaru started, putting his book down.
Yabu look to his side then he smiled “I thought you’ll never say”
“… And good luck too… for uni…” Hikaru said shortly, feeling his cheeks blush slightly.
“Thanks, Hikaru” Yabu said and patted Hikaru’s back lightly. “Ja… take care of my juniors. You’re the senior now so set a good example to them” He added.
“I’ll be the best senior they could ever ask for” Hikaru laughs lightly.
“I hope so” Yabu agreed.
There was silence after that, Hikaru could only look around, and there were few people in the cafeteria. He wished there were noises so the awkwardness between him and yabu is not visible.
“I’ll miss you”
Hikaru look to his side at yabu, who is looking serious.
“I’ll miss you, Yaotome Hikaru “ Yabu said without looking at Hikaru’s eyes.
Hikaru felt like crying, of course he’ll miss Yabu too! But he just couldn’t say it as loud as yabu. Before he could even respond Yabu already got up.
“Oh um… this is for you…” Yabu took hikaru’s hand and place the small item onto Hikaru’s palm.
Hikaru look at the object in his hand, it’s a button. Then he looks up to Yabu’s shirt. The button closes to his heart is not there. “Take care of yourself, Hikaru” Yabu stated.
Hikaru felt his heart beating fast and all the memories he had with yabu came back to him like a flash of a lightning and it brought tears to his eyes as he clutched the button tightly.
“I-I’ll miss you, Yabu… “it came out of his lips on its own, he couldn’t even look yabu in the eyes and he cast his eyes down, avoiding the contact.
Yabu took a step forward and pulls Hikaru into an embrace; they didn’t say anything, no words at all. Even when they broke the hug, Yabu didn’t even say goodbye as he left.
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“Just put it there”
“Here?” Hikaru asked and the old woman nodded. He places the box on top of the shelf and slides the closet door close.
Hikaru went to pay a little visit to Sawa’s grandmother’s place that Sunday afternoon. When Hikaru and Sawa were still together, Sawa told Hikaru he loves to go to her grandmother’s place so she often bring Hikaru along and because of that, even when Sawa is gone, Hikaru still keep in touch with Sawa’s grandmother. At times he would stay there and study when his parents are not home. It gives off a warm feeling inside.
“Daiki invited me to his so called ‘karaoke-stress-relief-before-Monday’ tonight. Damn it” Hikaru cursed in the end and place his cellphone back on the table.
“You know one of these days you have to learn to accept his invitations from the bottom of your heart. Or else you will never get to enjoy it. You’re still young, so go out and have fun” Sawa’s grandmother said gently, patting Hikaru’s arm while she’s at it. Hikaru was helping out Mieko with making dinner and Hikaru is cutting onions.
“You know, even if Sawa was in a bad condition, she still wants to have fun” She said and smiled.
Hikaru stopped cutting the onions upon the mention of Sawa. “Yeah… and she believed in that… right until the end” Hikaru murmured and place the onions into one place after he was done.
“So you should go to Daiki’s karaoke night out” Sawa’s grandmother suggested and placed the onions in the bowl.
“Well… I guess not tonight” Hikaru shrugged.
After they were done cooking, they ate together infront of the TV. It became natural to Hikaru having dinner with Sawa’s grandmother. Besides, his parents are not home at the moment.
“Oh, the water is finish” Sawa’s grandmother pointed out when she was about to drink one.
“I’ll go get it” Hikaru grabbed the jug and went to the kitchen.
Sawa’s grandmother smiled at the sight of Hikaru going to the kitchen. Hikaru is so kind and she loves that even after Sawa’s death He still visits her. She doesn’t feel as lonely as she was before anymore.
Hikaru’s cellphone buzzed on the table and Sawa’s grandmother look down at the screen, she place on her glasses and look at the caller’s name.
“Yabu… kota” She read the name on the screen.
“Here you go” Hikaru came back and sat down, he poured the water into her cup and she thanked him.
“… Hikaru… You’ve never mention about Yabu lately…” She said after a long silence.
Hikaru looked at her for a moment then he cleared his throat. “Well… we lost contact” He reasoned out.
“He was your close friend wasn’t he?” She asked again.
Hikaru gaze down at his food. “I guess… he was” He murmured.
“Well you should be lucky today… look at your cellphone” Sawa’s grandmother smiled and tap her finger on his cellphone.
