[FIC] Playing A Role [chapter 2]
Title : Playing A Role [chapter 2]
Author : hanashiaru
Rating : PG
Genre: Romance. Angst-Fluff.
Pairing : YamaJima
Summary : A secret was revealed in.. a happy family.
Warning: Uhm, since I still put Kazu in this ffic so... MPREG =3=a
A/N : Another story of... my ffics which are including Yamada twins and Kazu-chan
Prologue | Chapter 1
It was a shockment, both for him and the people around him.
Six months passed, and he was no longer suprise to rarely saw Yuto in their house during the time. All thanks to his cousin, a pretty guy named Kei Inoo, who was helping him for passing this hard phase. His cousin was the only one who was neutral in this condition, all because he understood Ryosuke’s pain very well during his togetherness with the twins. Ryosuke could only feel relief because at least there was a person who still cared about him.
He didn’t know what would he do for the next, arranging the future was too confusing and he could only put all his concentration to let the baby born normally and healthy.
“You’re too calm in your pregnancy.” Inoo commented as he watched his cousin rested on the couch, “People usually want something weird in pregnancy, and you just stay calm everyday.”
“I’m just tired.” Ryosuke replied quietly, still with his closed eyes.
Inoo sighed as he took a seat beside the laying figure and he carrssed his cousin’s arms, “Tell me if you’re not feeling well, mentally. I’ll always be here. You can tell me what you want.”
A flash of silence.
“I want Yuto. My baby wants Yuto.” Ryosuke whispered helplessly, “The father never came and tried to talk to it, the father never carressed it..”
Inoo just went silent, not knowing the words to be a reply.
“And it’s all my fault, Kei-chan..” Ryosuke laughed bitterly, rubbing his eyes to restrain the tears not to fall. “But I’m still glad that he’s still here, he’s still here even though we rarely talk. He’s a kind person, isn’t he? I’m a stranger for him afterall.”
“You’re his spouse.”
“But..“
“You’ve been on his side for five years, you’re not a stranger.”
“You’ll never understand.” Ryosuke chuckled, “Leave this topic, then.”
Not so long after that, a door of the house opened. Ryosuke stared at the clock hanging the wall, realizing it was night already, the time Yuto had back home. Inoo gave him a tight rub on his back before standing up, ready to got of from the house.
“Take care, Ryo-chan.”
Ryosuke just smiled a little and gave him a nod before letting his cousin go, and he felt an awkward moment when he saw Inoo and Yuto was sharing a quick glance before Inoo completely out from his house.
“Welcome home.” Ryosuke said quietly, and it was answered by a response from Yuto’s look, “You look tired.”
“I’ll take a bath and get a rest soon.”
Ryosuke just nodded as Yuto walked passing him in a glance.
The tall guy took a sigh as he threw his coat away onto the bed, looking up at Ryosuke who was still laying on the couch just like his usual habit lately. From the distance he got a clear view of his spouse, still staring at that porcelain face and perfect faceline, very identical with the one he loved. He knew what was he doing, he knew he was hurting someone who was filling his life during this five years.
But nothing he could do, he also had a heart which suddenly felt so hurt when the first time he heard it. And he still needed a time for accepting this all. It wasn’t a usual mistake, it was something very serious and had happened for five years already.
He preferred to stay silent, controlling his emotion to prevent unwanted thing to be happened.
As long as he stared at his spouse, suddenly there was a weird movement and a weak sound from the fragile frame. Yuto hestitantly stood up, dragging his feet to walk closer to his spouse as his instinct said his spouse wasn’t in a good condition.
“What’s happening?” he asked worriedly.
But the question was answered by a weak whimper, the eyes was closed tightly and Yuto could see Ryosuke’s body was terribly shaking with his hand clutched onto his stomach, it was only matter of time when the whimper was turned into a loud cry.
And Yuto wasn’t too dumb for not reflectly carrying Ryosuke to reach the hospital as quick as he could.
***
Yuto could feel his heart was beating faster like crazy at the moment his ears were catching a tiny cry from the room. A new life was giving him a sound, signaling that it was now really alive.
His baby.
