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It's not going to help to frustrate each other. 
Just let it go!
I think everyone as well as your body will thank you.

Some days you don't really have to think about it.
Other days all you have to do is talk about it.
Today I really had to work for it.
I am so tired.

sometimes things are not worth focusing on.
It seems I am going to have to run away again.
that's ok.  Honestly I miss me most of all.
Time to fade in the shadows.
The idea was fun to entertain for the time.
I am better off for it.

Change is amazing.  Now that I have no friends listed.  I have none of the same issues.
This is more or less my brain dump and BPAL LJ.

 A thrid of a lieter is just right for me.  
A third of my heart is just right for me.  
A thrid of my life needs to drain from me.  
Please.  Just end it all.

 sometimes I really wish Rose were around
just so I could entertain the ideas of haveing someone to die with.
feeling so far away from the idea of haveing another person who understands let alone
someone who would want to be with me till death.
Even if we had arranged it to happen tomorrow.

When it comes to skin, hair or scent, i can throw him aroung like a rag doll.  but when it comes to anything else it's all stop and go.
I don't fucking get it.
I really dont.

I feel like things are going to be ok in time.  however.
I still am grieving.
I still want to cry.
I am not exactly sure what to do about ti as my other facets are currently being used to fight.  Where is this new tool I have to find to win over myself damn it!  I have been cleaning like a mad man and I just can't seem to feel good about it.  It still ( Read more... )

I find myself here instead of my normal journal as of late.  not adding people makes me feel more free, even if I am not talking about them ( Read more... )