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I'm tired, home is the place to be now, but somehow that wouldn't solve anything. I've just set an apocalyptic date for myself if the real one keeps being pushed back, that when I'm 27, still sad and lonely, it's time to give up and go die. A healthy young girl with 5 years to live, how exciting. I need help... -
yes, another self-loathing obsessive rant at midnight
I tend to run away a lot. Like now, all I want to do is jump off the imaginary building or running wildly out on the street in the cold at 2:26 in the morning. Don't understand how other people's coping mechanism works, their fantasy world keep them sane with their reality, all the glitters and flashes and glamor and laugh track keep me awake for a ( Read more... ) -
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This should be the kind of girl I'm jealous of, instead of trillion fashionable girls on high heels, there this girl in my group she's a comic fan, amazing comic artist and equally amazing gymnast, she's has this sweet country girl vibe and it puts me at ease to be around. This just really bring me back down to earth that girls thesedays don't have ( Read more... ) -
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGHHHHHHHH WHY SHOULD I BOTHER LIVING TIL TODAY, I'M WORTHLESS ANYWAY AAAAAARGH -
on wearing something else rather than my geeky wardrobe
i'm so sleepy, all the time, is it spring fatigue? Just tired and lack of motivation to even get out of bed... but then I do enjoy my peaceful, sunlit, cleaned room for myself. It's been more than a week when she moved out, unannounced, and left me being more than happy to celebrate my solitary life. Isn't it nice when life is just this easy sans ( Read more... ) -
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this, nauseate feeling won't go away. I planned the seed and expect its ugly fruits why now seeing it brings me to tears? Would things change for the better if I'd have cared for it a bit more? Would its flower be any prettier if I fix my distorted view of the world? What's the point of all this? Why do I even care... -
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amidst the abundance of on-going projects, this thickened air remind me of summer: the longer hours of sunshine, daylight and shorter wears. I'm going through crisis, I don't know what I am doing and why I am here. It's hard enough to realize you're not as smart as you think to go through life by yourself and giving up isn't a good option. To rub ( Read more... ) -
You know you're a geek when...
...browsing in the endless sections of ThinkGeek and adore every single item in there. A bit too early for Christmas wishlist but they are so cool I can't resist.
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sometime I'm glad that somehow because you were such an ass back then that it keeps us to where we are now. Sometime I miss talking to you or just hang out and do crazy things but I keep telling myself to not be greedy. I'm too afraid to obsess over somebody ever again