“Your child is a boy, Nakajima-san.”
He spontantly stood up, even not realizing when the doctor came out from the room before. And his lips moved a little, saying a simple thank you.
“The baby is healthy, but the mother is still not regained his consciousness. He’s still tired. So I handed the baby to you, Nakajima-san.” And a nurse came out carrying a petite frame and soon she handed the baby to him.
The baby was cleaned already and the cries were stopped. Yuto was still stunned on his spot, his hands carefully carrying the petite frame and gently examining the features of the baby.
“He’s just like his mother.” Yuto’s mother commented, “I’m not lying that he’s very cute for a baby.”
Yuto chuckled a little, still not shifting his gaze to the baby’s round eyes which were also staring back at him, blinking innocently, as if the baby was questioning who he was. The fragile and tiny hand was raised up, moving weakly just like wanting to reach Yuto’s face to play. And Yuto grabbed the hand softly, smiling at the baby.
“What’s his name?” His mother in law asked suddenly, making Yuto realize the thing that he never thought before.
“Call him Kazu.”
A sudden voice came out from the laying figure who was having his eyes opened.
“Bring Kazu to me, please.”
Yuto slowly walked closer to his spouse and silently handed the baby to him. Ryosuke smiled and his eyes almost got teary as the warmth of his baby was flowing through his skin arms. He was glad this pain was totally dissapeared, and the happiness was now already in his carriage. This fragile frame, this weak creature that he had to protect, he knew his sacrifaces were paid well only for having this baby on his arms. He leaned closer and kissed the baby’s cheeks dearly, and he could see the baby’s tiny lips were making a small smile.
“Kazuki.” He repeated once again, and he looked up at Yuto boldly, “I already give his name, and the surname depends on your decision.”
Yuto knew what was the mean of the words.
“Nakajima.” Yuto said quietly, but enough for everyone to be heard.
And with that, Ryosuke sighed in relief.
***
Inoo grinned widely, looking excitedly at the seven months old baby who was now crawling towards his direction, trying to reach his lap. “Kazu-chan sure grew a lot, Ryo-chan.” Inoo lifted Kazu’s and placed the baby onto his lap, playing with the baby’s hands who really liked to touch people’s face. “It’s tickling me, Kazu-chan..” he giggled and continued playing as if he already forgot that he was also talking with Ryosuke.
“Well, Ryo-chan. I’m sorry for coming back late, I even didn’t say my goodbye-well, you know it was just too sudden.” Inoo said softly, “And I’m surprised to see your child in this condition, he’s growing up perfectly.”
Ryosuke just smiled a bit and handed a bottle of milk to Inoo, letting his cousin to feed his baby.
“Yuto’s still care, right?” Inoo asked while dilligently feeding the baby.
“Sometimes.” Ryosuke sighed, “Sometimes I can feel like Yuto’s seeing my brother’s figure everytime he sees Kazu. That’s why.. he still avoides Kazu, sometimes.”
Inoo shook his head, “You’re Kyosuke’s twin and he sees you everyday, why bother with Kazu-chan? Sure Kazu-chan resembles you a lot, and certainly resembles Kyosuke also, but...”
“It’s different for him, I can feel it.” Ryosuke touched Kazu’s hair and ruffled it softly, making Kazu’s head turned and he spontantly gave a small smile at his mother. “I don’t know how long he will take a time for making this family turn well. I don’t know either what should we do, I’m the one who made a big mistake afterall.”
The pretty guy just stayed silent, he couldn’t make a response of the words and he kept feeding the baby.
“Yuto’s coming back home, Ryo-chan.”
Ryosuke just turned his head only for watching his husband in a silence.
Inoo was standing up, still carrying Kazu, as if he understood that the baby’s parents needed some time so that he went to the garden, leaving them alone.
“Kazu is asking for you lately.” Ryosuke said quietly. He knew it was ridiculous since Kazu still wasn’t able to talk properly, but he knew Yuto understood that he was talking the truth, “Where were you?”
“Ask to your cousin’s boyfriend who has been giving me so many jobs.” Yuto answered with a sigh, he looked so tired and Ryosuke knew it wasn’t a perfect time to talk with this situation, “Don’t blame me.”
