Special [Oneshot]
Title: Special
Author: Ani
Rating: G
Pairings: Chiitaro, slight!Yamajima
Summary: Chinen's best friend asked him to make Morimoto Ryutaro fall for him.
Disclaimer: I don't own JE
“Chinen, you know what tomorrow is?” Ryutaro asked, not taking his eyes off his DS.
“Yeah, Monday, I have a test, that’s why I’m studying,” I replied automatically, a textbook propped in my lap.
“That’s not what I meant.” I felt the other boy shift behind me and I twisted around to see him doing the same. “It’ll be one month tomorrow since you asked me out.”
“Oh.” A confusing mix of emotions began to stir inside, I couldn’t even tell what I was feeling.
One month ago, I asked an unknown student, Morimoto Ryutaro, out at the request of my best friend. Back then, I didn’t even know who he was until Yuuto pointed him out to me.
“Can’t you tell me already? The reason why you asked me out, even though we were complete strangers?” Of course, I never told Ryutaro about Yuuto’s request. In fact, I hadn’t really thought about my initial reasons for asking him out for the longest time now.
Ryutaro was younger by two years, but it was hard to tell when we stood side by side. He was a full head taller than me, looked and acted a lot more like a third year than I did. The first time I visited his house, or apartment actually, I found out he was living by himself.
“My parents are overseas on business, my siblings went with them since they’re younger, but I wanted to stay in Japan,” was his answer when I questioned him. “It’s too much of a hassle trying to learn English.”
As a resulted, I ended up visiting him a lot more than he visited me. It’s not that I don’t love my family; my parents were fine when I told them I was dating another boy and my sister couldn’t care less, she has her own life to deal with. Call it teenage hormones, I just rather be anywhere else but in my own house.
During the times when I was alone with him, we’d talk about random topics and I went from knowing nothing about Morimoto Ryutaro to knowing everything about him. He had a pet hamster in middle school who he still misses, his little brother is a complete brat, he sucks at math, his most prized possession is his DS, he likes trains and is a fan of baseball, so on and so forth. You know, just the small, trivial things that make up a person’s overall being.
He’ll also ask you ‘what’s wrong?’ if you act differently, he tries not to worry you about his own problems, he knows when to leave you alone and when you need a hug, he’ll lecture you about acting more your age, but he still lets you get away acting childish, and he won’t push you to talk about some things, even when you can see how much the curiosity is killing him. The small, trivial things he does (unconsciously?) that makes me feel special, no matter how much I tell myself I’m not.
“I said I would tell you after one month. If that’s tomorrow, then I’ll tell you tomorrow.” I went back to reading my textbook, the blood pounding in my head. I tried not to think what would happen then.
“Can I ask you a question then?” The sounds of the DS ceased as he finished another game.
“You just did, but go ahead and ask another one.” I replied cheekily and I grinned since it made him laugh.
His next words wiped it off my face. “Do you like Yuuto?”
“Why do you care?” I finally asked after a long silence. The words in the book read without being properly processed.
“Because you’re always watching him and Ryosuke together. Because sometimes I see you glaring at Ryosuke and when I look into your eyes, I can see the jealously flickering inside.” Ryutaro spoke bluntly and the truth of his words made my body go cold. “And...because it bothers me when I see how miserable you get.”
I went numb as his arms wrapped around my shoulders and he pressed his warmth against my back. “W-what are you doing?” I tried to tell myself it was just a simple hug, he’s hugged me plenty of times before, in front of Yuuto and Ryosuke to show that we were ‘going out’ but with every second that passed, I could feel my face heating up because it didn’t feel like a normal hug.
“Didn’t you say you would make me fall for you in one month?” His breath tickled my ears and made goosebumps rise on my arms.
“I wasn’t being serious about that,” I mumbled. It was true, I only said that on an impulse to get him to agree on dating me. Then I realized the implication behind his words. “W-wait, Ryutaro, you didn’t really-?”
“And what if I did?” My insides melted when I saw the affection in Ryutaro’s eyes.
