Looking back on all of that, it's nice to believe that you still love me, and want me in your life, even if it's just a little piece. But ask me if I give a shit. Because I don't. So you can stop vaguely bringing me up.

I wouldn't go as far as to say 'everything I ever wanted'. Because to me, there is so much more out there. So many better things that I could have, and already do have. So don't flatter yourself, you're only making it worse. I'm perfectly fine with the way things ended up, and I'm better than you whether you're willing to admit it or not. Stooping ( Read more... )

I would never have thought twice about saying what I'm going to say now. Not to you, and certainly not to anyone because I'm just too nice. But I've broken free of that, standing my ground and picking up the peices so I can finally move on with my life. Bigger and better things are defintely in the future. I am officially done dealing with those ( Read more... )

I recently just lost one of the most important people in my life. Nothing's going to be the same and it seems like no one has one fucking thing to do or say about it. I'm in love and I know he loves me back. And I don't know what the trouble was that started all of this. The reasons all have run away but the feeling never did. It's not something I ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish you were as scared about me leaving you, as I am about you leaving me. That's all.

It's been an interesting couple of days. Jordan's birthday was yesterday but we got barely any time together because I was rushing around to the doctor's, the hospital, the bank, and everywhere in between. It turns out I might have a staff infection, terrific, just what I need. After I got done spending time with my love, I got home and took my new ( Read more... )

It's too early to be awake, but I feel sick. So many things are just going wrong and making me so fucking worried and I can't even take it anymore. I just keep pushing myself away from absolutely everyone and I don't know what to do, who to believe, who to trust, or what to think. I really don't trust anybody. There's way too many shady people and ( Read more... )

I just think it's fun to play truth or dare with the one I love, especially when there's sexual inuendo involved.
hahahahahahaha : )

Complete and total adoration, my gift to you my heart was yours. In ten weeks you shaped it, in one night you murdered it. Torn from my chest and laid at your feet. That first step you took was the worst, since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark. We still have these memories, but we'll never see what we could have been ( Read more... )

I've been worried about almost everything lately. But this just went through a major change and it was and still is too hard for me to grasp onto and take it all in. I guess I just don't have enough time. I know that I'm about to lose one of the most important people in my life, since the day I was brought to this world. Since I've been such a ( Read more... )