why is nothing i ever do good enough for my parents? i get a B- in a college level theory class and they jump down my throat saying that it's inexcusable. i'm so fucking sick of grades being everything to them. as if i haven't worked my ass off enough for everything i've done in the past 3 months. i've spent more time at school than i have at ( Read more... )

you know, for all the complaining i did about guys and dolls over the past few months opening night went off without a hitch. this past week everyone buckled down and sacrficed their time in order to make this show be the best it could be. i commend everyone for putting in the time and effort this week to make opening night go as well as it did, ( Read more... )

ah what the hell, everyone else is doing it.

Post a memory of me in the comments. Doesn't have to be the first memory of us meeting, just the first event that comes to your mind when you think about me. It can be anything you want.

it's always hard to let go of something you've loved so much, especially when you know that it won't ever happen again. i'm gonna miss festival so incredibly much. the cast has been a family to me since january and most for the past 2 years, and now it's hard to swallow that we'll never all be in the same place at one time ever again and that ( Read more... )

sometimes i just wish the year would be over with and then maybe i wouldn't feel so lonely all the time. it's definitely time for me to get away from here and meet some new people who've never heard of me before and start anew. maybe i'll have better luck next year. i just hope the friends i have here don't forget about me after i leave.

wow, me and casey can have the weirdest convos sometimes ( Read more... )

i want my life back the way it was. i don't want to live like this anymore. i've lost all my friends and i don't know why. i just want the bullshit to end. now.

and the depression starts all over again.

i don't think i've been this pissed off at a group of people ever. how many goddamn times to i have to teach a fucking song before people actually start to learn their parts? i've spent more hours than i care to say working on that fucking piece and they still aren't getting it. i feel like i'm wasting my time even bothering to try to teach it ( Read more... )

i don't know why i bother anymore. nobody really gives a damn about what's happening to me. so confused about what i'm doing wrong and i don't know how to fix it. nothing i do seems to have any redeeming value lately, i only do it out of the goodness of my heart. sometimes i might get a thank you or some sign of affection, but i guess maybe ( Read more... )