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Been feeling kinda out of whack lately. My knee is still messed up. Though now it generally feels fine (only mild pain when bending it significantly), but every once in a while it sort of locks up and hurts like hell for about 30 seconds after I move it. Then it's fine again. It also always hurts when I wake up, so either I'm sleeping funny or it gets stiff when I'm not using it. On the subject of sleep, I keep having weird dreams (my kind of weird dreams where everything is very real-world, just not my life), and not sleeping very well in general. I also seem to be utilizing an excessive amount. Besides that I just feel generally disoriented. Probably the unsure future.
Other than that I'm great though. I have had a very long chain of good days, some of them down right fantastic. Days full of love and friendship and fun. I've also got goof off time now and have been enjoying the chance to relax (watched 4 movies yesterday and started playing Deus Ex again).
In class last week, Instructor Sirny told us about a saying in Hwa Rang Do (paraphrasing): "There's a million reasons not to do something, there's only one reason to do it", he asked us to think about what that reason is for us. I'm inclined to say I don't know what that reason is yet, but my working answer is because it's right. Generally speaking, it's the right thing to do to go to work, to train, to brush your teeth, to be kind and helpful, to spend time with loved ones. And I don't always do the right thing because I'm tired, or lazy, or I'd rather play a game, or I don't want to deal with it. I feel like I need to get on it and start doing the right thing more often. Hopefully I will.
Other than that I'm great though. I have had a very long chain of good days, some of them down right fantastic. Days full of love and friendship and fun. I've also got goof off time now and have been enjoying the chance to relax (watched 4 movies yesterday and started playing Deus Ex again).
In class last week, Instructor Sirny told us about a saying in Hwa Rang Do (paraphrasing): "There's a million reasons not to do something, there's only one reason to do it", he asked us to think about what that reason is for us. I'm inclined to say I don't know what that reason is yet, but my working answer is because it's right. Generally speaking, it's the right thing to do to go to work, to train, to brush your teeth, to be kind and helpful, to spend time with loved ones. And I don't always do the right thing because I'm tired, or lazy, or I'd rather play a game, or I don't want to deal with it. I feel like I need to get on it and start doing the right thing more often. Hopefully I will.