Dummy With the Rapture (SPN, Dean/Castiel, NC-17)

[hansbekhart]

Title: Dummy with the Rapture
Author: hansbekhart
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Summary: “There’s a room,” Castiel says, pressing his hand against his own chest, “in a house, in a town, where this man used to pray. Where he’d tell God every secret, unworthy thought he’d ever had and be forgiven for them. It matters, Dean. It matters to me that we

Comments

[tracy]

Oh my god. Absolutely, seamlessly gorgeous. The tone of it, the pacing, the middle-of-the-story story, the bleakness, the hope, the love.. It's those little details that get to me -- Castiel taking his coffee as black as Dean does, and Dean nudging his foot, and Castiel making a wish and crying at North Dakota and praying and Dean not praying.

but the guy looks scared and sad and all the things Dean never wanted a beacon of hope to look like

This. This line says so much. And Dean forgetting that angels can be killed and not looking away and Castiel looking at him like it's okay if Dean is the last thing he ever sees. That.

And also Jonah! Not so different from Castiel, and telling Dean what it's like to believe so much, and Dean wanting to know. That struck me so much. And then when he knows Jonah's right, in the end -- after the CURTAIN THING, I LOVE the curtain thing -- perfect.

In conclusion, I love this. ♥

[hansbekhart]

**blushes** Thank you so much! I'm really glad that you dug it :D.

Castiel looking at him like it's okay if Dean is the last thing he ever sees. That.

It's weird, but writing that part kind of upset me, like, a lot. Who knows. But that makes me especially glad that that part stood out to you :D.

[juicephine]

Oh my god. This. I have no WORDS for how much I loved this. I haven't read a lot of Dean/Castiel, but this works so well. LOVE LOVE LOVE your Castiel.

I also really like how you can sense the Sam-shaped hole in Dean's life. It's heartbreaking, but that's just how it should be.

[hansbekhart]

Thank you so much!! **beams** I wanted Sam to be a part of the story, even if I knew he wasn't going to be present it. I'm happy that you liked that part :).

[__rini]

Umg, you wrote Dean/Castiel. And it was gorgeous. Seriously, seriously gorgeous, beautifully written, and just all out WONDERFUL. I think it's odd that the part that stuck in my mind most was the image of Castiel and Dean smoking at Bobby's. I'm not sure why... but yeah, I really liked that for some reason. =)

this is just something that I nitpick about, sry... "They pour over the local papers over coffee and pie at the dinner. Or rather, Dean pours over the papers, while Castiel stares into middle distance like it’s personally offended him." - 'pour' ought to be 'pore'

[hansbekhart]

Oh dude, that scene where they smoke at Bobby's? That's my favorite part. I could probably explain why but it would go on and on and probably sound egotistical, so I'm going to skip that and say, thank you so much!! And also, holy crap, you are right about that pore vs pour. Imma fix that.

[parenthetical]

I love this SO MUCH. It's so beautiful. Your version of the apocalypse is terrifying, and Sam's absence is heart-breaking. I love Bobby's house becoming hell in the non-literal sense, and the scene where he tells Dean to be careful - oh, Bobby. <3
And most of all I love your Dean and Castiel. The scene when they're sitting together at Bobby's is particularly beautiful.
I really, really enjoyed this, thank you for sharing!

[hansbekhart]

Thank you so much!! I couldn't resist a little Bobby in there, I love that guy. I'm really glad you enjoyed the story, thank you for reading!

[justholdstill]

Man. Man.
Obviously, I'm not even part of SPN fandom (I just have this
compulsion to read random, interesting-looking things that pop up on my flist. True story.), but I know enough to know that this kicks ass in all kinds of ways. It broke my heart in about a million places and put it back together, too. :) I haven't read your writing in a while, but I don't know how I could have forgotten that you're really fucking good. Like, stand-alone, put-this-in-memories-to-read over-a-bajillion-times good. It was all kinds of beautiful, and I could maybe kind of like the end of the world, the way you write it. :P

[hansbekhart]

**blushes like CRAZY** Been a while since I've written anything, actually. It felt really good to be back in the saddle, you know? Really, really good in that really frustrating way. But thank you for reading this even when it's not your fandom - and thank you for saying that. That made my night, man.

[justholdstill]

I just wanted you to know that i am reading this again nine years later, and it's still just as soul-crushingly beautiful and evocative and absolutely true to character as the first time.

I am deep into Supernatural now, and I just gotta say, damn, woman. I've barely dipped my toes into fic and the fandom, and i honestly don't know if I can after being spoiled by the quality of your work. For real, you have a rare talent, and i'm so tickled to "know" you in whatever tangential sense that LJ made possible. <3