Wretched Feelings
Title: Wretched Feelings
Genre: Romance, Angst
Pairing: No specific pairing
Rating: G
Length: Drabble
Disclaimer: Standard fangirl disclaimer applies.
Summary: Because sometimes, you have to give up even if you don't want to. A sort-of sequel to "Let Me Love Freely"
There are times when I wished you were mine, I desired to be selfish too. I wanted you all to myself, as wrong as I know that is. It never really happened that you became mine. That's what happens when you don't really say anything. I saw you with all those other guys, I tried to be happy for you but in my deepest heart of hearts, I ached for you. I wanted to know the feeling of your hand in mine. I wanted to know the feeling of your warm and gentle touch. I wanted to know the taste your sweetness upon my longing lips. I wanted to know what it felt like to be loved by somebody like you.
All I could do was watch from an unfriendly distance, to sit in the secondary glow of your love with another. As much as it hurt me, it was all I could do. I couldn't build enough courage to tell you how I really felt, how I truly feel. I still can't and it still hurts. I don't think it will ever stop hurting. But what can I say, I've been called a fool for all these things. I've been called a masochist for the pain I put myself through. I've been called a martyr for the sacrifices I've done so far. I've been called an idiot. The only thing I haven't been called was yours.
And that's all I ever wanted anyway.
I don't want to take away your happiness for my own selfishness. I see you. I see that you're happy, you're joyously elated with your life. I don't want to be a hindrance to that happiness. I'm willing to let my feelings be side-swept for that, as stupid as that may sound to other people. I don't want to destroy the little civility and interaction we have over my longing and selfishness. It's all I have to rely on and I can't handle losing that last shred of emotion you and I share.
As much as I want more than just a casual "hi" or "hello", to see you happy is still the greatest feeling I've ever had the opportunity of feeling.
Some day, I want to be the one to make you happy.
A/N: I know I've been writing a lot of romantic, angsty one-shots lately but alas, that's all I have time for nowadays. Plus, I'm kind of in a fanfic rut. X3 Sorry readers. I'll try to work on my other story soon. In the mean time, I hope you enjoy this. Comments are love~
Genre: Romance, Angst
Pairing: No specific pairing
Rating: G
Length: Drabble
Disclaimer: Standard fangirl disclaimer applies.
Summary: Because sometimes, you have to give up even if you don't want to. A sort-of sequel to "Let Me Love Freely"
There are times when I wished you were mine, I desired to be selfish too. I wanted you all to myself, as wrong as I know that is. It never really happened that you became mine. That's what happens when you don't really say anything. I saw you with all those other guys, I tried to be happy for you but in my deepest heart of hearts, I ached for you. I wanted to know the feeling of your hand in mine. I wanted to know the feeling of your warm and gentle touch. I wanted to know the taste your sweetness upon my longing lips. I wanted to know what it felt like to be loved by somebody like you.
All I could do was watch from an unfriendly distance, to sit in the secondary glow of your love with another. As much as it hurt me, it was all I could do. I couldn't build enough courage to tell you how I really felt, how I truly feel. I still can't and it still hurts. I don't think it will ever stop hurting. But what can I say, I've been called a fool for all these things. I've been called a masochist for the pain I put myself through. I've been called a martyr for the sacrifices I've done so far. I've been called an idiot. The only thing I haven't been called was yours.
And that's all I ever wanted anyway.
I don't want to take away your happiness for my own selfishness. I see you. I see that you're happy, you're joyously elated with your life. I don't want to be a hindrance to that happiness. I'm willing to let my feelings be side-swept for that, as stupid as that may sound to other people. I don't want to destroy the little civility and interaction we have over my longing and selfishness. It's all I have to rely on and I can't handle losing that last shred of emotion you and I share.
As much as I want more than just a casual "hi" or "hello", to see you happy is still the greatest feeling I've ever had the opportunity of feeling.
Some day, I want to be the one to make you happy.
A/N: I know I've been writing a lot of romantic, angsty one-shots lately but alas, that's all I have time for nowadays. Plus, I'm kind of in a fanfic rut. X3 Sorry readers. I'll try to work on my other story soon. In the mean time, I hope you enjoy this. Comments are love~