well me and luke went bowling and he kicked my ass. twice. thats sad....considering he is 6 and i am 19. well he had bumbers, but so what. and i cannot find bowling shoes anywhere. if anyone knows of a place i can get bowling shoes for super cheap or have a pair that i may have....let me know.....the search goes on.....

I just watched Donnie Darko for the first time....it was on HBO. I think that was the most beautiful movie i have ever seen. i'm going to be thinking about it for a long time. it has made my week.

so might as well be right now. no.......nothing good has happened since i have last updated. i finally know now that me and jon will never be together and he never wants us to be together either. he never loved me and he never will. but thats not new. so....i have to bite the bullet and accept that we will only be friends and nothing more, ( Read more... )

yea my ass happy valentines........this day has sucked, like every other valentines day before it......maybe more..........yea i'd say more then usual. man...........i want to be out of this house having fun. i'm tired of this place and my life...its getting old and very frustrating.

i have decided that i am not updating my journal until something happens or i feel better. Sorry for being so down and negative in all my postes. so i will spare everyone for the time being. no i am not feeling better. and yes my day has been crap. tommorrow will be worse. i am getting myself ready to spend the weekend alone. i guess i will just ( Read more... )

It's only getting worse..................i cannot handle this anymore...there is nothing good about today and even less good tomorrow

I'm tired, i don't want to go to class. Other then being in a terrible mood, i get to write a paper all day that is due tomorrow and be alone. The only good thing about my life right this moment is my dog. But i think he doesn't really like me he just likes to get his belly scratched. Wow..........why does life always seem to go this way for me ( Read more... )

Well it finally happened last night. Jon and I have broken up for the second and final time. There are no more chances that we will ever be together and it kills me. I just wanted to wait it out a little longer, especially since the last few times we did hang out were fun. But because i am only happy when we are together, he feels it is not ( Read more... )

why do i feel so empty and lonely all the time? i'm tired of it. i have someone to be with, but he doesn't even aknowledge that i am here. sitting here waiting to get a little attention. which never comes. i feel like i just want to give up on everything. school, friends, jon, life. it feels like no matter what i do i am never happy. i just ( Read more... )

It is sooo freaking cold out. i hate coldness. i just want to stay in bed when its cold like this. But instead me and jon went out to dinner with the rents that was alright. i don't know what we are doing tonight though.....

nothing else is really going on...........