Comments | happy_endings_3: 4 of the 5 voices in my head are telling me to go back

happy_endings_3

4 of the 5 voices in my head are telling me to go back

Aug 15, 2005 17:40

Ok so basically right now, i feel, alone and depressed and like i dont belong, and like a HUGE chunk of heart was just broke off and stolen. Its like i lost my whole family, my closest friends, and it sucks ass! Major ass! Its so hard to think that i'm not going to see this amazing place that feels so much more like home than my actual home right ( Read more... )

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I miss LLL! setaspikedc19 August 15 2005, 18:31:23 UTC

Taylor, I heart you. more than you know. I hate when people tell you it's only camp and then they want you to explain what is so amazing about it...and you can't because it is exactly that...AMAZING...so amazing in fact that you can't explain it. You can't explain the relationships that you have with the people there, or the inside jokes you share. You can't even explain something as simple as cleaning dishes...because you can go on and on about things that happened and how much fun cleaning dishes can be. then you start talking about everything else at camp and pretty soon you've been talking so long that next summer is already here. I miss it so much. I honestly thing that whatever came and stole that piece of your heart that belongs to camp...came and stold mine too because I feel exactly the same way. I love you...

Re: I miss LLL! happy_endings_3 August 15 2005, 19:20:01 UTC

Its good having someone around that knows what i am feeling... If i worked alone this summer and came home feeling this way without you i dont know what i would have done... i started crying doing dishes today...it was really... bleh! Camp really is that amazing, and i can already see my self at school, and something as simple beef stew for school lunch is going to send me running to the bathroom crying my broken heart out. I hate this, and no one knows shannon, they will never feel this, its like the only family i ever had is gone forever, and that feeling is the worst feeling that anyone can ever feel...
I just want my heart back!

Awww angelscrymagick August 15 2005, 23:23:28 UTC

I'm sorry Tay Bic, and I know how you feel, when I went to CO and I met all my Aunt's friends, and made friends out their that I seen everyday, I dunno what it was, I jus felt whole out there, here I feel like I'm missing something ya know? I dunno, But I completly get & understand what your saying!!! Coz here, I have all you guys, but it's diff, Theres still somethign missing... well ttyl...

Re: Awww happy_endings_3 August 16 2005, 09:13:35 UTC

Yeah, i get what your saying, something is always going to be missing lol...until i go back to camp, and you go back to colorado...
Love ya

Uhhh lost... angelscrymagick August 15 2005, 23:43:51 UTC

My icons wont show up on my Journal page... Why? Can you help me with that? JW ttyl. SMILE! Much love

Re: Uhhh lost... happy_endings_3 August 16 2005, 09:13:56 UTC

Um, i will try but i dont know...