[fic] Love Stays Strong - Chapter 2
Title: Love Stays Strong
Pairing: Akame
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Jin finally made his appearance. Now, the story begins~
Disclaimer: Characters are not mine unfortunately.
A/N: Hugs and Kisses to my Beta-Reader _miyabi!! Thanx Trangie for finding the time to beta-read this! Without you, I'm sure this fic would not be as good! Sankyu! *hugz*
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So Kame suppressed his smile. He carelessly joked, faked his laughter as if nothing had ever happened. Those two months had not bought him hurt and sorrow.
But.
It was not the same without Jin by his side.
“How can I live a day without you?” he whispered.
Glancing at the wide space beside him, he pictured the both of them... touching, teasing each other like there was no tomorrow. Jin's flashing smiles, the warmth of his wide arms around Kame holding him so tightly, he misses it. As the unforgettable memories recall back in his senses and mind. He had taken it for granted, all of it.
Jin's voice rang within him.
His smile flashes.
God it hurts.
Was Jin hurting the same way he was?
Are they sharing the same sorrows?
He wished Jin was beside him to share this sorrow.
He never felt so alone.
“The letter--- the letter!” Kame suddenly exclaimed, searching for that one item frantically in his drawers. That letter--- it was Jin’s, his lover wrote it, it was the last thing in his possession that was Jin’s. The last before that accident happened. Kame had never thought of it in a way that the letter now is his only support system. He never manages to finish it, but he keeps him going knowing it's a piece of Jin... with him.
“Why did that stupid accident have to happen? Jin wouldn’t leave me then. He wouldn’t dare to.” He whispered in between his sobs embracing the letter into his chest, wiping away the tears furiously. The pain, his chest was hammering... pounding hard. It hurts more than anything, he gasp for air in between his breath.
His eyes were blurry cover with tears, he kept staring at the letter for a moment until his emotions took the better of him, Kame cried hard. He cried for the countless times this month. The letter slips away from his weak hands. Kame took his arm wrapping it around his knees embracing himself in his own warmth. He cries echo in the bathroom. He sob freely, there was no shame... no pride to him now.
"I hate you." Kame declared with a whisper, “I hate you, Jin!" He shouted in between his cries now unable to control back his tears. His emotions’ took the best of him.
Countless times had he intend on throwing the letter away or ripping it into million of pieces, but he always end up taping it back together.
The truth was Kame had never managed to finish reading the letter for he started crying midway staining the letter with his tears as it dried, thus putting the letter aside.
If he had, he would have seen these words written.
Everything is fated. If there is a chance, we will meet again.
~`~
Two months ago : Akanishi’s View
It was his own decision, to leave his home town, hiding himself in the country side of Kyoto. His family members tried to talk him out of it but still he wouldn’t give in to their requests.
“I’m not going to change my mind. And that’s it, leave it at that.” Jin firmly said, wheeling his way back to his room, tired of hearing all those pleadings. He never felt so useless.
His parents relented, giving up immediately when they realized their son would stick to his made decision no matter what. That is Akanishi Jin, straightforward and never looks back.
But Akanishi Reo did not, he could not give this all up! What was his brother thinking about moving to some place new? He would totally regret it eventually.
“Onii-chan!”
Reo who followed Jin stormed through the shut door. He did not wait for Jin's permission to enter, his anger took the best of him. He always looked up to him brother for everything. Reo look at Jin's back, clenching his fists tightly and biting his lips. He was clearly disappointed but also afraid. If he happens to anger Jin, he would not know for any other ways to stop his oni-chan from going away.
“What, Reo?” Jin answered in an irritated tone. Not turning to face his brother. He knew exactly what Reo will say to him. He was not in the mood to listen and only wished Reo understands and respect his choice.
“You’re giving all this up? All your hard work all these years are just going down the drain? You’re just going to give up? Don’t be stupid, onii-chan!” Reo shouted, he could feel tears in his eyes.
“I can’t walk anymore, damn it!! I can’t even feel my legs! I can’t dance like I used to! I don’t deserve to be standing on the stage when I can’t even do things an idol should! I’m so useless.”
Reo fell into complete silence. He was taken aback, nothing he said would make his brother feel better and he knows it. After all, he wasn’t the one that feels the pain, it was all Jin. He could only give words of encouragement. That is the only thing he could possibly do. Reo's fists clench tighter, so many tears have been fallen because of this. He didn't want Jin to let go so easily… so fast without a fight.
The silent grew between the two, Jin slowly twisted his wheelchair around finally facing Reo. Dropping to his knees, Reo placed his hand on top of his brother’s “But onii-chan, there is always the therapy. You shouldn’t give up.” Reo lower his head, he was supposed to bring encouragement to his oni-chan. He shouldn't cry in front of him, but he could not control it.
