Today was the best day I've had in a while. I had my X-Rays done today, took forever but I'm glad that they are out of the way. Hopefully there is nothing too serious wrong with me. No work today so my day was spent with Thomas. We went and put the deposit on the apartment we want and set the move in day for the first of February. Yummy pepperoni ( Read more... )

It seems that I have huge gaps between journal entries now, I think that's because all of my free time is filled with making up for lost time with Thomas. I go to work, I sleep, and I see him. I try to be home as little as possible, my parents have the tendency to make me crazy. Work is going as expected, I'm busy, people are lazy, things go on ( Read more... )

So I will be twenty in less than a month now. I can feel the years of being a teenager start to slip away into the oblivion of yesterday. I don't think I'm going to feel much different, I haven't accomplished much since I was fourteen or so. I even have the same job that I had when I was sixteen. I wonder if maybe I stopped trying because of Thomas ( Read more... )

I miss the way things used to be. When we had nothing to talk about so we talked about nothing in particular. Everything was so new, so innocent. Now there is a plethora of bad memories lurking in the back of my mind. Normally, these thoughts are kept locked away. Though, I have realized that some of the things that go unsaid, probably shouldn't ( Read more... )

Work - Things are going pretty smoothly, all things considered. I just got another raise and I'm steadily working my way into my next promotion. My employees are taking my promotion into management a lot better than I thought they would and I'm not feeling the hostilities like I was before. I got overtime for last week, which really surprised me ( Read more... )

I'm home again, and for once, it feels rather good. My trip to Texas was awesome, well rather, my trip home was awesome. Thomas and I got to spend some much needed time together, I got to go to the Oklahoma City Zoo, and now, my life can get back to normal ( Read more... )

Okay, make that Wednesday, Lol. But close enough!

By the way, just got back from seeing the Notebook with Carrie. Saddest movie ever, I think I cried through most of it.

Well holy crap and a half! Tuesday! TuesDAY!! TUESDAY!!! I get to go pick up Thomas and bring him home for good. He called me at work to give me the good news and I was running around like a god damn idiot. I lost all sense of work ethic. He has been gone for four long months and now it is drawing to an end ( Read more... )

I refuse to get my hopes up. I will not be disappointed again. I've waited too long, become too strong to be torn down again. Yet there is this part of me that wants to stray from the norm.. The part of me that wants to say "My boyfriend is coming home ( Read more... )

Life is getting me down again. I haven't been talking to my friends much as of late. I just haven't found the desire to socialize with anyone. I work hard to get myself through the day and then come home to be alone. The things that once gave me joy, don't anymore. I find the only time that I'm happy is when I can talk to Thomas... and even then I ( Read more... )