Ryosuke went silent. He was tired of this sick situation, all he wanted just Yuto’s careness for his child and it was enough. He knew Yuto still needed a time, but it was just too long. Soon enough, Kazu would be able to walk, talk, and think properly. And Ryosuke didn’t wanna his child to ask him the cold condition of this family. He didn’t wanna. Even though he knew that the situation wouldn’t have been like this if he didn’t do anything weird five years ago... he still wanted to give his child a perfect life. Call him selfish, it was true.
“I’m sorry for everything. You even haven’t forgiven me.” Ryosuke said softly, closing his eyes as he was afraid to look up at his husband.
Yuto’s movement was stopped as he turned his look, suddenly giving a glare at his spouse and it enough to make Ryosuke shudder, “Why should I forgive you?”
“I..” Ryosuke stuttered, “.. I’ll not give up until you forgive me..”
“Then tell me..” Yuto suddenly lost his patience, his fingers touched Ryosuke’s jaw and harshly grabbed it tightly in a second, “.. tell me why should I forgive you?!”
Ryosuke was afraid. Yes, he was afraid. Yuto was a very kind person, and making Yuto angry was a horrible thing. That meant he already hurt Yuto a lot, and this was an explosion after Ryosuke had released from pregnancy before.
“You played with my feeling, Ryosuke.” Yuto whispered, his face was shown a dissapointment. “Pretending, smiling when I said how many times that I loved you, when I kissed you, when I married you, and I’m even having a child with you!”
Ryosuke couldn’t talk since Yuto’s hands were still hurting his jaw, he could only release a single tear.
“How could you do this to me?” Yuto’s voice was shaking a little, “That’s horrible, Ryosuke.”
The tears fell more.
“Go cry. Go cry like you always do.” Yuto finally pushed Ryosuke away, afraid he might hurt his husband more.
“Stop it.. don’t always blame me. I’m hurt enough with your words..” he wiped his tears away, “I’m sorry for playing with your feeling, okay? I’m sorry for making a horrible thing. I love you since forever, the feeling and the words I used to say for you are all true.”
Yuto’s eyes were pierced at Ryosuke’s ones as he heard the words.
“I never wanted to do this!” Ryosuke shouted out, “The moment when my mother hugged me and being so glad because I was saved five years ago.. I wanted to say that I was Ryosuke, I was not Kyosuke, I wanted to say the truth to my mother. But she trapped me in a warm hug that I never felt in my life, I couldn’t help but wanting to feel the warm for the next time of my life.”
Yuto was still looking up at him intensely.
“But I never expected that I would face you too. And you also gave me a warm hug, you kissed me and said that you were so glad I was saved. I.. I felt..” his voice was getting trembled, “.. I felt happy for having the careness from the one I really loved. Even though I was really sad you didn’t mention your boyfriend’s brother at that time, that meant you weren’t paying attention of the death of Yamada Ryosuke.. but it’s okay. It’s okay only with your careness.”
Yuto’s eyes closed as he felt a bit dizzy in his head for remembering about the past.
“It had happened, Yuto. We can’t go back anymore and stop blaming me because it’s no use.” Ryosuke choked out with the tears, “Why can’t you love me back?”
Yuto went silent. And when he opened his eyes again, he back off a little when seeing Ryosuke walked towards him, leaning closer and suddenly kissed him frantically on the lips.
“Am I not beautiful like him?” he whispered helplessly between the kiss. “What’s the difference between him and I? Tell me..”
Yuto collected all his consciousness that ran away because of the sudden action, and he pushed Ryosuke strongly.
“What are you doing?”
“Why can’t you love me?!”
“Go, Ryosuke.”
“Tell me!”
“Ryosuke!”
The smaller guy started crying again as he couldn’t take the emotional pain anymore. And Yuto could only take a deep sigh, wondering why this could be happening in his life.
From the far, the pair of eyes that belonged to the seven months old baby, who was sitting on Inoo Kei’s lap, were blinking curiously... not used to hear the screams in this peaceful house.
tsuzuku
Don’t have any idea. Let me know what you think D:
Author : hanashiaru
Rating : PG
Genre: Romance. Angst-Fluff.
