[exo] thoughts: pernicious.; kai/kyungsoo; nc-17

[halcyondusk]

Title: Thoughts: Pernicious.
Pairing: Kai/Kyungsoo, Kai-centric
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Kyungsoo falls apart inside his own head, and Jongin can only watch from the sidelines.
Warnings: Highlight (negativity towards mental illness, implied character death)
Word Count: ~10,200
A/N: Originally written for kpop_ficmix for the wonderful hotarumyst (a remix of her brilliant

Comments

[the_maknae]

nonononoNONONONONONO why

beautiful. omg, it was beautiful. and everything was so real and reality was kinda harsh and my kokoro hurts ;____; thank you for writing this! i think you really did justice to the original fic ^__^

[halcyondusk]

BECAUSE I CAN i am both sadist and masochistic i guess o o p s

sobs ;_____; thank you. pets your kokoro. i'm glad to hear you think it did justice to the original ;A;

[envybleedsgreen]

I am absolutely blown away. You executed this perfectly, and... I hated fish in the first place, now you're just backing up my need to never look, touch, or smell it. ;-;

[halcyondusk]

;AAAAA; thank you for reading and commenting! hahahahahaha oh dear no more fish forever :')

[kaymari309]

This brought tears to my eyes...This was amazing and I love how you portrayed Jongin and the other members. I love The Implications of Telepathy and always wished that it was longer. You did a great job remixing the original!

[halcyondusk]

s o b s ;______; thank you. i thought hard about how to portray them, adding more information to their character from the gab between when kelley wrote implications and this was written, so that's more canon details and interactions and guh. i'm glad you think it was a worthy remix ;;

[anonymous]

WAILS I HAVE NO WORDS I HAVE TEARS I HAVE SLEEPLESSNESS COMBINED WITH SAD I AM SAD
SEHUN YOU IMBECILE EXO WHY JESUS
it's so heartbreaking ;A; I HEARTBROKEN
i hope you understand my disconnected and incoherent strings of thought ARE BECAUSE THIS WAS SO AMAZING SOBS

[halcyondusk]

;AAAAAA; oops pushes you into bed
O O P S SORRY SEHUN made everyone hate him ;_;
sobs. thank you for reading ;u;

[spiritkitkat]

So I read this really late at night after I had a rather emotional week and WOW, that was a mistake because by the ending I was sobbing while throwing a fit and punching all my pillows and blankets and screaming "fuck you" to the world

[halcyondusk]

;_________; o o p s omg i hope your pillows are okay keke <3 lord

thank you augh. i tried hard to keep the flow and tone the same, while at the same time putting in some lighter moments but keeping the same despondent voice and inevitable helplessness that is kyungsoo, essentially. psych fics are brilliant, and i'm really glad you think that this is worthy of being a better kaisoo fic ;_____; and thank you for the rec ;A;

SOBS HAHAHA WOOPS MAKES EVERYONE HATE SEHUN OOPS ;___; thanks for the comment and i'm so sorry my reply's late, i had exams ;u;