Hikaru grabbed his cellphone and he saw one missed called from… Yabu Kota…
“I wish I could’ve met him” She stated. “From what I heard from Sawa he’s a very kind person”
“Hm… He was” Hikaru actually wanted to disagree. Yabu is a robot. Who made him his sex friend, lied his feelings to him, cheated on him, they got back together but the next day he left him. It was too complicated and Yabu’s stupid. But he had apologized a lot of times.
When Hikaru got home, He rolled on his bed side to side, thinking why Yabu had called him. Out of the blue. Although he is in denial that he was happy deep inside that yabu hasn’t forgotten about him.
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“Ah it’s raining” Hikaru whined when he woke up and look at the window, expecting a sun but instead droplets of rain. It’s been a week since the call. Yet he still thinks about it. Not to mention he made Yabu's button into a bracelet, with just a knit thread and Yabu's button.
“You didn’t come…again.” Daiki looked at Hikaru with an upset expression. The first thing he saw when he got into class.
“I’m not even sorry” Hikaru shook his head and scoffed and walked pass Daiki to his desk.
“Well you know what, next week you have to come! Or else I will tell our art teacher you broke one of the statuses!” Daiki commanded strongly.
Hikaru look at Daiki with a mixture of confusion and disbelief.
“You broke it with me!” He pointed out, half screaming.
It was like any other day, studies, studies, studies. But one thing that keeps bothering Hikaru’s mind is Yabu. The most common question that pops in his mind was why he called him?
“See you tomorrow” Hikaru said lastly to Daiki before they part ways to their homes. Hikaru looked up at the gloomy sky and sigh. It’s been raining since morning. not to mention P.E. canceled. He hated it. Sports and cleaning is the only way for him to relief stress.
But once Hikaru arrived at the gate of his house, he stopped walking when he saw Yabu standing there, hands in his jacket’s pockets, no umbrella. It was the most unexpected thing! And not to mention, the RAIN! He snapped out of his thoughts.
“Ya-Yabu” Hikaru called out.
Yabu look up and smiled “Hey”
“What are you doing, out in the rain?” Hikaru asked in a worried tone, since Yabu is all wet now. He passed the umbrella to Yabu and he invited him in.
“I didn’t know it’d be raining till night” Yabu reasoned out once they were inside.
“No, I mean. What are you doing here?” Hikaru repeated his question but this time accurately.
“I just wanted to see you, that’s all” Yabu said bluntly.
Hikaru blinked his eyes for a few moments, and then he took off his scarf. “You’re all wet” He commented after looking at Yabu. “You’ll get sick like that. I’ll draw you a bath and lend you my clothes” He added as he walked his way to his room and Yabu tailing behind him.
Yabu watch as Hikaru put his stuff down and looks for clothes in his closet, and then he looked around and thought that it’s really been a long time since he’s been in Hikaru’s room.
“You know… You’re a little wet yourself; you wanna take the bath together?” Yabu asked without thinking then Hikaru turn around and just stare at him with his blushed face.
“No it’s okay” Hikaru shook his head, how dumb can Yabu be for not thinking that it’d be weird? And he went out to the bathroom to get the bath ready and when he came back to his room Yabu was already undressing his top. “Sorry” He apologized when Yabu looked at him and he walked pass Yabu and took of his blazer.
Yabu could only smirk at Hikaru’s reaction when he saw him undress. He has to admit it was cute. And as much as he was upset when Hikaru rejected him to take a bath together, he was happy enough to get Hikaru blush.
“Use this towel” Hikaru handed the towel to Yabu.
“Thanks” Yabu grabbed then towel and place it around his neck.
“I’ll uh, I’ll take your clothes to the laundry” Hikaru stated and pick up Yabu’s clothes and went downstairs.
After a while Hikaru just stayed downstairs at the kitchen, sitting on the chair and staring at his empty glass of water on the table and waiting for Yabu to be done. At the same time thinking why was he here other than the reason of just wanting to see him. Knowing Yabu, that’s not a reason at all. And he hoped that Yabu came to see him not because of sex. All the time Yabu came over it’s always because he wanted to sleep with him and that breaks his heart. Just thinking about it has already made Hikaru feel heartbroken.
“There you are”
Hikaru looked up and Saw Yabu walking towards him with his slightly wet hair and fresh smell of soap, his soap.
“I was looking for you” Yabu said and grab a glass and pour water in it, making himself feel like he’s at home.
