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Dear___________ ,
Thank you for being a complete douchey jerk and a really wonderful guy. Thank you for inciting the following emotions in random order: happiness, something like love, lust, something like hate, rage, anger, sadness/depression, self-pity, hope, despair, confusion, the list goes on, as I'm sure you can imagine. Thank you for making me feel beautiful and conversely, an ugly beast. Thank you for toying with my self esteem. You have no idea how much I appreciate that.
Thank you for making me feel smart and funny and witty.
Thank you for making me feel like a scum-sucking moron.'Thank you?', you ask? ' Why is she thanking me?', you may say? I'm thanking you because you made me realize that I am not at the beginning or the end of my journey. I am in the middle, because I have come so far and yet, have so far to go.
Thank you for the good moments, the moments when you said sweet, amazing things that made me proud to be me and know you. Thank you for the bad moments, because they helped me realize my strength and determination and my voice. Thanks for giving me encouragement and support even when you didn't know you were giving it.
Thank you for making me have feelings for you because it taught me no matter how much it hurts, I can give of myself and still be whole ( does that make sense to you?). There are many things about myself/mylife that sometimes I wish I could change. But then I consider things again and realize that my life's worth has been accumulated in every one of those steps. Every experience, be it positive or negative, has attributed to who I am right now, even if some days I'm not-so-happy with who that is.
Thank you for being honest, especially at the moments when it hurt me the most because, unknowingly, that was when I most needed to hear the truth.
Thank you for making me laugh, smile, cry, scream. Those moments are ones I would not take back for all the money in the world. Thank you for dealing with my pissy mood swings, which probably came a little more often than necessary. Thank you for showing me that side of you, the side that has fears, doubts, reservations and regrets.
Thanks for getting jealous and understanding when I did, because in some weird, sick way it shows that we cared for one another. Thanks for the notes, the messages, the texts, the inside jokes, the teasing... they made me feel special, both having them sent to me and sending them.
At the end of it all, while I still would rather have you in my life, I know that it's better this way. That we both walked away a little disappointed, not quite broken-hearted and maybe just a little bit wiser.
Thanks for everything.
Thank you for being a complete douchey jerk and a really wonderful guy. Thank you for inciting the following emotions in random order: happiness, something like love, lust, something like hate, rage, anger, sadness/depression, self-pity, hope, despair, confusion, the list goes on, as I'm sure you can imagine. Thank you for making me feel beautiful and conversely, an ugly beast. Thank you for toying with my self esteem. You have no idea how much I appreciate that.
Thank you for making me feel smart and funny and witty.
Thank you for making me feel like a scum-sucking moron.'Thank you?', you ask? ' Why is she thanking me?', you may say? I'm thanking you because you made me realize that I am not at the beginning or the end of my journey. I am in the middle, because I have come so far and yet, have so far to go.
Thank you for the good moments, the moments when you said sweet, amazing things that made me proud to be me and know you. Thank you for the bad moments, because they helped me realize my strength and determination and my voice. Thanks for giving me encouragement and support even when you didn't know you were giving it.
Thank you for making me have feelings for you because it taught me no matter how much it hurts, I can give of myself and still be whole ( does that make sense to you?). There are many things about myself/mylife that sometimes I wish I could change. But then I consider things again and realize that my life's worth has been accumulated in every one of those steps. Every experience, be it positive or negative, has attributed to who I am right now, even if some days I'm not-so-happy with who that is.
Thank you for being honest, especially at the moments when it hurt me the most because, unknowingly, that was when I most needed to hear the truth.
Thank you for making me laugh, smile, cry, scream. Those moments are ones I would not take back for all the money in the world. Thank you for dealing with my pissy mood swings, which probably came a little more often than necessary. Thank you for showing me that side of you, the side that has fears, doubts, reservations and regrets.
Thanks for getting jealous and understanding when I did, because in some weird, sick way it shows that we cared for one another. Thanks for the notes, the messages, the texts, the inside jokes, the teasing... they made me feel special, both having them sent to me and sending them.
At the end of it all, while I still would rather have you in my life, I know that it's better this way. That we both walked away a little disappointed, not quite broken-hearted and maybe just a little bit wiser.
Thanks for everything.