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"The desert knows that we are strangers
'Til the sands of time seep through our eyes..."I took an Ambien this morning to see if I could sleep better. I STILL couldn't sleep. I woke up twice after I finally DID fall asleep, once because my knee hurt. I so want to amputate the damn thing. Pinched nerve or not, it's driving me insane, having to ( Read more... )

Gods... I haven't worked in days... what am I going to do? The rent's due soon, and I don't know if I even made half of my part of the bills. On top of that, but I'm sore all over and lacking energy. I'm out of food, and I'm falling deeper in debt. This MTA is really ruining my life, or what little bit of a life I had before it started. The spells ( Read more... )

I was good and happy an hour ago. Then, I don't care to say what the fuck it was, but SOMETHING ruined my mood, and now I'm depressed. It's so bad that my fake smile is OBVIOUSLY fake... Kyle thought I was mad and trying not to look it ( Read more... )

I did it again. I blew it. I had a perfect opportunity for happiness with someone I cared about, and they ended up drawing further away from me and falling in love with another guy. And when that person said that they still loved me, they just didn't know HOW, I wanted to smash something, anything, just break it into pieces. The frustration got so ( Read more... )

I don't know why, but I often get these random fits of depression and withdrawal. Or other times, mind just goes blank, and I completely forget what I was doing or what I was thinking... WHY?! I hate being depressed, and these random flashes of erasure, or whatever you call it ( Read more... )

( Synopsis of last night's wierdness )

What the hell just happened to my previous post??! The whole text disappeared somehow?! *gack* Ah, well, it doesn't matter... not like it matters now ( Read more... )

Ushunawareta tsubasa wo sagashite ( Read more... )

I'm bored. Someone get me a latte.