“What are you doing here, Yabu?” Hikaru asked again.
“I wanted to see you” Yabu answered straightly and lean against the counter behind Hikaru.
“I know that but why?” Hikaru stood up and turn around to face Yabu.
Yabu looked at him for a second then he let out a sigh, placing the glass on the counter.
“I… I miss you a lot” He started. “I know that it’s hard to believe coming out of a person like me but I do miss you, Hikaru. I kept thinking about you and I couldn’t help but want to come here but I was scared I’ll make you feel uncomfortable and I don’t want you to feel that way around me so I thought of coming over to see you and confront you…” Yabu explained.
Hikaru’s heart beats faster at Yabu’s ‘speech’. He didn’t know if he should believe or not but he could feel his hands slightly shivered but he shook it away to fight his tears.
“I… I’m in love with you Hikaru…” Yabu said.
This time Hikaru’s heart skipped a beat and his eyes instinctively met Yabu’s. “what?” He said voicelessly.
“It took me a long time to realize, I was stupid for not realizing it earlier and I feel terrible for what I did to you… I’m really sorry…but the more I feel separated from you the more my heart won’t settle” He smiled at the thought. “And I want you to feel comfortable around me” Yabu step closer to Hikaru and take a hold of his hand.
“I just thought if I don’t tell you now then I’d be missing the best part of my life” Yabu stated.
Thus Hikaru realize that his feelings for Yabu just keep growing stronger, He had never stop loving Yabu even when they broke up. Even when He fell for Sawa Yabu was still in his mind. A confession doesn’t have to be at a beautiful place as long as the words are true, and without even noticing it a tear roll down his cheek.
“I… I just thought you came here… just coz you want to have sex with me” Hikaru said while crying at the same time, he doesn’t care anymore. If the tears gotta go then they gotta go.
“No…” Yabu reassured. “Like I said… I don’t want to make you feel uncomfortable”
Hikaru sniffed then he let go of Yabu’s hand to hug him instead then he felt Yabu’s hands circle around his waist.
“I love you, Kouta” Hikaru murmured against Yabu’s shoulder.
"I love you too" Yabu’s heart skipped a beat when Hikaru called him by his first time and he hugs him even tighter . "And thanks for still keeping my button" he added when he realize Hikaru's bracelet.
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After a while they broke the hug and Yabu brush away the tear from Hikaru’s face with his thumb then he lean forward to kiss Hikaru on the lips and Hikaru complied. This time there was no more meaningless kiss, it was passionate and with their feelings it became more wonderful.
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Hikaru squinted his eyes open to wake up; the light coming from the window was too bright for his ideal that he covered his face more with the blanket. Then he realize that his back felt different when he moved slightly, especially feeling something inside him and something sticky between his thigh. Then he looked to his side where Yabu was sitting down leaning his back against the wall while holding his cellphone, naked. Then he remembered, after the confession that night they ended up having sex. Who was he kidding? He loves the sex too. But it was a different one for sure; Yabu was being gentle and loving, they properly made love.
“You’re awake” Yabu stated when he looked to his side, after he was done with his text he place his cellphone to the side and place his arms around Hikaru and pull him closer for a kiss then he smiled when he pulled back.
“You’re still here” Hikaru mumbled and cup Yabu’s cheek with his hand, and then he smiled.
“ofcourse I’m still here” Yabu said he held Hikaru’s hand that was on his cheek and he kiss his knuckles.
“… That’s good” Hikaru nodded.
“You know… Sawa actually knew about me and you” Hikaru stated when he remembered what Sawa said.
“…Really?” Yabu asked, almost shock there.
“Yeah… She told me once… if something were to happen to her, she wants you to be by my side” Hikaru smiled upon Sawa’s words. For all Hikaru’s lives, He always thought the world as cruel, but that was wrong until he met Sawa, The kind hearted person he has ever met. There is kindness on earth afterall.
“…that’s sweet of her” Yabu commented, he knew Sawa and she was really angelic inside and out.
“and that’s a promise. I’ll never leave you, Hikaru…” he said.
Hikaru could only smile “kiss me”
Yabu gladly complied and he lean forward and kiss Hikaru on the lips. This time he kept his promise .
The endddddd...
I just had to end this because it's keep calling my name and I need to put it out of it's misery so i killed it.
anyways thank you sooooooooooooooooo much for reading this fic and going this far. it's been a pleasure writing this so really, thank you.