Hi.

[happycake]

--Okay. I got fired from Tower Records. I wish I could explain why, but it was some pretty big bullshit and totally unfair and not even worth explaining right now. I was fired on July 1st and have spent the majority of the past three weeks lying in bed, crying, feeling sorry for myself, thinking suicidal thoughts and watching 7th Heaven. I take

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[_ellie_]

*hugs*
If you're ever in Australia, you are more than welcome to crash on my couch!

Things seem to be going OK with you. With Chad, and losing the job - just look at it as an opportunity to look for something new. Have a chat with your school about how you're having problems with finance, see if they can help you out (I know they do in some places here in Australia).

Don't take things so hard *cuddles* I know it's hard, n' stuff but things will get better once you relax a little and stuff.

I hope you feel better soon. I miss talking to you!!

*smile!*

[happycake]

Hey Ellie,

I miss talking to you too. I'm really sorry we kind of lost touch. How have you been lately? I am going to talk to my school but the thing is, I waited way too long to apply for financial aid and so all the money is probably gone, but I can maybe go next semester. College is way more expensive here than in Australia. I would loooove to go to Australia. I've been trying to go forever but it's so damn expensive and I just don't have the money. But if I ever do, I'll be sure to try to get together with you!

How did the job interview go?

Take care, Ellie.

[confusionisnext]

I'm sorry that you got fired from Tower dear, I hope things look up for you soon.

Concerning Sarah Lawrence, do you think that if you really put yourself to work you could do it? Like I'm switching schools in the fall as well and I know I won't know anybody and I'll miss all of my old friends but I'm going to just work my ass off and get through it. Maybe getting a degree from Sarah Lawrence is for the best?

I wish you the best of luck making your decision <3

[happycake]

Thanks. :)

I'm so sorry we've lost touch...I've pretty much lost touch with everyone. Do you have an address there yet? Well.that's kind of silly, I'm sure you must. But I know you usually get a p.o. box, so I guess a more appropriate question would be do you have that yet? If so, you should totally email me. daphne745@aol.com.

And yes, I think if I really tried and worked hard I could do well there. I just know leaving Chad will be the hardest. But I have a couple friends in long distance relationships. My best friend, Ana's boyfriend is in Ecuador for the next year...so I'm hoping she and I can cheer each other on and such. How are you doing in New York? And of course, you must know, if I do end up going back there, we're totally getting together.

<3

[confusionisnext]

Don't worry about it, I'm not very good with keeping in touch either and it normally takes me forever to sit down and write anything. I have an address but no PO Box but I've been having stuff sent there instead because most of the people I still mail to I have been mailing to for quite some time (like yourself!).

I think that if you could handle being away from Chad, you should do it. Sarah Lawrence is a great school and the classes seemed a lot more interesting than the ones that you're taking now. I'm doing alright in NY, I'm a bit lonely and things are just kind of dragging along. I'm dreading school. If you do go back to Sarah Lawrence, we will totally hang out all the time <3

[eatingdinner]

i totally feel you on this. i cry easily/over seemingly trivial things, but the crying is so real and from the gut. i went to dinner with my boyfriend and wanted pancakes all day and we got there and they werent serving breakfast anymore. i was so close to crying, it was absurd. i hope things get better - hang in there.

[happycake]

Hey Steph

[eatingdinner]

sorry that took ten thousand years to reply to. i did have a boyfriend - ugh. we were together every single day for the past 5 months and then one day he had enough. so i fell apart and was nonfunctional but now i am trying to get back to my normal stuff. and i remembered your comment and that i never answered it.

of course i remember american girl dolls. maybe i can go to the store and take pictures of it and send them to you so you can be there, virtually. one time i cried at the back of a movie box. like, i was reading the description, and it was about an old woman, and her life, and how she was so strong and her husband loved her so much, and i started bawling. yeah, someones got issues.

hope that you are doing well. come visit!! im going back to slc now cause i cant manage my life in the city without joel. so yeah, theres tons of people who would love to see you there. including me. so visit.

[moscowtomars]

Hillary!! Add me so i can see your friends only posts!!

Oh man. We should have a long conversation soon on aim or phone. 831 246 2557.

[happycake]

I totally way agree about a conversation. I haven't made any friends-only posts in a long time, I just haven't been updating because I've been seriously pretty depressed over losing my job. But of course I'll add you anyway. I saw your journal yesterday and was like "woah..what?" about stuff.

If I come back, I way want to hang out with you more than last semester. Seriously.

[happycake]

I know. I ususally do update way more when I'm depressed but I think I refrained because I don't like having 10 really depressing journal antries in a row

[joeybeck]

so....now you don't have a job you have enough time to come to australia! I still think you should go to a travel agent and get a quote on airfares, because they are always cheaper than over the internet.

I am writing you a letter, it is basically finished, but it is taking me a super-long time. I am really really busy at the moment, I have just changed hospitals and it's really hectic. I wrote a letter to a friend in England a couple of months ago and it just got returned to me - apparantly I had the wrong address. I was a bit sad he didn't get it, but I was more excited that if I send something to the wrong address in England, they will return it to me even though it's so far away!! I thought that was really cool.

Anyway, I am very sorry you lost your job, and I promise I will post your letter within a couple of weeks...

Joey

[happycake]

I want to go to Australia soo much. I thought about it seriously a few weeks ago, but then we found out that we hadn't paid all of our tuition to my last school and I had to hand over my $400 paycheck to go towards that..so I really don't have much money.

I think most places will return the letter, even if it's very far away. There's this show called Nip/Tuck and it's about these two plastic surgeons and I think you would like it. It's kind of gory but it's very interesting and kind of scandalous. Maybe it will come to Australia soon. I want to be an anasthesiologist. Is that how you spell that? I am very excited to receive your letter.

[joeybeck]

Oh, I still haven't sent the letter. I am super-lazy. I started it about two months ago now. I will do it.

Nip/tuck was on a year or so ago - with julian mcmahon? That show was cool! It was trashy and funny and medical.

In Australia, we just call them anaesthetists! (Or anesthetists in american spelling). A lot simpler.
You should come anyway. Summer here is nice.