yup...

no subject, no song, no mood.

i'm leaving.

ok well i guess i have nothing else to do. 2004 in recap. my worst year. i lost so much this year. i lost a love i can never replace, a friend, and myself. i gained what? i dont know. i gained experiences that changed me so much. thats all i gained. advice i can pass on to others too, thats about it. i dont even know who i am anymore. i used to ( Read more... )

"you have flat out got to believe that it ain't gonna happen to you. i dont care how bad that wreck is, you're gonna walk away from it 'cause you so damn tough they couldn't castrate you with a chainsaw. But i'll tell you what else, too, right now. You best be willing to pay that price." ~from the movie "3 ( Read more... )

6 more months... well about 7, but whos counting. thats all the time i have. then i can get the fuck out of here. i can get away from everything. i can start my life. i can break free from everything thats holding me down. i can get the FUCK OUT OF HERE! no one knows how happy i'll be when im on that plane. thats it, i dont WANT to fucking come ( Read more... )

i feel lonely. very lonely. and i dont know why. i just want to be taken away from here. away from this place. away from everything and all the bullshit that comes with it. i just want to go away. just for a while. i feel like im searching again. subconciously. like all my energies are being drawn towards searching. like i have no desire to go to ( Read more... )

heh heh heh..... just getting into the christmas sprirt. anyways, just working on my speech. o yea by the way, i'm thinking about changing the exhaust on my truck to dual glasspacks instead of the muffler. besides, one tailpipe is always coming loose and it has a leak at the other tailpipe. also, it isnt seated properly so the muffler pulls down on ( Read more... )

its WAAAY too early to be awake for going to bed at 2 after working 8 hours last night. i havent updated in a while, and honestly theres not much to talk about. my weeks are just filled with work and school, sleep, then do it all over again. but at least every penny i pay, i got it honest. i'm having a party here at the house tonight, to break in ( Read more... )

hey all.... yea so my last entry was prob spawned from my dad fucking yelling at me all day long...it seemed like i couldnt even talk to him, he just had to bitch at me about something. so if anyone thought that entry was meant for them, it wasnt. it wasnt meant for anybody. i was just venting and i decided to just rant and rant until i couldnt ( Read more... )