wow, i never update do i...well what's new..um..nothing much i have a myspace now that's probably why i don't update, not like anyone cares...anyway it's www.myspace.com/happynikki
yay...

I know that I can be
the meanest person in the world
So I apologize to you
And to anyone else that I hurt too
I may not be a perfect soul
But I can learn self-control
So pardon me, pardon me
pardon me my friend

i want this feeling to go away...
i want my sadness to go away...
i want to go away...
leave me alone...

If there's someone who makes me happy
please please come and find me...

Last Confession ( Read more... )

Part of a song:

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin'

i will find myself lying awake at night crying because i feel so god awful alone, and it makes me feel so stupid cuz tht's not even half of my problems...idk if i can take another year...

I wish i had someone
to cheer me up when i'm down
someone to make me laugh
when i'm really sad
Just someone to love me...

i want to help you
but i don't know how
i want to soothe you
but i can't speak out
i have many fears
about rejection
i have many memories of pain
i have always been a bit too shy
so i'll turn and look the other way

Lonesome ( Read more... )