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I feel the need for a good moan on the interweb (where no one can hear you scream)
Right...
Depression.. what's with that? I mean, why the hell would your body be so so stuipid as to make you feel constantly psychiatrically shit and why is every single member of my immediate/close family predisposed to it? Why can't I just "feel better".. I have EVERYTHING going for me, but some stupid seritonin BOLLOCKS means that I have to feel ike the world is caving in on itself.. even though I know it isn't...
Smoothies and fruit juice. What a waste of fruit. Why do people think that smoothies are so wonderful and detoxing and fabulous when you could eat the fruit itself, which is much tasier and filling and doesn't waste electricty by grinding it up in a silly blender.. and you're not putting demand on the plastics industry by buying those bottles of pre-made-smoothies which are bollocks anyway because they always sound nice right up to the last ingredient.. where you get blueberry, banana, mango and cucumber.. is it just done to make you *feel* better? It's got cucumber in it and will taste shit as a consequence, therefore it must be good for me??
Geography. In general.. but especially A2 geography. It's just WAFFLE.. you go on and on and on, flitting around points, when all it comes down to are two words: "sustainable development".. that's all you need to say.. that's all we're striving for..
"What is the meaning of life?!"
"Sustainable development"....
"mmm, this icecream tastes nice? why is that?"
"Oh, it was made in a way which promotes sustainable development"
ARRRRRRGH. I just don't GET what they want us to do in A2 geography.. they ask things like "explain the distribution of the worlds' biomes" (100 marks).. WHAT THE HELL?! "Well, you see, there's this little chaos theory which meant that some gases did this thing which caused the planet and it happened to end up being spherical and there was water in some bits and not in others....."
I accidentally read a spoler for season 1 of 24. This pisses me off a lot.
TV nowadays is rubbish. There's too many reality shows. I miss the generation game. That was wicked.
There's no good films out at the moment... in fact, there hasn't been a decent film out in ages.. V for Vendetta was like getting a puppy-shaped christmas present and then opening it and finding that there's a bit pile of poo inside.
I have a collection of chocolate from Easter.. I want to eat it.. but I can't.. because i'm trapped by this stupid STUPID fear of... well.. I don't know what it's of.. but it's torture..
Why did they get rid of Mark Lamar?! Eejits.
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Maybe something a bit more positive??
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My sister is getting much better in hospital..
I have an offer from King's still (I remind myself of this every single day, I'm just so damn relieved)
I'm more *physically* healthy than most (my arms and legs and eyes and ears work, and for that, i'm thankfull)
Not everyone in the world is lucky enough to have a bed to sleep in tonight or safe water to drink.. so i'm very VERY lucky in that respect..
So i'm blessed in lots of ways.. I know that.. I just hate it when this nasty, horrible fog of depression/mocks/stress covers them up. But ying and yang and all that.
Blah.
I hope everyone managed to enjoy the sun today
xx