Pairing : YamaJima
Summary : A secret was revealed in.. a happy family.
Warning: Uhm, since I still put Kazu in this ffic so... MPREG =3=a
A/N : Another story of... my ffics which are including Yamada twins and Kazu-chan
Prologue | Chapter 1
It was a shockment, both for him and the people around him.
Six months passed, and he was no longer suprise to rarely saw Yuto in their house during the time. All thanks to his cousin, a pretty guy named Kei Inoo, who was helping him for passing this hard phase. His cousin was the only one who was neutral in this condition, all because he understood Ryosuke’s pain very well during his togetherness with the twins. Ryosuke could only feel relief because at least there was a person who still cared about him.
He didn’t know what would he do for the next, arranging the future was too confusing and he could only put all his concentration to let the baby born normally and healthy.
“You’re too calm in your pregnancy.” Inoo commented as he watched his cousin rested on the couch, “People usually want something weird in pregnancy, and you just stay calm everyday.”
“I’m just tired.” Ryosuke replied quietly, still with his closed eyes.
Inoo sighed as he took a seat beside the laying figure and he carrssed his cousin’s arms, “Tell me if you’re not feeling well, mentally. I’ll always be here. You can tell me what you want.”
A flash of silence.
“I want Yuto. My baby wants Yuto.” Ryosuke whispered helplessly, “The father never came and tried to talk to it, the father never carressed it..”
Inoo just went silent, not knowing the words to be a reply.
“And it’s all my fault, Kei-chan..” Ryosuke laughed bitterly, rubbing his eyes to restrain the tears not to fall. “But I’m still glad that he’s still here, he’s still here even though we rarely talk. He’s a kind person, isn’t he? I’m a stranger for him afterall.”
“You’re his spouse.”
“But..“
“You’ve been on his side for five years, you’re not a stranger.”
“You’ll never understand.” Ryosuke chuckled, “Leave this topic, then.”
Not so long after that, a door of the house opened. Ryosuke stared at the clock hanging the wall, realizing it was night already, the time Yuto had back home. Inoo gave him a tight rub on his back before standing up, ready to got of from the house.
“Take care, Ryo-chan.”
Ryosuke just smiled a little and gave him a nod before letting his cousin go, and he felt an awkward moment when he saw Inoo and Yuto was sharing a quick glance before Inoo completely out from his house.
“Welcome home.” Ryosuke said quietly, and it was answered by a response from Yuto’s look, “You look tired.”
“I’ll take a bath and get a rest soon.”
Ryosuke just nodded as Yuto walked passing him in a glance.
The tall guy took a sigh as he threw his coat away onto the bed, looking up at Ryosuke who was still laying on the couch just like his usual habit lately. From the distance he got a clear view of his spouse, still staring at that porcelain face and perfect faceline, very identical with the one he loved. He knew what was he doing, he knew he was hurting someone who was filling his life during this five years.
But nothing he could do, he also had a heart which suddenly felt so hurt when the first time he heard it. And he still needed a time for accepting this all. It wasn’t a usual mistake, it was something very serious and had happened for five years already.
He preferred to stay silent, controlling his emotion to prevent unwanted thing to be happened.
As long as he stared at his spouse, suddenly there was a weird movement and a weak sound from the fragile frame. Yuto hestitantly stood up, dragging his feet to walk closer to his spouse as his instinct said his spouse wasn’t in a good condition.
“What’s happening?” he asked worriedly.
But the question was answered by a weak whimper, the eyes was closed tightly and Yuto could see Ryosuke’s body was terribly shaking with his hand clutched onto his stomach, it was only matter of time when the whimper was turned into a loud cry.
And Yuto wasn’t too dumb for not reflectly carrying Ryosuke to reach the hospital as quick as he could.
***
Yuto could feel his heart was beating faster like crazy at the moment his ears were catching a tiny cry from the room. A new life was giving him a sound, signaling that it was now really alive.
His baby.
“Your child is a boy, Nakajima-san.”
