Oh, dear. I'm afraid that's the bit I really don't get. How on earth could someone decide that it would be better to -- to simply end it, than to keep looking for a way out? Especially if there are people right in front of them who are trying to help and they just aren't listening because they really do have a frankly unpleasant attitude and -- ahem.
I'm sorry, I believe I got a teensy bit carried away there. Do forgive me.
Well, yes, of course that's true! But what I really don't understand is how anyone could possibly ever wish for death -- especially when things are bad!
I can't imagine how anyone could ever just lose hope, to the point where they think all that's left is -- well. You know. It doesn't make any sense...
Not all of us are so cheery as you all the time, sweetheart. And sometimes when all there looks to be on the horizon is more pain and more darkness, you don't want to face it anymore.
And now you'll say something about how life is all sunshine and rainbows and shit, won't ya?
Oh, I understand that -- certainly everyone has dark times! I do know what it's like to be desperate and alone and to...to just sort of want everything to go away, because your heart just can't take anymore, and...well. It's not that I'm confused about.
When times are at their worst, the only way you can get through them is by having hope! I just can't conceive of ever being so downhearted that you can't even hope any more...
Trust me it's...possible. When things are at their very worst, sometimes there just doesn't seem to be an up to go to. That the hope that something after death is the only hope they have.
If you knew, for certain, things would never get better, what would you do? Just...suffer? Until you died of something else?
But there is always hope! Even you've lost something, or...someone...there is always, always something around that you can believe in! You just have to know where to look! Why, even if there is nothing else left, you always have your dreams, right there in your heart -- and there is nothing better than a dream to place your hopes in! So I'm really not certain why anyone...
...Oh, dear. Everyone's trying to explain it to me, and I just don't seem to be able to understand. Perhaps it's because I've been lucky -- why, back when I felt like the world had just lost all its sparkle and wonder, I was fortunate enough to fall in with the most wonderful, loving, and pure-hearted people in the entire universe! So I may...be a bit spoiled, in that regard.
But I do want to understand. I've always wanted to help people -- well, that and sing, but that's another story right there -- but if I can't even understand something like this...
Yes, and that's why I'm worried! Why does it happen? How can I possibly help someone if I don't understand why...
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Mr. Ryuuzaki said not to tell anyone about it, but, well, you were there too, so...I suppose you know what I'm talking about. I do want to help that poor man, I really do, but he was so insistent...how can someone even get to be like that?
I'm not sure anyone could ever really give you a proper answer to that. Some people out there are in such horrid conditions, have suffered so much that they sometimes lose sight of their own worth, and of all life can offer them.
They see death as a release from whatever is hurting them.
But -- to be so disheartened that even death...how can that even happen? How could someone give up so completely on life that they want it to just...end?
The world produces all sorts of people. Some with the fortitude to manage on, and see the light at the end of the tunnel, and others who cannot.
There are some people who become completely convinced that there is no alternative.
As for why. There really is no other reason other than that's simply the way nature and nurture made them--just like some people can kill, and others can't.
Oh my. I suppose you're right -- I've never understood how someone could...could kill another person on, you know, purpose. Maybe I'll never understand this...
I suppose what it really is, is that I want to give these people hope. That's what the Way is all about -- we exist to give hope, and to let people know that dreams really and truly do come true, and if we can't help one person who's just so convinced that it's the only way out and there's nothing that we can do and -- er, well, what I mean is...
I just feel as though I don't understand anything anymore. I used to think I knew how the world worked, and now I'm just finding that there's all sorts of things I don't know or understand, and I suddenly find myself feeling very lost. I just don't know what to do about all this...
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Can't say I'm a fan of the idea, but I guess bad shit happens.
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Oh dear. This really is a difficult question, isn't it?
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Or they're too afraid to keep going and would rather end it there.
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I'm sorry, I believe I got a teensy bit carried away there. Do forgive me.
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I can't imagine how anyone could ever just lose hope, to the point where they think all that's left is -- well. You know. It doesn't make any sense...
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And now you'll say something about how life is all sunshine and rainbows and shit, won't ya?
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When times are at their worst, the only way you can get through them is by having hope! I just can't conceive of ever being so downhearted that you can't even hope any more...
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If you knew, for certain, things would never get better, what would you do? Just...suffer? Until you died of something else?
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...Oh, dear. Everyone's trying to explain it to me, and I just don't seem to be able to understand. Perhaps it's because I've been lucky -- why, back when I felt like the world had just lost all its sparkle and wonder, I was fortunate enough to fall in with the most wonderful, loving, and pure-hearted people in the entire universe! So I may...be a bit spoiled, in that regard.
But I do want to understand. I've always wanted to help people -- well, that and sing, but that's another story right there -- but if I can't even understand something like this...
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[ filtered, somewhat inexpertly, to Lucas ]
Mr. Ryuuzaki said not to tell anyone about it, but, well, you were there too, so...I suppose you know what I'm talking about. I do want to help that poor man, I really do, but he was so insistent...how can someone even get to be like that?
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And...if you really did want to...you know...once upon a time...maybe you could explain it to me?
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I'm not sure anyone could ever really give you a proper answer to that. Some people out there are in such horrid conditions, have suffered so much that they sometimes lose sight of their own worth, and of all life can offer them.
They see death as a release from whatever is hurting them.
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There are some people who become completely convinced that there is no alternative.
As for why. There really is no other reason other than that's simply the way nature and nurture made them--just like some people can kill, and others can't.
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I suppose what it really is, is that I want to give these people hope. That's what the Way is all about -- we exist to give hope, and to let people know that dreams really and truly do come true, and if we can't help one person who's just so convinced that it's the only way out and there's nothing that we can do and -- er, well, what I mean is...
I just feel as though I don't understand anything anymore. I used to think I knew how the world worked, and now I'm just finding that there's all sorts of things I don't know or understand, and I suddenly find myself feeling very lost. I just don't know what to do about all this...
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