[Oneshot] Forget or not to Forget ?
Title: Forget or not to Forget?
Author: hanny2luv
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: A bit of angst, general.
Summary: Tatsuya-centric. Kind of a sequel of Kesenai.
Disclaimer: I could only wish that they’re mine.
Beta by: my dearest wonderful beta allboutp
A/N: Thanks to senko_fuji for the translation of On My Mind by KAT TUN
Baby please come back to wa ienai
Ano koro ni wa kaerenai
Sugisaru toki no nagare to
Tada ima wa sugosu dake
Kienu omoi ga Come in back
Itsuka toki hanateru no nara
I believe inoru youni
I just wanna forget
Natsukashii My friend saikai ni
Kikitai koto afureru kedo
Furetewa ikenai………..
Naze konnani ki ni naru no?
Toge ga mada nukenu mama
Not kiss no mind mada kesenai
You’re still on my mind
Baby please come back, I can't tell you that
What can't return
When it goes and
Even now I keep moving on
I think of your return, Again it enters
The thought that doesn't go away from time ago
I thing you pray, I just wanna forget
The way it blossoms, My friend, a meeting
A thing that we just wanna hear
You don't have to touch
Why is it of your concern?
Exiting without success
No kiss, no mind, you can't turn off
You're still on my mind
Tatsuya becomes rigid when he hears that part of their song which is going to be included into their new single, One Drop. Somehow, those lines remind him of Ryo although he tries hard to forget about the younger man.
It’s been a week after he returns from his vacation and he tries hard to avoid the sexy Osakan at all cost even though the said man also tries very hard to seek him. At first, he takes the vacation to clear his mind, and of course to convince himself that he makes the right decision by leaving Ryo. And he had managed to do that. After all, two weeks without doing anything related to work or Ryo kind of helped him. But after he goes back home to work, it’s kind of hard to forget, to act like nothing had happened, to act that his decision is what it suppose to be. That it is better if that’s the way it is.
That’s why he tries his hardest to avoid the younger man, because by just seeing the pale and sick face of Ryo makes his heart ache. He knows that Ryo doesn’t eat well, he doesn’t even sleep well. Take one look at Ryo’s form, and he already knows that. And he hates that. He hates the fact that he still cares, the fact that he still can read Ryo like a book. He hates that despite everything, he still ache to be near to Ryo, to sleep next to him, to feel him in his embrace and vise versa. And most of all, he hates that his heart still yearning for Ryo, to love him still.
Nakamaru told him, that he can’t avoid Ryo forever. Kame told him that it’s only making it worse if he keeps on avoiding Ryo. Koki said to him that no matter what, he still need to face the future so might as well face Ryo now. Junno just smiled at him and told him that he will support whatever Tatsuya decision is, as long as it makes him happy. But Jin just looked at him with sad eyes and told him that Ryo is suffering too.
One day, he sees Ryo while he is walking towards his dressing room. The younger man doesn’t seem to notice him. The Ryo that is in front of him is definitely not the Ryo he knew. That Ryo, the person who was once his boyfriend is always mischievous around his friends. He is funny, hardworking and although he was piled with lots of works, his eyes were always so alive, yet so playful. But this Ryo, it seems like he is a living dead, his frame has become so thin, there’s like no more live surrounding him, his eyes are blank and the playfulness in his eyes that Tatsuya has always loved has gone. Tatsuya felt his heart constrict. Am I the one who is making him like this, he thought to himself.
Then he starts to regret the decision he makes. Am I doing the right thing, he starts questioning himself. Looking back, he knows that Ryo is not the only one at fault. He is too a guilty party. He left without giving any explanation. He didn’t give Ryo a chance to redeem himself, to right the wrong in their relationship. He should be more understanding. After all, both of them were busy with their own work, individual and group project. And he should have remember that Ryo is much busier than him, because he needs to juggle up between two groups, and add to the fact that he is one of the sought after actor in Japan. I should be more understanding, he mutters to himself. We should have talk to each other and settle this like an adult. But what did I do? I ran away. Baka Tatsuya. He reprimands himself.
After doing a lot of thinking, finally he reaches to a decision. Picking up the phone, he dials the number he knows by heart. After the second dial tones, he hears the phone being picked.
