Where to begin ( Read more... )

How did I get here? Suddenly you're on a road you did not choose.Life happens. I feel like I started this life with a shock absorbing fog that filtered whatever came in, making shit easier to deal with. I don't believe in god but I feel like something or someone is always testing me. All of my strength was used up during the molestation. I had a ( Read more... )

Well, a much needed blow up that almost resulted in me moving out happened yesterday. I have been under a ridiculous amount of stress and so has Shaun so things have been tense. We both suck at communication so things have a tendency to build up. There's finally a light at the end of the tunnel. Counseling will be getting underway, things seem to ( Read more... )

tonight I feel an overwhelming sense of doom/failure/disgust with myself

I don't know why it's tonight that I feel this way, I'm not pms'ing and nothing provoked it...it just happened.

I just want to die for some reason.

I didn't make this up myself but I've decided to start living by it...

"Nothing tastes as good as thin feels"

MySpace = superficial = high school = so over it ( Read more... )

I'm not happy, I'm miserable in fact, maybe not every day, but just in general ( Read more... )

Well, it took a really long time, and I can count how many times I've done it in my lifetime but I accepted the things I've done wrong over the past year or so and apologized to someone. I started thinking really hard about everything bad I've said about people I was once friends with and whether or not those things were true and/or worth it. And ( Read more... )

How awesome my dad is ( Read more... )

It really bothers me when I hear something that was said or thought about me by someone I care about. It's supposed to be all "said and done with" but I didn't know about it then and I know about it now, so now, I am pissed. Whatever. I can be irrational but a lot of times I do have reasons. It's not my fault some people think they're the greatest ( Read more... )