“B-but I thought...I thought you didn’t like guys!” I exclaimed, echoing his own words from a month ago.
“I don’t. But I like you. And I don’t care if you a guy or a girl.”
“That doesn’t make sense, you know?” I told him, my heart throbbing painfully. “You shouldn’t have fallen for me, Ryutaro, since I...” I’m going out with you for the wrong reasons. “I’ll just hurt you in the end.” I had figured he would hate me after I told him the reason I asked him out in the first place was because of Yuuto.
“Chii, can you ask Morimoto Ryutaro out?” Yuuto asked at lunch one day.
I was busy forking my gyoza but at his words, I paused. “...who?”
Yuuto bit his lower lip cutely and his eyes slid away almost guiltily. “He’s a first year that’s been hanging around Yamada-kun a lot lately. No one really knows why, but I heard a lot of students and teachers say Morimoto-kun is a bit of a delinquent.”
“And you want me to ask him out because....?” I had an idea of why Yuuto was worried, but I didn’t want to voice it.
“So he won’t get Yamada-kun into some sort of unexpected trouble. A-and also some people are spreading rumors that they’re...together.” Somehow, I knew it was the latter part that was bothering Yuuto. It natural, seeing how Yuuto had a crush on Yamada ever since middle school. He could never pluck up the courage to tell Yamada though.
I found this fact as both a blessing and a curse. Blessing because it meant there was still the slimmest chance Yuuto might notice me instead. At the same time, some nagging instinct kept telling me Yuuto could never see me as more than just a friend.
“Are they really?” I asked as a way to stall time. If I agreed, it would make Yuuto happy but break me inside. If I said no, Yuuto would be disappointed but understanding, and I would...
“I dunno. When I saw them the other day...they seemed really close. A lot closer than they should be.” There was a slightly bitter tone in Yuuto’s voice and I realized just how much this was bothering him. “So if you can ask Morimoto-kun out and make him fall for you instead, then Yamada-kun-”
“-will become available,” I finished, feeling my heart get twisted up.
Yuuto nodded, watching me hopefully. “You don’t have to do this if you really don’t want to, I know it’s really selfish of me to ask, that’s why I’ll understand if you don’t agree and-”
“I’ll do it. I can do it.,” I told Yuuto confidently. “I’ll keep Morimoto-kun distracted so you should go after Yamada-kun!”
“You didn’t answer my question. Do you like Yuuto?” Ryutaro asked again, completely ignoring my words.
“If I say ‘yes’, what would you do?” I wanted to know.
His reply took a long time to come. He seemed to be thinking it through carefully, and the quiet seconds ticked by, interrupted only by the loud beating of my own heart. Finally, “Will you be happier with him than with me?”
Disappointed could be one word to describe my emotion. Confused would definitely be another. “I dunno anymore. If it was a month ago, I would say ‘yes’, but now, I don’t know,” I told him honestly, staring down at my hands. “Yuuto’s my best friend, I’ve known him since forever, I was always with him, I took care of him when he got sick and I helped him through schoolwork he didn’t understand. All I wanted in return was his attention and his feelings, but when I see him now, I realized I have never seen smile at me the way he does with Yamada-kun. I want to be someone special to Yuuto, but I can’t, because that spot’s already been taken from me.”
My eyes grew teary. I had known for a long time Yuuto would never see me as more than just his best friend, but his personality was so likeable and friendly, my hopes constantly grew, only to be crushed, over and over again.
I was tired of this endless cycle, tired of being hurt and comforted time and time again without ever moving forward. A part of me wanted to let go of Yuuto, but another part, the stubborn part, wanted to hold on to him, because it’s just been so long. At this point, I wasn’t even sure I could fall for someone else anymore.
Ryutaro’s arms grew tighter around me. I closed my eyes and leaned against him, my emotions soothed somehow by his warmth. “How willing are you to take a risk?” I looked at him and felt a soft kiss planted on my forehead. “I can’t replace Yuuto; I can’t even compete with him. But, if you’ll have me, I want to be your special someone.”
A/N: I'm sorry, this makes no sense.
