physical lonliness creates bitterness and hatred towards the world

stemming from defense tactics or jealousy

creating demons i can't battle myself.

you guys will never understand what this is.

when puddles form between your eyelashes and lids
before the tears pour down flesh
the lights are blurred
and brightened
like some perfect snowflake christmas lights
beautifully ironic

sometimes i don't even understand it
and then other times i do

basically
i miss him
and nothing seems right without him here.

turns out all the cds erika has ( Read more... )

so i am very sad ( Read more... )

most of my classes are meh ( Read more... )

open mic ngiht summary:

music was meh...
too many covers.

poetry was banging
seriously beautiful
(erika we better go to poetry nights at fantasia)

conversation was needed

non-ignorant people YAY!

i am thinking about switching my major to:
environmental science
with minors in::
~Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, Transgender Studies
~Philosophy
~womens studies

or something like that.....

so break was mahvelous

got to see some people i have really missed.
and i got to do a lot of stuff i have missed doing.

i love all of you guys,
really.

is it wrong for me to be writing eulogies about my friends while they still sit next to me?
a sort of indexing....

we just watched the 10th kingdom ( Read more... )

plan for this year ( Read more... )