“Therapy? You know my condition better, Reo.” Jin murmured softly. His tears threatening to fall. He blinked releasing the clinging tears. Jin bends down hugging Reo tightly with his arms, his face into Reo's hair. The two held each other as they sob away.
What Jin said was true, he had injured his spinal cord badly, and the chances of him getting back on his feet are really slim. What was the point of trying when he knew he would fail in the end? The chances are slim!
“But what about Kazuya-kun? You’re going to give him up too?” Reo pressed on, hoping that that would make his elder brother think twice about his drastic decision.
Suddenly feeling so emotional, Jin softly replied biting his lips... The words he never knew or intend on saying in his whole life to a person he loved so much. “I have to.”
“Oni-chan! You’re not only hurting him but yourself too! Don’t you know that?”
Ignoring those words, Jin whispered “Can you please leave? I want to be alone.” Jin un-wrap his embrace from Reo and twisted his wheelchair again. He was shutting himself from the world for sure if he keeps going on like this.
“You’re leaving him when he is still in coma? Onii-chan, you know that he needs you the most at times like this? How could you just leave?”
Tears were threatening to make its appearance now but he forced himself not to, at least not in front of his younger brother. With his current condition, he had worried too many people especially his family. He didn’t want to burden them with his troubles anymore.
“Please respect my decision. Okay?”
I rather hurt myself now than later. I couldn’t even take care of myself, how could I possibly able to care for you? I’m not capable of doing that anymore. I wouldn’t want to burden you, Kame. That is why I had to let you go.
But Jin had no idea that his decision will cause so much pain to his other half. And since he left before Kame awoken, he didn’t know about his lover’s condition as well.
That Kame could not remember the accident that had happened. And that causes much more pain.
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T-TUN looked at each other dumbfounded, not knowing what to do to make the youngest one stopped practicing. They knew that by working hard- no, harder would make him forget all his pain for a second even it is for a short while. But this is too much, Kame is risking his health if he continues to be like this. Sooner or later, he is going to-
Kame lost his balance and would have dropped flat to the floor if Junno wasn’t fast enough to catch him, the other members was immediately by his side.
“Kame, that’s enough. You can continue to practice tomorrow.” Ueda spoke in a leader manner tone.
Pushing away Junno’s hold, “No, I need to practice. I won’t stop until I get that step right. Right, definitely won’t stop.” Junno held tighter, he intends on not letting go and Kame struggles against Junno.
“Kame-” Ueda pressed on.
“Don’t stop me, okay! I need to get that damn step right!!” Kame burst, this time pushing Junno harder, and was freed.
“Kame... OH MY GOD! KAME!!” Ueda took hold of his friend by his skinny weak shoulder when he refused to stop dancing, shaking him vigorously.
“Ueda, you don’t have to be so rough on him.” Nakamaru butted in, he did not feel comfortable. Kame was too weak, if Ueda continues to shake him he'll probably faint or black out.
“Yeah, Ueda.” A voice that sounded like Koki said. The room was death silent. Everything was so gloomy, the atmosphere was so uneasy and tense as everyone. The staffs, managers, and the members stared at Ueda and Kame. No one intend on butting in.
“Shut up! Kame, listen! Don’t be so hard on yourself. Don’t do it if you can’t take it. God, we know you’re doing this to heal the pain you’re feeling but not to the extent of hurting yourself. We all care. Please don’t do this.” Ueda tried his best to push on his strong act. He pulled Kame in and wraps his strong arms around Kame embracing the weak shaking figure. His hands patting Kame's head to calm the boy down.
Suddenly feeling exhausted, Kame leaned on him, “Ueda, why does it hurts so much? I don’t even understand a thing. How could Jin do this to me? Does he not love me anymore?” Ueda eyes begin to water. He then looked at the other four members, not knowing what to do searching for answers in their eyes. He hugged Kame tighter stopping Kame from shaking violently.
“I don’t know about that, Kame. But you know him well enough to judge him, right? I’m sure he still loves you.” Ueda comforted the younger boy, saying words of encouragement, hoping that he would listen. He himself was not informed by that Bakanishi until the day he entered the train with his belongings. Tears vivid in Jin's eyes as he wished everyone good luck and a good life.
“So why? Why-”
A ringing tone suddenly interrupted the moment -
“Ahh, sunimasen.” Nakamaru immediately walked out of the room upon receiving Ueda’s death glare.
“Hello.” He whispered.
“Nakamaru-kun? Is that you?”
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A\N: Anyone can guess who called Nakamaru?? If you guessed right, I'll give you cookies!! ^______^ So Jin made his appearance in this chapter even though it was more of a flashback thing. I'm sure many of you might have lots of question regarding his disability. Don't fret! That will be explained in the later chapters! XDD
Thanx for reading! Comments are LOVE! ^-^
Pairing: Akame
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Jin finally made his appearance. Now, the story begins~
Disclaimer: Characters are not mine unfortunately.