Author: Ani
Rating: G
Pairings: Chiitaro, slight!Yamajima
Summary: Chinen's best friend asked him to make Morimoto Ryutaro fall for him.
Disclaimer: I don't own JE
“Chinen, you know what tomorrow is?” Ryutaro asked, not taking his eyes off his DS.
“Yeah, Monday, I have a test, that’s why I’m studying,” I replied automatically, a textbook propped in my lap.
“That’s not what I meant.” I felt the other boy shift behind me and I twisted around to see him doing the same. “It’ll be one month tomorrow since you asked me out.”
“Oh.” A confusing mix of emotions began to stir inside, I couldn’t even tell what I was feeling.
One month ago, I asked an unknown student, Morimoto Ryutaro, out at the request of my best friend. Back then, I didn’t even know who he was until Yuuto pointed him out to me.
“Can’t you tell me already? The reason why you asked me out, even though we were complete strangers?” Of course, I never told Ryutaro about Yuuto’s request. In fact, I hadn’t really thought about my initial reasons for asking him out for the longest time now.
Ryutaro was younger by two years, but it was hard to tell when we stood side by side. He was a full head taller than me, looked and acted a lot more like a third year than I did. The first time I visited his house, or apartment actually, I found out he was living by himself.
“My parents are overseas on business, my siblings went with them since they’re younger, but I wanted to stay in Japan,” was his answer when I questioned him. “It’s too much of a hassle trying to learn English.”
As a resulted, I ended up visiting him a lot more than he visited me. It’s not that I don’t love my family; my parents were fine when I told them I was dating another boy and my sister couldn’t care less, she has her own life to deal with. Call it teenage hormones, I just rather be anywhere else but in my own house.
During the times when I was alone with him, we’d talk about random topics and I went from knowing nothing about Morimoto Ryutaro to knowing everything about him. He had a pet hamster in middle school who he still misses, his little brother is a complete brat, he sucks at math, his most prized possession is his DS, he likes trains and is a fan of baseball, so on and so forth. You know, just the small, trivial things that make up a person’s overall being.
He’ll also ask you ‘what’s wrong?’ if you act differently, he tries not to worry you about his own problems, he knows when to leave you alone and when you need a hug, he’ll lecture you about acting more your age, but he still lets you get away acting childish, and he won’t push you to talk about some things, even when you can see how much the curiosity is killing him. The small, trivial things he does (unconsciously?) that makes me feel special, no matter how much I tell myself I’m not.
“I said I would tell you after one month. If that’s tomorrow, then I’ll tell you tomorrow.” I went back to reading my textbook, the blood pounding in my head. I tried not to think what would happen then.
“Can I ask you a question then?” The sounds of the DS ceased as he finished another game.
“You just did, but go ahead and ask another one.” I replied cheekily and I grinned since it made him laugh.
His next words wiped it off my face. “Do you like Yuuto?”
“Why do you care?” I finally asked after a long silence. The words in the book read without being properly processed.
“Because you’re always watching him and Ryosuke together. Because sometimes I see you glaring at Ryosuke and when I look into your eyes, I can see the jealously flickering inside.” Ryutaro spoke bluntly and the truth of his words made my body go cold. “And...because it bothers me when I see how miserable you get.”
I went numb as his arms wrapped around my shoulders and he pressed his warmth against my back. “W-what are you doing?” I tried to tell myself it was just a simple hug, he’s hugged me plenty of times before, in front of Yuuto and Ryosuke to show that we were ‘going out’ but with every second that passed, I could feel my face heating up because it didn’t feel like a normal hug.
“Didn’t you say you would make me fall for you in one month?” His breath tickled my ears and made goosebumps rise on my arms.
“I wasn’t being serious about that,” I mumbled. It was true, I only said that on an impulse to get him to agree on dating me. Then I realized the implication behind his words. “W-wait, Ryutaro, you didn’t really-?”
“And what if I did?” My insides melted when I saw the affection in Ryutaro’s eyes.