He spontantly stood up, even not realizing when the doctor came out from the room before. And his lips moved a little, saying a simple thank you.
“The baby is healthy, but the mother is still not regained his consciousness. He’s still tired. So I handed the baby to you, Nakajima-san.” And a nurse came out carrying a petite frame and soon she handed the baby to him.
The baby was cleaned already and the cries were stopped. Yuto was still stunned on his spot, his hands carefully carrying the petite frame and gently examining the features of the baby.
“He’s just like his mother.” Yuto’s mother commented, “I’m not lying that he’s very cute for a baby.”
Yuto chuckled a little, still not shifting his gaze to the baby’s round eyes which were also staring back at him, blinking innocently, as if the baby was questioning who he was. The fragile and tiny hand was raised up, moving weakly just like wanting to reach Yuto’s face to play. And Yuto grabbed the hand softly, smiling at the baby.
“What’s his name?” His mother in law asked suddenly, making Yuto realize the thing that he never thought before.
“Call him Kazu.”
A sudden voice came out from the laying figure who was having his eyes opened.
“Bring Kazu to me, please.”
Yuto slowly walked closer to his spouse and silently handed the baby to him. Ryosuke smiled and his eyes almost got teary as the warmth of his baby was flowing through his skin arms. He was glad this pain was totally dissapeared, and the happiness was now already in his carriage. This fragile frame, this weak creature that he had to protect, he knew his sacrifaces were paid well only for having this baby on his arms. He leaned closer and kissed the baby’s cheeks dearly, and he could see the baby’s tiny lips were making a small smile.
“Kazuki.” He repeated once again, and he looked up at Yuto boldly, “I already give his name, and the surname depends on your decision.”
Yuto knew what was the mean of the words.
“Nakajima.” Yuto said quietly, but enough for everyone to be heard.
And with that, Ryosuke sighed in relief.
***
Inoo grinned widely, looking excitedly at the seven months old baby who was now crawling towards his direction, trying to reach his lap. “Kazu-chan sure grew a lot, Ryo-chan.” Inoo lifted Kazu’s and placed the baby onto his lap, playing with the baby’s hands who really liked to touch people’s face. “It’s tickling me, Kazu-chan..” he giggled and continued playing as if he already forgot that he was also talking with Ryosuke.
“Well, Ryo-chan. I’m sorry for coming back late, I even didn’t say my goodbye-well, you know it was just too sudden.” Inoo said softly, “And I’m surprised to see your child in this condition, he’s growing up perfectly.”
Ryosuke just smiled a bit and handed a bottle of milk to Inoo, letting his cousin to feed his baby.
“Yuto’s still care, right?” Inoo asked while dilligently feeding the baby.
“Sometimes.” Ryosuke sighed, “Sometimes I can feel like Yuto’s seeing my brother’s figure everytime he sees Kazu. That’s why.. he still avoides Kazu, sometimes.”
Inoo shook his head, “You’re Kyosuke’s twin and he sees you everyday, why bother with Kazu-chan? Sure Kazu-chan resembles you a lot, and certainly resembles Kyosuke also, but...”
“It’s different for him, I can feel it.” Ryosuke touched Kazu’s hair and ruffled it softly, making Kazu’s head turned and he spontantly gave a small smile at his mother. “I don’t know how long he will take a time for making this family turn well. I don’t know either what should we do, I’m the one who made a big mistake afterall.”
The pretty guy just stayed silent, he couldn’t make a response of the words and he kept feeding the baby.
“Yuto’s coming back home, Ryo-chan.”
Ryosuke just turned his head only for watching his husband in a silence.
Inoo was standing up, still carrying Kazu, as if he understood that the baby’s parents needed some time so that he went to the garden, leaving them alone.
“Kazu is asking for you lately.” Ryosuke said quietly. He knew it was ridiculous since Kazu still wasn’t able to talk properly, but he knew Yuto understood that he was talking the truth, “Where were you?”
“Ask to your cousin’s boyfriend who has been giving me so many jobs.” Yuto answered with a sigh, he looked so tired and Ryosuke knew it wasn’t a perfect time to talk with this situation, “Don’t blame me.”
