worst day of my life

[happierbarefoot]

I tried to drive home tonight. I cant. Im too spaced out. Im laying here all alone. Thank god for law and order. I think at 10 im going to shower and go the fuck to bed. I wish kenny was here. Im so sad and lonely. He told me to call him if I needed anything but he hasnt answered his phone. I know its not how it is but I feel so abandoned. This is

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[_secret_battle_]

be careful <3

[happierbarefoot]

I want to but I just feel so lost right now that Im not sure I can be. Im trying to sit here and focus on Law and Order to pass the time. I'll prob just take another xanax and go to sleep. I just want tomarrow to be over with. Tonight will be the first night I have slept in bed alone. Im afraid actually.

[xboundxbrokenx]

Sleeping is probably a really good idea, it tends to make it alot easier to deal with things when you're asleep. I'm planning on drugging myself up tomorrow, so I sleep through most of the day. I hate the wait. I hate having to see him only on Sundays, because Saturdays, no matter what I do, pass slow as fuck. Sleeping is good. I worry for you, just try to be careful mmkay?

[happierbarefoot]

i will try to be careful, I know my xanax pretty well. Ive been on it for 2 years. sleep really does help. I know tomarrow is going to DRAG by. I just want my boyfriend to come back. He had to go home and work on his car so he could bring it back. I feel bad for him because he feels so bad about leaving me here. Man i miss him already, he just left today. boo well you are right sleep is the best thing. esp. drugged sleep. I love it.

[anonymous]

hey your bed is still made here if you want to come home...
love katie