“B-but I thought...I thought you didn’t like guys!” I exclaimed, echoing his own words from a month ago.
“I don’t. But I like you. And I don’t care if you a guy or a girl.”
“That doesn’t make sense, you know?” I told him, my heart throbbing painfully. “You shouldn’t have fallen for me, Ryutaro, since I...” I’m going out with you for the wrong reasons. “I’ll just hurt you in the end.” I had figured he would hate me after I told him the reason I asked him out in the first place was because of Yuuto.
“Chii, can you ask Morimoto Ryutaro out?” Yuuto asked at lunch one day.
I was busy forking my gyoza but at his words, I paused. “...who?”
Yuuto bit his lower lip cutely and his eyes slid away almost guiltily. “He’s a first year that’s been hanging around Yamada-kun a lot lately. No one really knows why, but I heard a lot of students and teachers say Morimoto-kun is a bit of a delinquent.”
“And you want me to ask him out because....?” I had an idea of why Yuuto was worried, but I didn’t want to voice it.
“So he won’t get Yamada-kun into some sort of unexpected trouble. A-and also some people are spreading rumors that they’re...together.” Somehow, I knew it was the latter part that was bothering Yuuto. It natural, seeing how Yuuto had a crush on Yamada ever since middle school. He could never pluck up the courage to tell Yamada though.
I found this fact as both a blessing and a curse. Blessing because it meant there was still the slimmest chance Yuuto might notice me instead. At the same time, some nagging instinct kept telling me Yuuto could never see me as more than just a friend.
“Are they really?” I asked as a way to stall time. If I agreed, it would make Yuuto happy but break me inside. If I said no, Yuuto would be disappointed but understanding, and I would...
“I dunno. When I saw them the other day...they seemed really close. A lot closer than they should be.” There was a slightly bitter tone in Yuuto’s voice and I realized just how much this was bothering him. “So if you can ask Morimoto-kun out and make him fall for you instead, then Yamada-kun-”
“-will become available,” I finished, feeling my heart get twisted up.
Yuuto nodded, watching me hopefully. “You don’t have to do this if you really don’t want to, I know it’s really selfish of me to ask, that’s why I’ll understand if you don’t agree and-”
“I’ll do it. I can do it.,” I told Yuuto confidently. “I’ll keep Morimoto-kun distracted so you should go after Yamada-kun!”
“You didn’t answer my question. Do you like Yuuto?” Ryutaro asked again, completely ignoring my words.
“If I say ‘yes’, what would you do?” I wanted to know.
His reply took a long time to come. He seemed to be thinking it through carefully, and the quiet seconds ticked by, interrupted only by the loud beating of my own heart. Finally, “Will you be happier with him than with me?”
Disappointed could be one word to describe my emotion. Confused would definitely be another. “I dunno anymore. If it was a month ago, I would say ‘yes’, but now, I don’t know,” I told him honestly, staring down at my hands. “Yuuto’s my best friend, I’ve known him since forever, I was always with him, I took care of him when he got sick and I helped him through schoolwork he didn’t understand. All I wanted in return was his attention and his feelings, but when I see him now, I realized I have never seen smile at me the way he does with Yamada-kun. I want to be someone special to Yuuto, but I can’t, because that spot’s already been taken from me.”
My eyes grew teary. I had known for a long time Yuuto would never see me as more than just his best friend, but his personality was so likeable and friendly, my hopes constantly grew, only to be crushed, over and over again.
I was tired of this endless cycle, tired of being hurt and comforted time and time again without ever moving forward. A part of me wanted to let go of Yuuto, but another part, the stubborn part, wanted to hold on to him, because it’s just been so long. At this point, I wasn’t even sure I could fall for someone else anymore.
Ryutaro’s arms grew tighter around me. I closed my eyes and leaned against him, my emotions soothed somehow by his warmth. “How willing are you to take a risk?” I looked at him and felt a soft kiss planted on my forehead. “I can’t replace Yuuto; I can’t even compete with him. But, if you’ll have me, I want to be your special someone.”
A/N: I'm sorry, this makes no sense.