So much to do between now and leaving for tour.

Mostly want to crawl into a hole and make everyone else go away. Possibly also cry.

Feeling overwhelmed emotionally, mentally, and physically. I don't have enough brainspace to deal with all of these issues, but all of these issues must be dealt with. I need an external hard drive, somehow.

Holy sweet crap. I'm not saying my riding instructors were awesome, but every single coach I ever had would have hauled this girl off of her pony, smacked her a few times, and then forbidden her from ever riding again if they had seen this kind of behavior ( Read more... )

The bad_riding community on LJ has been extremely educational. Understand, the people I rode with were, by and large, pretty sane. A lot of them were stuck-up brats, and they weren't all stellar riders, but for the most part, people didn't do things that were monumentally stupid, and mostly worked with trainers when trying new things/dealing with ( Read more... )

I think my brain is going to explode.

If my heart doesn't go first.

Every once in awhile, I revisit the horse-related corner of the internet, and two things happen: (1) I thank my lucky stars I didn't have more horrific accidents during my prelim-level eventing days, and (2) I find a new and horrifying form of animal abuse ( Read more... )

How do you get over someone? How do you get over seeing them with the person who's relationship broke your relationship? It's been six months, and it's loads better, but it still kills me a little inside to see them together. And that makes me feel like a horrible person. I'm going to D(whatever number this is) this weekend and I'm seriously ( Read more... )

Between open studios, regular classes, and intermittent workshops, we have between 22 and 25 classes at Esh each week. Taught by four people. That's not including our weekly private lessons, residency training times that we run for advanced students/professional performers, and, oh yes, our *own* training times.

Also we need a bigger space.

Also ( Read more... )

WOW. Thought I was over things. Then he showed up at the party where I was wearing nearly nothing, and I discovered that I'm not even a little bit over it. Which is why I'm at home with whiskey and Downton Abbey while the awesome party is still ostensibly going on. Wheeeee emotions are fun.

I hate being confronted with the awful apathy and demotivation of depression; I feel useless and weak. It is important to me to recognize that, while I am incapable of doing most normal chores and activities while depressed, I am capable of directing time and energy towards the things that will ultimately get me out of depression: finding ( Read more... )

I know I've asked this in the past, but I am finally in a place financially to actually follow up:

Do you have a therapist you like? I'd prefer someone female, but am totally willing to go to a dude if they come highly recommended enough. If they take blue cross/blue shield, so much the better.