So even though Prince put on an incredible show, and my day was spent working and watching Hercules and nothing was wrong, tonight has turned really miserable. The first reason I don't feel like going into right now, and if you want to know I'll tell you, but it's not really a fun livejournal topic as it raises too many opinions. But it just made ( Read more... )

Do I overestimate myself?

after a great deal of crying, my final decision is to just drop out of life.

Today my dad bought a waverunner. Yes, we live in Harleysville. Several hours from the ocean and bay. We don't even have, like, a big lake or something. Conclusion? My dad is stupid!!!

Apparently it's not a huge waste of money... I said HELLO dad, I need to go to college! and he told me it wasn't too expensive, and he already had it worked out, and ( Read more... )

I promise that soon, I will make my livejournal hot shit. It's just that I fool around with it and get bored, and then I just use one of the pre-formatted ones. It's so boring, but blah, I have no patience.

Oh my god... I can't remember the last time I felt this sick. It certainly has been awhile, I know that much. I woke up with a horrible migraine and I feel like I'm going to throw up at any moment, and I just feel... miserable. Absolutely, horribly miserable. I have to work in a few hours and I think that I will pass out in the heat. Jesus, why do ( Read more... )

tonight, as i was driving home from applebees, i had this sudden flashback of prom night. not prom itself, but afterwards. and honestly, i've gotten worse once again at handling emotions, but as i was filled with them and with no one to serve as an outlet, i just started crying. i wanted someone there to hold me or even squeeze my hand, but no one ( Read more... )

it hurts me so much that everything just changes drastically for what seems like no good reason.

i used to have someone that i could tell everything to, and he would understand it all and make me feel so much better all the time just by caring so much. he even had these simple little gestures that just made me feel so at ease. always. and that has ( Read more... )

i love it, though it's rare, when i have instances of feeling so alive. something is triggered inside of me and suddenly i'm just... fully there, fully appreciating every emotion that it is possible to feel. emotions are really fascinating, and when i feel seemingly every one over the course of just an hour or two, it's incredible. then i'm left ( Read more... )