Lost because I want to be lost..

[happyphantom]

And sometimes, I just feel like writing without worrying that I have to edit my thoughts to please an audience. At the moment, I couldn't care less. I am enjoying the sound of my fingers as they tappity tap on the keyboard. And I am letting the sounds of 1000 Oceans soothe my weary mind. It doesn't take much to soothe me some times. Of course, it

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[venado]

I feel as though nothing I will do will ever be good enough for him, that I will disappoint him, time and time again. And yet, I cannot stop trying..foolish, I know. One day, I hope to be able to just not care about what he thinks of me and whether or not he approves of me.
One day, I will not feel like a burden.

Like being the weight on someone else's shoulders. You know, even when I write things, if I feel the need to hide them from eyes I do just that, to keep them for my eyes, but never erase.

[happyphantom]

"Like being the weight on someone else's shoulders."

Exactly. And from there stem my vain attempts at weightlessness.