i'm sorry

[happy_monkee]

i'm sorry you guys...i know that i've been a downer lately and i'm sorry i'm dumping my problems out and you all have to hear about it. i wish i could bring myself to think about something else, but it's the only thing on my mind and the only thing that i seem to be able to think about. so if you're sick about hearing about it...stop here and just

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[khuu_khuu]

I know very little about your situation Mel, but when you mentioned the whole chasing metaphor, I say, it sort of sounds like he likes to do the chasing, so give him to realize what he's missing and hopefully, he'll do a U-turn of sorts and come back for you.

Either way whatever you choose to do, you WILL have friends to catch you if you fall. I can't believe otherwise.

[djhawk]

"i'm either gonna sit infront of this wall that stands before me or i'm gonna climb it. i'm sick of swimming i'd rather sink, and climbing hurts too much i'd rather just sit behind this wall. i know i'm stubborn but thats just me, i know that if i know it i should change but i won't, it's me."

I don't think thats you, what you do in life makes you who you are. You are born into a certain family, with lots or little money and tons of stuff like that but you chose your path. What you CHooSe to do, creates the person everyone sees.

You are right though, It is your choice and no one else no matter how hard they try can change that. Best wishes in your chosing.

[water_junkie]

I think if you're really concerned about your friends and you're appologizing to them, a Livejournal entry isn't really the way to do it. Talk to each individual personally if you really mean it Mel.

And as much as I'd like to think that your friends are going to stick by you, and most of them are, some may drop out of the running. I'm not saying me, and I'm not saying anybody I know will do it. But eventually, the pity card runs out and you only have yourself to blame for what's to come ahead of you.

You're a smart girl Melissa, sometimes confused, but nonetheless a young woman with a Good head on her shoulders. I should hate to think that after all this, you're not going to use it. You've heard it time and time again, you're above this. The only person stopping you is yourself. And only you can figure out what's going to be the next move. I hope you make a good decision.

[djhawk]

I agree completely with tiff. I haven't been able to say what I'm thinking properly yet and tiff just said it more or less

[water_junkie]

I agree with Gavin as well about the whole Prince Charming thing. I mean.. You think you know a person, but it's only because you see what you want to see, blinded to what's really there staring back at you. Down the road you'll see, eventually. He may be your prince charming right now, but when did Prince Charming ever hurt his Sleeping Beauty? And again, to be totally honest, Vince doesn't deserve you by the way he's been treating you. Again again, no one can tell you different but you.

Take a step back. Float up out of your shoes and just hover for a bit. Take a look to see what WE see. You may just find yourself while taking a break from yourself.

[halibutt230]

It's amazing how boys (big, loud, smelly boys) can change us and fill us with either immense pleasure or immense pain. They turn us into girls we love, and then they turn us into the girls we used to pitty. I suppose we can do the same to guys.

Remember, if you do wind up going back to him, you're setting yourself up for a reoccurance of the pain you're feeling now times ten if it should end again. (I learned this from experience... horrible experience I hope no one ever has to go through) The wound feels deeper the second time.

"Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me."
A partner has one chance to make you hurt, if they do it again, it's your fault for letting them. (sorry to sound harsh, but I just hate it when this kind of thing happens to people I love. I know the pain and no one deserves it.)