A/N: Hugs and Kisses to my Beta-Reader _miyabi!! Thanx Trangie for finding the time to beta-read this! Without you, I'm sure this fic would not be as good! Sankyu! *hugz*
~`~
So Kame suppressed his smile. He carelessly joked, faked his laughter as if nothing had ever happened. Those two months had not bought him hurt and sorrow.
But.
It was not the same without Jin by his side.
“How can I live a day without you?” he whispered.
Glancing at the wide space beside him, he pictured the both of them... touching, teasing each other like there was no tomorrow. Jin's flashing smiles, the warmth of his wide arms around Kame holding him so tightly, he misses it. As the unforgettable memories recall back in his senses and mind. He had taken it for granted, all of it.
Jin's voice rang within him.
His smile flashes.
God it hurts.
Was Jin hurting the same way he was?
Are they sharing the same sorrows?
He wished Jin was beside him to share this sorrow.
He never felt so alone.
“The letter--- the letter!” Kame suddenly exclaimed, searching for that one item frantically in his drawers. That letter--- it was Jin’s, his lover wrote it, it was the last thing in his possession that was Jin’s. The last before that accident happened. Kame had never thought of it in a way that the letter now is his only support system. He never manages to finish it, but he keeps him going knowing it's a piece of Jin... with him.
“Why did that stupid accident have to happen? Jin wouldn’t leave me then. He wouldn’t dare to.” He whispered in between his sobs embracing the letter into his chest, wiping away the tears furiously. The pain, his chest was hammering... pounding hard. It hurts more than anything, he gasp for air in between his breath.
His eyes were blurry cover with tears, he kept staring at the letter for a moment until his emotions took the better of him, Kame cried hard. He cried for the countless times this month. The letter slips away from his weak hands. Kame took his arm wrapping it around his knees embracing himself in his own warmth. He cries echo in the bathroom. He sob freely, there was no shame... no pride to him now.
"I hate you." Kame declared with a whisper, “I hate you, Jin!" He shouted in between his cries now unable to control back his tears. His emotions’ took the best of him.
Countless times had he intend on throwing the letter away or ripping it into million of pieces, but he always end up taping it back together.
The truth was Kame had never managed to finish reading the letter for he started crying midway staining the letter with his tears as it dried, thus putting the letter aside.
If he had, he would have seen these words written.
Everything is fated. If there is a chance, we will meet again.
~`~
Two months ago : Akanishi’s View
It was his own decision, to leave his home town, hiding himself in the country side of Kyoto. His family members tried to talk him out of it but still he wouldn’t give in to their requests.
“I’m not going to change my mind. And that’s it, leave it at that.” Jin firmly said, wheeling his way back to his room, tired of hearing all those pleadings. He never felt so useless.
His parents relented, giving up immediately when they realized their son would stick to his made decision no matter what. That is Akanishi Jin, straightforward and never looks back.
But Akanishi Reo did not, he could not give this all up! What was his brother thinking about moving to some place new? He would totally regret it eventually.
“Onii-chan!”
Reo who followed Jin stormed through the shut door. He did not wait for Jin's permission to enter, his anger took the best of him. He always looked up to him brother for everything. Reo look at Jin's back, clenching his fists tightly and biting his lips. He was clearly disappointed but also afraid. If he happens to anger Jin, he would not know for any other ways to stop his oni-chan from going away.
“What, Reo?” Jin answered in an irritated tone. Not turning to face his brother. He knew exactly what Reo will say to him. He was not in the mood to listen and only wished Reo understands and respect his choice.
“You’re giving all this up? All your hard work all these years are just going down the drain? You’re just going to give up? Don’t be stupid, onii-chan!” Reo shouted, he could feel tears in his eyes.
“I can’t walk anymore, damn it!! I can’t even feel my legs! I can’t dance like I used to! I don’t deserve to be standing on the stage when I can’t even do things an idol should! I’m so useless.”
Reo fell into complete silence. He was taken aback, nothing he said would make his brother feel better and he knows it. After all, he wasn’t the one that feels the pain, it was all Jin. He could only give words of encouragement. That is the only thing he could possibly do. Reo's fists clench tighter, so many tears have been fallen because of this. He didn't want Jin to let go so easily… so fast without a fight.
The silent grew between the two, Jin slowly twisted his wheelchair around finally facing Reo. Dropping to his knees, Reo placed his hand on top of his brother’s “But onii-chan, there is always the therapy. You shouldn’t give up.” Reo lower his head, he was supposed to bring encouragement to his oni-chan. He shouldn't cry in front of him, but he could not control it.