“Ne Ryo, it’s me. I miss you….”
The End.
Author: hanny2luv
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: A bit of angst, general.
Summary: Tatsuya-centric. Kind of a sequel of Kesenai.
Disclaimer: I could only wish that they’re mine.
Beta by: my dearest wonderful beta allboutp
A/N: Thanks to senko_fuji for the translation of On My Mind by KAT TUN
Baby please come back to wa ienai
Ano koro ni wa kaerenai
Sugisaru toki no nagare to
Tada ima wa sugosu dake
Kienu omoi ga Come in back
Itsuka toki hanateru no nara
I believe inoru youni
I just wanna forget
Natsukashii My friend saikai ni
Kikitai koto afureru kedo
Furetewa ikenai………..
Naze konnani ki ni naru no?
Toge ga mada nukenu mama
Not kiss no mind mada kesenai
You’re still on my mind
Baby please come back, I can't tell you that
What can't return
When it goes and
Even now I keep moving on
I think of your return, Again it enters
The thought that doesn't go away from time ago
I thing you pray, I just wanna forget
The way it blossoms, My friend, a meeting
A thing that we just wanna hear
You don't have to touch
Why is it of your concern?
Exiting without success
No kiss, no mind, you can't turn off
You're still on my mind
Tatsuya becomes rigid when he hears that part of their song which is going to be included into their new single, One Drop. Somehow, those lines remind him of Ryo although he tries hard to forget about the younger man.
It’s been a week after he returns from his vacation and he tries hard to avoid the sexy Osakan at all cost even though the said man also tries very hard to seek him. At first, he takes the vacation to clear his mind, and of course to convince himself that he makes the right decision by leaving Ryo. And he had managed to do that. After all, two weeks without doing anything related to work or Ryo kind of helped him. But after he goes back home to work, it’s kind of hard to forget, to act like nothing had happened, to act that his decision is what it suppose to be. That it is better if that’s the way it is.
That’s why he tries his hardest to avoid the younger man, because by just seeing the pale and sick face of Ryo makes his heart ache. He knows that Ryo doesn’t eat well, he doesn’t even sleep well. Take one look at Ryo’s form, and he already knows that. And he hates that. He hates the fact that he still cares, the fact that he still can read Ryo like a book. He hates that despite everything, he still ache to be near to Ryo, to sleep next to him, to feel him in his embrace and vise versa. And most of all, he hates that his heart still yearning for Ryo, to love him still.
Nakamaru told him, that he can’t avoid Ryo forever. Kame told him that it’s only making it worse if he keeps on avoiding Ryo. Koki said to him that no matter what, he still need to face the future so might as well face Ryo now. Junno just smiled at him and told him that he will support whatever Tatsuya decision is, as long as it makes him happy. But Jin just looked at him with sad eyes and told him that Ryo is suffering too.
One day, he sees Ryo while he is walking towards his dressing room. The younger man doesn’t seem to notice him. The Ryo that is in front of him is definitely not the Ryo he knew. That Ryo, the person who was once his boyfriend is always mischievous around his friends. He is funny, hardworking and although he was piled with lots of works, his eyes were always so alive, yet so playful. But this Ryo, it seems like he is a living dead, his frame has become so thin, there’s like no more live surrounding him, his eyes are blank and the playfulness in his eyes that Tatsuya has always loved has gone. Tatsuya felt his heart constrict. Am I the one who is making him like this, he thought to himself.
Then he starts to regret the decision he makes. Am I doing the right thing, he starts questioning himself. Looking back, he knows that Ryo is not the only one at fault. He is too a guilty party. He left without giving any explanation. He didn’t give Ryo a chance to redeem himself, to right the wrong in their relationship. He should be more understanding. After all, both of them were busy with their own work, individual and group project. And he should have remember that Ryo is much busier than him, because he needs to juggle up between two groups, and add to the fact that he is one of the sought after actor in Japan. I should be more understanding, he mutters to himself. We should have talk to each other and settle this like an adult. But what did I do? I ran away. Baka Tatsuya. He reprimands himself.
After doing a lot of thinking, finally he reaches to a decision. Picking up the phone, he dials the number he knows by heart. After the second dial tones, he hears the phone being picked.
“Ne Ryo, it’s me. I miss you….”
The End.