[For hexywitch]

[halfbloodalways]

Who: Severus Snape and Lily Evans
What: Severus is busy destroying pretty much everything he owns. Lily comes by to make sure he's not dead or something.
When: The morning after this thread
Where: Snape's place
Warnings: I'm throwing 'NC-17' on this puppy for smut reasons
Status: In Progress
Notes: This is a 'What if?' scenario. This is, in no way

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[hexywitch]

Lily had done her best to clean as much as was possible. She was able to repair most of the vials he'd broken, but any potions inside were lost, mingled with too many others to separate.

The burned books had also proved a problem. She stacked them up and charmed a broom to sweep up any ash or remaining glass, while a similarly charmed mop cleans the potions sludge that, as far as Lily could tell, had begun to grow.

By the time Severus emerged from the bathroom, his flat was looking fairly decent and the tea was ready and on the table. Her eyes widened when she saw him, surprised by his appearance in the Muggle clothes. If he didn't like the clothes because they were reminiscent of his childhood, then that was why she loved them. And he looked good in them too. The fit him properly, the shirt outlining his torso favorably while the pants hugged his hips. Since they'd started school it had been extremely rare to see him in anything but a cloak that covered him from head to toe in black fabric. She caught herself staring for a moment

[halfbloodalways]

"Yes. Thank you." He noticed how she looked at him and scowled. "I can't very well put my regular clothes back on until I've washed them. Besides," he paused to looked around for his wand, "not like this place has a wizard robes shop anywhere - none that I've found any ways

[hexywitch]

She didn't turn back, sure her cheeks were still red, and added milk to her tea.

"It's by your place at the table," she said after a pause that was just a little too long. "How do you take your tea? The same?"

[halfbloodalways]

"Hmm? Yes."

He wandered into the kitchen and placed his robes off to the side. Snatching up his wand and tucking it into his belt Severus opened the refrigerator and poked about.

"Hungry?"

[hexywitch]

"But this!" she cried, meaning everything that had just happened between them. "Someone is going to end up heartbroken at the end of all this. I can't make you both happy. Even if that's all I want in the world."

[halfbloodalways]

Severus nearly commented that someone already had several times over in life but he managed to hold his tongue on that front. "I know you're going to hate the idea but... maybe don't tell James about this?" He wouldn't call it a lie so much as not telling James about something that didn't concern him.

"As for being heartbroken or otherwise - if you love me then I'm willing to take the risk of being heartbroken. This is the first time in a long time I've felt happy. I'll take the consequences if they come. I can live a double life - I've done it before. So from my standpoint I'm willing to agree to whatever you want if it means you'll still visit me." He left off mention of sex because he pretty much thought it would go without saying at this point along with plain enjoying each other's company

[hexywitch]

Lily was quiet for a moment, thinking.

"We could have an affair, is what you're saying," she said, thoughtfully.

[halfbloodalways]

Severus cringed. "I don't really like that label but that is one option. And...," he paused, searching for the right words, "this isn't about sex for me. Granted, it was good - it was really good and I'll be the first one to say I would like more of that in the future - but you know that's not the reason I've stayed in your life. I've stayed because I would do anything for you - I love you and I want you to be happy. Leaving James would make you unhappy. I... I can't ask you to do that."