“Therapy? You know my condition better, Reo.” Jin murmured softly. His tears threatening to fall. He blinked releasing the clinging tears. Jin bends down hugging Reo tightly with his arms, his face into Reo's hair. The two held each other as they sob away.
What Jin said was true, he had injured his spinal cord badly, and the chances of him getting back on his feet are really slim. What was the point of trying when he knew he would fail in the end? The chances are slim!
“But what about Kazuya-kun? You’re going to give him up too?” Reo pressed on, hoping that that would make his elder brother think twice about his drastic decision.
Suddenly feeling so emotional, Jin softly replied biting his lips... The words he never knew or intend on saying in his whole life to a person he loved so much. “I have to.”
“Oni-chan! You’re not only hurting him but yourself too! Don’t you know that?”
Ignoring those words, Jin whispered “Can you please leave? I want to be alone.” Jin un-wrap his embrace from Reo and twisted his wheelchair again. He was shutting himself from the world for sure if he keeps going on like this.
“You’re leaving him when he is still in coma? Onii-chan, you know that he needs you the most at times like this? How could you just leave?”
Tears were threatening to make its appearance now but he forced himself not to, at least not in front of his younger brother. With his current condition, he had worried too many people especially his family. He didn’t want to burden them with his troubles anymore.
“Please respect my decision. Okay?”
I rather hurt myself now than later. I couldn’t even take care of myself, how could I possibly able to care for you? I’m not capable of doing that anymore. I wouldn’t want to burden you, Kame. That is why I had to let you go.
But Jin had no idea that his decision will cause so much pain to his other half. And since he left before Kame awoken, he didn’t know about his lover’s condition as well.
That Kame could not remember the accident that had happened. And that causes much more pain.
~`~
T-TUN looked at each other dumbfounded, not knowing what to do to make the youngest one stopped practicing. They knew that by working hard- no, harder would make him forget all his pain for a second even it is for a short while. But this is too much, Kame is risking his health if he continues to be like this. Sooner or later, he is going to-
Kame lost his balance and would have dropped flat to the floor if Junno wasn’t fast enough to catch him, the other members was immediately by his side.
“Kame, that’s enough. You can continue to practice tomorrow.” Ueda spoke in a leader manner tone.
Pushing away Junno’s hold, “No, I need to practice. I won’t stop until I get that step right. Right, definitely won’t stop.” Junno held tighter, he intends on not letting go and Kame struggles against Junno.
“Kame-” Ueda pressed on.
“Don’t stop me, okay! I need to get that damn step right!!” Kame burst, this time pushing Junno harder, and was freed.
“Kame... OH MY GOD! KAME!!” Ueda took hold of his friend by his skinny weak shoulder when he refused to stop dancing, shaking him vigorously.
“Ueda, you don’t have to be so rough on him.” Nakamaru butted in, he did not feel comfortable. Kame was too weak, if Ueda continues to shake him he'll probably faint or black out.
“Yeah, Ueda.” A voice that sounded like Koki said. The room was death silent. Everything was so gloomy, the atmosphere was so uneasy and tense as everyone. The staffs, managers, and the members stared at Ueda and Kame. No one intend on butting in.
“Shut up! Kame, listen! Don’t be so hard on yourself. Don’t do it if you can’t take it. God, we know you’re doing this to heal the pain you’re feeling but not to the extent of hurting yourself. We all care. Please don’t do this.” Ueda tried his best to push on his strong act. He pulled Kame in and wraps his strong arms around Kame embracing the weak shaking figure. His hands patting Kame's head to calm the boy down.
Suddenly feeling exhausted, Kame leaned on him, “Ueda, why does it hurts so much? I don’t even understand a thing. How could Jin do this to me? Does he not love me anymore?” Ueda eyes begin to water. He then looked at the other four members, not knowing what to do searching for answers in their eyes. He hugged Kame tighter stopping Kame from shaking violently.
“I don’t know about that, Kame. But you know him well enough to judge him, right? I’m sure he still loves you.” Ueda comforted the younger boy, saying words of encouragement, hoping that he would listen. He himself was not informed by that Bakanishi until the day he entered the train with his belongings. Tears vivid in Jin's eyes as he wished everyone good luck and a good life.
“So why? Why-”
A ringing tone suddenly interrupted the moment -
“Ahh, sunimasen.” Nakamaru immediately walked out of the room upon receiving Ueda’s death glare.
“Hello.” He whispered.
“Nakamaru-kun? Is that you?”
~`~
A\N: Anyone can guess who called Nakamaru?? If you guessed right, I'll give you cookies!! ^______^ So Jin made his appearance in this chapter even though it was more of a flashback thing. I'm sure many of you might have lots of question regarding his disability. Don't fret! That will be explained in the later chapters! XDD
Thanx for reading! Comments are LOVE! ^-^