I just had to write those words down...I want to write and write and write...all the things I remember about her...yet I'm exhausted. I'm afraid if I don't write, I'll forget
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I love you. I could tell you were a comfort to her, she was visibly affected by your presence. It meant a lot to her, that much was obvious.
You did all of the right things with her, letting her know she was forgiven and loved and keeping the focus on her, not engaging Bill at all.
She's had a hard time of it, and as you said has been essentially trapped in her body for many years now. She has the freedom that she wanted.
Of course she made some bad decisions in life, but God cares for everyone, and she can be remembered by our family from that wonderful video. It's amazing to have footage from 1939 and '40, the times when your mother was so happy and exuberant in youth.
Regardless of how well she did or did not express it, she loved you. It's sad that she didn't have the tools to tell or show you that, till at the very end, but I hope you will find in time that the imperfect expression had nothing to do with the feelings underlying.
You are magnificent, and courageous, and have raised a beautiful, compassionate, incredible young woman because of the love that you have to give, and were not afraid of expressing. That's not to say Erika is not her own wonderful woman, because she is, but some part of that, I truly believe, does fall down to the mother, and the magics she weaves.
You've done a marvelous job and I hope that in time you can feel the peace of knowing you were loved, and continue to be by those around you.
I am so sorry, and I wish you - and Wilfriede - peace.
Wow, Sandie. You are such an amazing, wonderful human being... I am so sorry for your loss. The experience you shared with your mother in her last days was so powerful - I am so happy that you were able to be there with her, for her, and for you. Forgiveness is such a powerful, difficult, and wonderful gift to give. I love you, Sandie.
Requiescat in Pacem, Wilfriede. Sit tibi terra levis.
Mom I love you so much. I really wish I could have gone to see her before she left but I'm so glad that you had the chance to and that things wrapped themselves up. Even though all kinds of negative things happened in your childhood she really loved you, I know it, and that's the way it always was underneath everything else. And I really love you, I am so glad you are my mom and know that we will always be friends and live close to each other.
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You did all of the right things with her, letting her know she was forgiven and loved and keeping the focus on her, not engaging Bill at all.
She's had a hard time of it, and as you said has been essentially trapped in her body for many years now. She has the freedom that she wanted.
Of course she made some bad decisions in life, but God cares for everyone, and she can be remembered by our family from that wonderful video. It's amazing to have footage from 1939 and '40, the times when your mother was so happy and exuberant in youth.
God bless you both, baby.
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You are magnificent, and courageous, and have raised a beautiful, compassionate, incredible young woman because of the love that you have to give, and were not afraid of expressing. That's not to say Erika is not her own wonderful woman, because she is, but some part of that, I truly believe, does fall down to the mother, and the magics she weaves.
You've done a marvelous job and I hope that in time you can feel the peace of knowing you were loved, and continue to be by those around you.
I am so sorry, and I wish you - and Wilfriede - peace.
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Requiescat in Pacem, Wilfriede. Sit tibi terra levis.
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