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Hey hey kiddies. It's been awhile.
Things are pretty okay. They're good and bad. I'm looking up and forward. Hoorray hoorah.
Sunday(15th):
Saw The Science of Sleep with Nicholas. AhahahahahAHAhahah ahah. Ahhhhhhhh. Yeah. It was pretty good. I thought it was pretty interesting. It kinda reminded me of... me. Se and I kinda talked about this today. But I have this thing where my dreams will set my mood ofr the rest of the day. I tend to have really realistic dreams and I kind of get them confused with reality. I liked it, it was a sweet story. Willow trees are fucking SCARY.
Friday(20th):
Bando game. Nothing much. Hung with the gang and not with the flutes. They suck so bad when they sing annoying songs. Lol. Oops. Was that outloud? Amy's pretty cool at times but only cause she found the other flutes annoying too.
Saturdaaaaay(21st):
FUCKING AMAZING.
To make a long story short, Nick tried to have 2 birthday parties and they both failed miserably 'cause no one came. We felt kinda super bad so we decided to have a surprise party for him. Got to his house at 8 with cake and woke him up with singing and silly string. Took him to breakfast. Stayed at his house for 12 HOURS. Aahhahah we watched like a million movies (Lucky Number Slevin; kinda gory, but good// Amelie; LOVED it. Very cute// And others we started and never finished). We (badly) played ping pong. Made Ramen ram-asta. I don't even remember half the shit we did to pass the time. :coughlol:
It was nice to see him happy for once and not just bitter, angry, and high.
It was a good day in the long run.
///edit: oh yeah, when I got home, my mom was like pretty kinda drunk which was a good thing for my case. 'Cause we had been at Nick's house all day doing, as she would have assumed, "God know's what" and it was pretty funny. Safe at home plate!
We also made a cool thought provoking blog this weekend. Too bad it's pretty much died already. AHahahhaah oh well. It was worth a stab.
So I had a generally good weekend. Spent most of today on hw. LAME. I still haven't finished but shhhh don't tell. Damn math hw. Nothing much to update on except life.
My mom and I have have come to terms. I'm glad we did. It feels much better now.
Now to fix all the other problems I have with the world.
You know, I hate that fuzzy grey feeling you get when it's getting dark. Almost like pieces of your eyes are shutting down because they can't see in the darkness anymore. But instead of pitch black, you see a foggy haze that clouds everything around you. Almost as if you are going blind. It only happens at certain times though. Whether it be a time of year or something else, it feels less like darkness and more like losing sight of everything else.
It's weird being inside your own body. Anything you feel or perceive only you can feel. The slight acheing of your neck or the smooth grinding of your joints. No one can feel it like you do. It's even stranger to think what it would be like in someone elses body. What slight things are they feeling at a given moment? What does happiness feel like to them? Or any other emotion for that matter? We each know how we react to these things, but what does another perceive them to be? Everything is so subjective, so relative. Every living, breathing thought is different between each individual, yet we find a way to connect ourselves.
Words are so difficult to come by. What we're feeling don't come quickly with words. In a delicate situation, there are times where anythign we say won't sound right. Almost as if you have to type it out in your head and then edit it for a few hours before saying it. Like the first draft of a book, we cross thigns off and reword the sentences over and over and they still don't sound like what you what them to.
I'm just thinking.
//FiN
Things are pretty okay. They're good and bad. I'm looking up and forward. Hoorray hoorah.
Sunday(15th):
Saw The Science of Sleep with Nicholas. AhahahahahAHAhahah ahah. Ahhhhhhhh. Yeah. It was pretty good. I thought it was pretty interesting. It kinda reminded me of... me. Se and I kinda talked about this today. But I have this thing where my dreams will set my mood ofr the rest of the day. I tend to have really realistic dreams and I kind of get them confused with reality. I liked it, it was a sweet story. Willow trees are fucking SCARY.
Friday(20th):
Bando game. Nothing much. Hung with the gang and not with the flutes. They suck so bad when they sing annoying songs. Lol. Oops. Was that outloud? Amy's pretty cool at times but only cause she found the other flutes annoying too.
Saturdaaaaay(21st):
FUCKING AMAZING.
To make a long story short, Nick tried to have 2 birthday parties and they both failed miserably 'cause no one came. We felt kinda super bad so we decided to have a surprise party for him. Got to his house at 8 with cake and woke him up with singing and silly string. Took him to breakfast. Stayed at his house for 12 HOURS. Aahhahah we watched like a million movies (Lucky Number Slevin; kinda gory, but good// Amelie; LOVED it. Very cute// And others we started and never finished). We (badly) played ping pong. Made Ramen ram-asta. I don't even remember half the shit we did to pass the time. :coughlol:
It was nice to see him happy for once and not just bitter, angry, and high.
It was a good day in the long run.
///edit: oh yeah, when I got home, my mom was like pretty kinda drunk which was a good thing for my case. 'Cause we had been at Nick's house all day doing, as she would have assumed, "God know's what" and it was pretty funny. Safe at home plate!
We also made a cool thought provoking blog this weekend. Too bad it's pretty much died already. AHahahhaah oh well. It was worth a stab.
So I had a generally good weekend. Spent most of today on hw. LAME. I still haven't finished but shhhh don't tell. Damn math hw. Nothing much to update on except life.
My mom and I have have come to terms. I'm glad we did. It feels much better now.
Now to fix all the other problems I have with the world.
You know, I hate that fuzzy grey feeling you get when it's getting dark. Almost like pieces of your eyes are shutting down because they can't see in the darkness anymore. But instead of pitch black, you see a foggy haze that clouds everything around you. Almost as if you are going blind. It only happens at certain times though. Whether it be a time of year or something else, it feels less like darkness and more like losing sight of everything else.
It's weird being inside your own body. Anything you feel or perceive only you can feel. The slight acheing of your neck or the smooth grinding of your joints. No one can feel it like you do. It's even stranger to think what it would be like in someone elses body. What slight things are they feeling at a given moment? What does happiness feel like to them? Or any other emotion for that matter? We each know how we react to these things, but what does another perceive them to be? Everything is so subjective, so relative. Every living, breathing thought is different between each individual, yet we find a way to connect ourselves.
Words are so difficult to come by. What we're feeling don't come quickly with words. In a delicate situation, there are times where anythign we say won't sound right. Almost as if you have to type it out in your head and then edit it for a few hours before saying it. Like the first draft of a book, we cross thigns off and reword the sentences over and over and they still don't sound like what you what them to.
I'm just thinking.
//FiN