it feels like love's lying ( Read more... )

if i dont see myself in the mirror by morning my plans went perfectly ( Read more... )

like I said, eventually things will fall in place... It just takes time. Time is finally paying off. Im where I want to be, where I feel right. I have a great job. I have great people in my life. And the most important.. The music I have beeen writing. Its simply amazing to me. I have trouble comprehending how I can create such wonderful things. Im ( Read more... )

I am updating this journal to remind myself of how I put 4 holes in my ear yesterday. It was an all of a sudden idea.

i waste too much time on worthless people.

I found some comedy. I realized that it really wasnt my fault. And now I have a new reason to smile.

it wasn't fake until you made it that way. i think it is funny. i really do because for four years i loved you and waited for you to love me in the same way and it never happened until i left you. until i realized i didn't need you to be me. but it's all good you can sit here and tell everyone that all i had to offer was sex. thats fine i know my ( Read more... )

I see that lately, I have been wayyyy too high. Its the only thing that numbs me from being without her. I could just replace her. But shes not the easily replaceable. But maybe seeing how easily replaceable I am to her should make me feel differently. Nope. I love her. I want to love someone else. Noone else is up to par with my twisted beliefs on ( Read more... )

its getting deeper and deeper ( Read more... )

Well I quit my job. I got a better one. Making 3 dollars more an hour. More money makes me happy. I called my brother and told him. He told me he can get me a job making 5 dollars more than i was making... I said.. why the fuck havent i heard about this already? the only deal... i would be working 12 hour shifts... But all I would have to do is ( Read more... )

I know that people know how rockstars party, why doesnt anyone want to fucking party like a rockstar with me?