Would you please please please edit this to say "lose my mind" instead of "loose my mind"? Also, I found a person on YouTube, Kylandris20, who you should maybe check out. They seem to say some fairly insightful things about the gender stuff you're talking about, I think.
I feel similarly, actually. Even though I feel pretty solidly male, but no one accepts anything I say or do at face value. It's always but why but why but why, like everyone is owed endless explanations and are entitled to have every stupid thing they say entertained. Or even more annoying, it's just dismissed like it's something I'm doing to be different or idk what. Just dismissed in a patronizing way, "whatever lol."
I mean, I *want* to medically transition, but 10 years later, my progress is minimal. People who came out 2 years ago are already 'post transition'. Everytime I endlessly flail I feel like oh man, I am so bad at being trans.
I'm glad you're feeling better. I hope you get your head scans soon.
Yeah, the potential of endless explanations make me anxious and avoidant sometimes because I just anticipate it, and sometimes I don't really want to talk about it. But at the same time I don't really 'pass' as anything so people always ask since I guess it's visually obvious, and expect me to educate them right then and there and if I refuse then TOO BAD, they'll treat me however they want
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I feel weird if someone else my friends know comes out and if like SUPERFAST TRANSITION ZOOOOOOMMM and I've been trans for so much longer and when I say anything about myself, they're like, WELL SO AND SO DOESN'T HAVE THAT PROBLEM.
well, if you were really serious
I feel this way about myself already--like, I can't do other stuff like ask for male pronouns, because I'm not on T so it's not REAL--so it's like THANKS THAT'S SO HELPFUL I FEEL GREAT NOW. THANKS FOR THIS CONVERSATION. And everything is because I'm not serious enough. I can't afford transition yet, because IF I WERE SERIOUS--Even my clothes get the 'if you were serious you would have better fashion sense' treatment. If I were serious enough everything would fall into place, and I would have amazing clothes. Obviously I am doing it wrong.
I AM USING YOUR REPLY SECTION AS THERAPY, CLEARLY.
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I mean, I *want* to medically transition, but 10 years later, my progress is minimal. People who came out 2 years ago are already 'post transition'. Everytime I endlessly flail I feel like oh man, I am so bad at being trans.
I'm glad you're feeling better. I hope you get your head scans soon.
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well, if you were really serious
I feel this way about myself already--like, I can't do other stuff like ask for male pronouns, because I'm not on T so it's not REAL--so it's like THANKS THAT'S SO HELPFUL I FEEL GREAT NOW. THANKS FOR THIS CONVERSATION. And everything is because I'm not serious enough. I can't afford transition yet, because IF I WERE SERIOUS--Even my clothes get the 'if you were serious you would have better fashion sense' treatment. If I were serious enough everything would fall into place, and I would have amazing clothes. Obviously I am doing it wrong.
I AM USING YOUR REPLY SECTION AS THERAPY, CLEARLY.
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Now I truely feel alone
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