Ryosuke went silent. He was tired of this sick situation, all he wanted just Yuto’s careness for his child and it was enough. He knew Yuto still needed a time, but it was just too long. Soon enough, Kazu would be able to walk, talk, and think properly. And Ryosuke didn’t wanna his child to ask him the cold condition of this family. He didn’t wanna. Even though he knew that the situation wouldn’t have been like this if he didn’t do anything weird five years ago... he still wanted to give his child a perfect life. Call him selfish, it was true.
“I’m sorry for everything. You even haven’t forgiven me.” Ryosuke said softly, closing his eyes as he was afraid to look up at his husband.
Yuto’s movement was stopped as he turned his look, suddenly giving a glare at his spouse and it enough to make Ryosuke shudder, “Why should I forgive you?”
“I..” Ryosuke stuttered, “.. I’ll not give up until you forgive me..”
“Then tell me..” Yuto suddenly lost his patience, his fingers touched Ryosuke’s jaw and harshly grabbed it tightly in a second, “.. tell me why should I forgive you?!”
Ryosuke was afraid. Yes, he was afraid. Yuto was a very kind person, and making Yuto angry was a horrible thing. That meant he already hurt Yuto a lot, and this was an explosion after Ryosuke had released from pregnancy before.
“You played with my feeling, Ryosuke.” Yuto whispered, his face was shown a dissapointment. “Pretending, smiling when I said how many times that I loved you, when I kissed you, when I married you, and I’m even having a child with you!”
Ryosuke couldn’t talk since Yuto’s hands were still hurting his jaw, he could only release a single tear.
“How could you do this to me?” Yuto’s voice was shaking a little, “That’s horrible, Ryosuke.”
The tears fell more.
“Go cry. Go cry like you always do.” Yuto finally pushed Ryosuke away, afraid he might hurt his husband more.
“Stop it.. don’t always blame me. I’m hurt enough with your words..” he wiped his tears away, “I’m sorry for playing with your feeling, okay? I’m sorry for making a horrible thing. I love you since forever, the feeling and the words I used to say for you are all true.”
Yuto’s eyes were pierced at Ryosuke’s ones as he heard the words.
“I never wanted to do this!” Ryosuke shouted out, “The moment when my mother hugged me and being so glad because I was saved five years ago.. I wanted to say that I was Ryosuke, I was not Kyosuke, I wanted to say the truth to my mother. But she trapped me in a warm hug that I never felt in my life, I couldn’t help but wanting to feel the warm for the next time of my life.”
Yuto was still looking up at him intensely.
“But I never expected that I would face you too. And you also gave me a warm hug, you kissed me and said that you were so glad I was saved. I.. I felt..” his voice was getting trembled, “.. I felt happy for having the careness from the one I really loved. Even though I was really sad you didn’t mention your boyfriend’s brother at that time, that meant you weren’t paying attention of the death of Yamada Ryosuke.. but it’s okay. It’s okay only with your careness.”
Yuto’s eyes closed as he felt a bit dizzy in his head for remembering about the past.
“It had happened, Yuto. We can’t go back anymore and stop blaming me because it’s no use.” Ryosuke choked out with the tears, “Why can’t you love me back?”
Yuto went silent. And when he opened his eyes again, he back off a little when seeing Ryosuke walked towards him, leaning closer and suddenly kissed him frantically on the lips.
“Am I not beautiful like him?” he whispered helplessly between the kiss. “What’s the difference between him and I? Tell me..”
Yuto collected all his consciousness that ran away because of the sudden action, and he pushed Ryosuke strongly.
“What are you doing?”
“Why can’t you love me?!”
“Go, Ryosuke.”
“Tell me!”
“Ryosuke!”
The smaller guy started crying again as he couldn’t take the emotional pain anymore. And Yuto could only take a deep sigh, wondering why this could be happening in his life.
From the far, the pair of eyes that belonged to the seven months old baby, who was sitting on Inoo Kei’s lap, were blinking curiously... not used to hear the screams in this peaceful house.
tsuzuku
Don’t have any idea. Let me know what you think D: