anonymous reader, whoever you are, you helped me out a little bit with your advice before, but now you are accusing me of "not being over it." first off, who the fuck are you? and second, who the hell are you to tell me that i'm not without my pain? you may not buy it, and that's fine. but when you tell me i have issues with it because "that's just ( Read more... )

tomorrow marks the first day of my suspension. whatever. three days ain't nothing. i feel so relaxed right now, it's nice. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! heh heh heh ( Read more... )

yea it was. (see subject) ok for those of you who have not heard, i had the literal DAY FROM HELL on tuesday, which resulted in getting my ass in the hospital for 6 1/2 hours after nearly running my truck off the road. so it starts ( Read more... )

i have to do something about this. i have to do something about this pain and heartache and depression. i don't think he's going to come to me at all. ryan and rob both agreed that hes scared of me. what's to be scared of? a heartbroken cowboy with everything to lose and nowhere to go. nowhere to turn, nothing, its out of my hands. but i still can ( Read more... )

this is so true...


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*sigh* well rachel is in NY right now, so it doesnt help that i can't talk to her. she just knows me deeper than anyone else. emme is really close, but she just isn't as vocal about it i guess. i guess not much happened since the last time i updated. i am continually fighting against zac and continually losing. and its not even fighting. hes ( Read more... )

i literally had one of the worst nights of my entire life (not the only, there have been a few others, but last night was up there...) i had about 6 or 7 people on me the whole night making sure i didnt do anything stupid. i crushed a fucking plastic pop bottle with one hand. cap CLOSED...which means i blew a hole in it somewhere... i mean he had ( Read more... )

i had a good first day today. work is fun. for once its fun. aside from the fact that my feet are pulsating, i guess i'll have to get used to that. o well. we get anf hour break tho. thats right, you heard me, an HOUR! and we can leave the shop if we want in that hour. to go into town, to perhaps pick up some dinner or something like that. its ( Read more... )

i'm seriously 50/50 right now on whether i'm going to the homecoming dance or not. for one, i don't have a date. but that's ok, cause last year, i didn't have a date, but i went with the group. second, i was completely left out of the loop for doing something beforehand. now, i don't know about rob, i think he may be doing something with lauren? or ( Read more... )

*sigh plus takes a deep breath* contemplation...... thoughts running through my head. my chest feels so empty...like it literally feels lighter, like something was removed from it. i'm not going to cry. i'm not going to do it. im stronger than that. im stronger...oh what's the use? all i can do is all i can do and all i can be is all i can be. i ( Read more... )