Essential Error
Life is empty, but a building emptiness. Like a hole that just gets larger as time goes by. I can see the green grass on the other side, but I can't climb out.
I want to build my bridges. The rifts are only growing. In a lot of cases, the bridges that are there are rotten. Do I need to cut them off myself or do I wait until they fall themselves? Otherwise, I can never rebuild them...
Am I so stagnant? So unmoving? Am I so... easily forgotten? I know I've said it before, but I have to keep saying it.
It hurts how people only remember the bad times. it hurts enough to want to cry. It makes me feel so worthless.
I can see the road ahead. It's become apparent, what I need to do. But I can see a detour. Can't I try a side quest? Or is it a trap?
It's difficult for me to differentiate. Even if it is a side quest, I might not be a high enough level anyway...
I'm tired of deals and bargains. I'm tired of pressure and guilt. I'm tired of paranoia and fear. I'm tired of cringing when I look at the clock.
I can do what's right, I know it. I just have to try a little harder. Are you looking down on me? I can rise, I can catch up. You aren't so far away, or maybe I just don't realize it yet.
The future allows endless possibilities. I just need to live up to myself, so I can start living up to others. I'm sorry, it'll take more time. Wait for me, alright? I'll meet you there.
Do I tempt fate? Do I try and break the cycle? Or do I grasp the future myself?
I'm done lying. Please, let me try and start a new game.
I want to be right this time. I'll stop crying.
Time runs short. I have less than a year left to tie the rope. But I have everything I need now. All the time and opportunities are simply laying about. I'll reach you, all of you.