Some Things Can't Be Spoken Face-To-Face [Oneshot]
Title: Some Things Can't Be Spoken Face-To-Face
Author: Ani
Genre: Slight angst
Rating: G
Pairings: Chiitaro
Summary: They were just chatting online late one night.
Disclaimer: I don't own JE
The first thing I did when I got home was to collapse on on my soft bed. Today’s photoshoot had been more taxing than usual. On top of that, I had to stay up the night before to finish an essay due tomorrow, since I knew I wouldn’t have the time or motivation to do so after work. Curling into a ball, I allowed myself to drift out of consciousness.
When I woke up again, it was dark and the house was quiet. I checked the time on my phone and found with a start it was already past 11. Did I really sleep for over 6 hours? Reluctantly, I got out of bed and turned on my laptop. It would probably be a good idea to look over my essay. My stomach growled and I told myself to get leftovers as soon as I was done.
I got online and was about to close the log-in window when I saw he was on as well. My heart did a double-take and my mouse hovered over his name for several seconds before I moved it away to open my essay.
When I tried to read what I wrote, the words blurred together until I saw only his name on the screen. I sighed, frustrated at how my subconscious wouldn’t leave him alone. Moving on impulse, I opened a chat window with him and started typing.
Morimoto Ryutaro: hey
I sat back and waited for his reply.
Chinen Yuuri: hiii ryutaro
A few more seconds passed as I wondered how to my thoughts into words. While I’d been thinking, he had wrote something.
Chinen Yuuri: how are you?
It such a typical, generic question, it made me want to scream. He’d disappeared without saying a word to me today, I had to ask around and eventually learned he left with Yamada early for another NYC shoot.
Morimoto Ryutaro: good. you?
I shouldn’t have been so bothered. He didn’t belong to me after all, he had no obligation to tell me anything...but I so wished he did. I so wished he would.
Chinen Yuuri: that’s good :) I’m good too. Except...
The pencil icon at the bottom indicated he was still typing but suddenly it stopped and turned into an eraser. Then nothing.
Morimoto Ryutaro: except...?
Curiosity go the better of me. I hated the way he always left me hanging onto him, hated the way he could manipulate me without even trying.
Chinen Yuuri: I miss you
For several seconds, I only blinked at the screen. No, my heart didn’t suddenly just jump into my throat.
Morimoto Ryutaro: what do you mean? you saw me today
Chinen Yuuri: nothing never mind
I felt deflated. Did I say the wrong thing? He wasn’t typing anymore and neither was I. Was the conversation just going die like this? Feeling suddenly depressed, I left my room to find some food. When I came back, I saw the orange tab that indicated a new message from him.
Chinen Yuuri: what would you say if I got a boyfriend?
I’ll kill him, I’ll flay him alive, I’ll tear him to shreds, I’ll strangle him, burn him, threaten him that if he ever makes you cry-
Morimoto Ryutaro: oh. congrats. who is it?
Chinen Yuuri: I said ‘if’
Morimoto Ryutaro: i know. that’s what I would say
A minutes lapsed before his reply.
Chinen Yuuri: That’s it?
Morimoto Ryutaro: what else do you expect me to say?
Chinen Yuuri: ...i dunno. something else.
For some reason, an image of him crying slid into my mind.
Morimoto Ryutaro: like what? you’re too young for a boyfriend? you’re older than me! I’m not your-
Chinen Yuuri: yeah
Morimoto Ryutaro: -mother. Wait what?
Chinen Yuuri: Maybe I want you to stop me. Maybe my ‘boyfriend’s’ not really the one i like. maybe i’m just saying that to get your attention. cuz you haven’t been talking to me you didn’t even say ‘bye’ to me today it was like you didn’t even see me when i said ‘hi’ either
I didn’t dare believe what my mind was telling me, so I continued feign innocence.
Morimoto Ryutaro: why would your boyfriend be someone you didn’t like? and i didn’t even see you leave, you left early without telling me
Chinen Yuuri: maybe cuz I want a certain person to get jealous
Morimoto Ryutaro: why?
Chinen Yuuri: honestly, do i have to spell everything out for you? Yama-chan’s right, you’re really stupid
The sudden insults caught me off-guard, but I also couldn’t help smiling. It reminded me of the way we used to talk to one another like this, late at night when we should have been sleeping.
Morimoto Ryutaro: you didn’t answer my question
Chinen Yuuri: figure it out yourself, stupid
Before I could type in a retort to that, he had already sent another message.
Chinen Yuuri: it’s cuz i like some idiot who’s been ignoring me for the past few weeks so i thought he might pay attention to me again if i said i had a boyfriend. everyone else says he likes me too so then if he got jealous, then i’ll know for sure... but i forgot that he was an idiot which also means he’s stupid
There was a short pause before he finished his tirade.
Chinen Yuuri: and i’m not telling you who it is, you should know, if you don’t i’m not talking to you again
I thought he would log off at this point, but he didn’t.
Morimoto Ryutaro: so he’s someone I know?
After waiting five minutes, I realized he wasn’t going to reply. I couldn’t believe it. Was he really not talking to me?
Morimoto Ryutaro: Chinen? Chii?
Truth is, I already knew the answer, but I never voiced it. I was too scared of the off-chance that I was wrong. My hopes had been raised several times when he would sit on my lap and hug me. It’s been dashed just as much when I saw him hanging onto the other members and I couldn’t keep out thoughts of, no I’m not special to him.
Morimoto Ryutaro: do you like me?
His reply took a long time to come, but when it did, it made me smile like there was no tomorrow.
Chinen Yuuri: yes stupid. took you long enough
My essay never got the revision it needed, but what did it matter? When I went to his house in the morning, he turned red and slammed the door in my face. His mom came to see what the fuss was about and kindly let me in.
When we left for school, he blushed a cute pink shade as I held his hand, but I noticed the way he kept glancing at me. I teased him about it and got a stomped foot in return. It was worth it to see the embarrassed expression on his face.
A/N: I hate the ending and I want to kill the person who inspired this. Off to (hopefully) drown myself in the shower out of depression.
HAPPY 16TH MORIMOTO RYUTARO ♥
getakissfromChinen!
Author: Ani
Genre: Slight angst
Rating: G
Pairings: Chiitaro
Summary: They were just chatting online late one night.
Disclaimer: I don't own JE
The first thing I did when I got home was to collapse on on my soft bed. Today’s photoshoot had been more taxing than usual. On top of that, I had to stay up the night before to finish an essay due tomorrow, since I knew I wouldn’t have the time or motivation to do so after work. Curling into a ball, I allowed myself to drift out of consciousness.
When I woke up again, it was dark and the house was quiet. I checked the time on my phone and found with a start it was already past 11. Did I really sleep for over 6 hours? Reluctantly, I got out of bed and turned on my laptop. It would probably be a good idea to look over my essay. My stomach growled and I told myself to get leftovers as soon as I was done.
I got online and was about to close the log-in window when I saw he was on as well. My heart did a double-take and my mouse hovered over his name for several seconds before I moved it away to open my essay.
When I tried to read what I wrote, the words blurred together until I saw only his name on the screen. I sighed, frustrated at how my subconscious wouldn’t leave him alone. Moving on impulse, I opened a chat window with him and started typing.
Morimoto Ryutaro: hey
I sat back and waited for his reply.
Chinen Yuuri: hiii ryutaro
A few more seconds passed as I wondered how to my thoughts into words. While I’d been thinking, he had wrote something.
Chinen Yuuri: how are you?
It such a typical, generic question, it made me want to scream. He’d disappeared without saying a word to me today, I had to ask around and eventually learned he left with Yamada early for another NYC shoot.
Morimoto Ryutaro: good. you?
I shouldn’t have been so bothered. He didn’t belong to me after all, he had no obligation to tell me anything...but I so wished he did. I so wished he would.
Chinen Yuuri: that’s good :) I’m good too. Except...
The pencil icon at the bottom indicated he was still typing but suddenly it stopped and turned into an eraser. Then nothing.
Morimoto Ryutaro: except...?
Curiosity go the better of me. I hated the way he always left me hanging onto him, hated the way he could manipulate me without even trying.
Chinen Yuuri: I miss you
For several seconds, I only blinked at the screen. No, my heart didn’t suddenly just jump into my throat.
Morimoto Ryutaro: what do you mean? you saw me today
Chinen Yuuri: nothing never mind
I felt deflated. Did I say the wrong thing? He wasn’t typing anymore and neither was I. Was the conversation just going die like this? Feeling suddenly depressed, I left my room to find some food. When I came back, I saw the orange tab that indicated a new message from him.
Chinen Yuuri: what would you say if I got a boyfriend?
I’ll kill him, I’ll flay him alive, I’ll tear him to shreds, I’ll strangle him, burn him, threaten him that if he ever makes you cry-
Morimoto Ryutaro: oh. congrats. who is it?
Chinen Yuuri: I said ‘if’
Morimoto Ryutaro: i know. that’s what I would say
A minutes lapsed before his reply.
Chinen Yuuri: That’s it?
Morimoto Ryutaro: what else do you expect me to say?
Chinen Yuuri: ...i dunno. something else.
For some reason, an image of him crying slid into my mind.
Morimoto Ryutaro: like what? you’re too young for a boyfriend? you’re older than me! I’m not your-
Chinen Yuuri: yeah
Morimoto Ryutaro: -mother. Wait what?
Chinen Yuuri: Maybe I want you to stop me. Maybe my ‘boyfriend’s’ not really the one i like. maybe i’m just saying that to get your attention. cuz you haven’t been talking to me you didn’t even say ‘bye’ to me today it was like you didn’t even see me when i said ‘hi’ either
I didn’t dare believe what my mind was telling me, so I continued feign innocence.
Morimoto Ryutaro: why would your boyfriend be someone you didn’t like? and i didn’t even see you leave, you left early without telling me
Chinen Yuuri: maybe cuz I want a certain person to get jealous
Morimoto Ryutaro: why?
Chinen Yuuri: honestly, do i have to spell everything out for you? Yama-chan’s right, you’re really stupid
The sudden insults caught me off-guard, but I also couldn’t help smiling. It reminded me of the way we used to talk to one another like this, late at night when we should have been sleeping.
Morimoto Ryutaro: you didn’t answer my question
Chinen Yuuri: figure it out yourself, stupid
Before I could type in a retort to that, he had already sent another message.
Chinen Yuuri: it’s cuz i like some idiot who’s been ignoring me for the past few weeks so i thought he might pay attention to me again if i said i had a boyfriend. everyone else says he likes me too so then if he got jealous, then i’ll know for sure... but i forgot that he was an idiot which also means he’s stupid
There was a short pause before he finished his tirade.
Chinen Yuuri: and i’m not telling you who it is, you should know, if you don’t i’m not talking to you again
I thought he would log off at this point, but he didn’t.
Morimoto Ryutaro: so he’s someone I know?
After waiting five minutes, I realized he wasn’t going to reply. I couldn’t believe it. Was he really not talking to me?
Morimoto Ryutaro: Chinen? Chii?
Truth is, I already knew the answer, but I never voiced it. I was too scared of the off-chance that I was wrong. My hopes had been raised several times when he would sit on my lap and hug me. It’s been dashed just as much when I saw him hanging onto the other members and I couldn’t keep out thoughts of, no I’m not special to him.
Morimoto Ryutaro: do you like me?
His reply took a long time to come, but when it did, it made me smile like there was no tomorrow.
Chinen Yuuri: yes stupid. took you long enough
My essay never got the revision it needed, but what did it matter? When I went to his house in the morning, he turned red and slammed the door in my face. His mom came to see what the fuss was about and kindly let me in.
When we left for school, he blushed a cute pink shade as I held his hand, but I noticed the way he kept glancing at me. I teased him about it and got a stomped foot in return. It was worth it to see the embarrassed expression on his face.
A/N: I hate the ending and I want to kill the person who inspired this. Off to (hopefully) drown myself in the shower out of depression.
HAPPY 16TH MORIMOTO RYUTARO ♥
getakissfromChinen!