holidays can definitely be nice. i got an ipod from my parents, put my music on it, and it's already half full! uh oh. it's going to make my backpack so much lighter though. toby and i had a nice christmas even though he can't come to new york with us after all. he gave me the adorable present of a locket, and i almost cried when i opened the ( Read more... )

okay everyone!

new screenname:

DOUBLEJOINTEDHIP

the thicker the cushion, the sweeter the pushin'
that's what i said
the looser the waistband, the deeper the quicksand
or so i have read.

my baby fits me like a flesh tuxedo
i'm gonna sink her with my pink torpedo

big bottom, big bottom
talk about bumcakes, my girl's got 'em
big bottom, drive me outta my mind
how could i leave this behind?

a couple nights ago, my mom got back from england and scotland, where she hung out some with eric goulden AKA wreckless eric. (she got to see the fucking damned before me. shit.) as we were walking out to our car last night she said ( Read more... )

shit, this song is really good. one of not many 8-minute repetition sessions i can both listen to and love.

i'm always secretly happy when my dad and my stepmom argue. how evil is that?! i can't help how goddamn satisfying it feels though. does anyone know what i mean?

yesterday started out terribly. i just felt so empty all day. being at dad's house is so tiresome and frustrating; it feels like when they're not outright telling me i'm doing something wrong, they're watching me carefully to see if i fuck up. and whenever i want to do anything involving leaving the house, i should learn to ask an extra half ( Read more... )

i haven't updated this in quite a while! here's what's happened of late ( Read more... )

it's finally really REALLY over now, and i can tell that i'm going to have a hell of a time getting that into my head. i know i need to. it makes me wonder, though, if other people can just tell themselves they're better off without someone and just believe it. i don't think i can fool myself into thinking i'd easily turn him down if he came ( Read more... )

photo progress!

( for an 'industrial' art project )

life is pain when it gets to be winter in cleveland ( Read more... )