i'm pretty happy right now and being home feels better than ever before. i've been avoiding drama, speaking my mind, working like a nigger, partying hard, and making the world a better and safer place for your children. i have also determined that i am niether above nor below the influence, thusly....i am the influence. life is pretty good right ( Read more... )

May 19th ( Read more... )

Consider this song a testament
Of my devotion to your sacharrine scent
And to be completely honest
You're not like all the rest

fuck you, you couldn't do better. niether could i. so i put this.

now i can come home in may and have nothing to show for myself. sure, decent grades. but when i came home before, i had that and so much more. everything was complete. i thought it was. and now that i've lost you, only time will tell what will become of us. i only wish i didn't try to be who i thought you wanted me to be. even when it was so ( Read more... )

we have succeeded in have sex in all rooms of the house except for the upstairs bathroom. but we'll get that done tommorrow. this is the best week ever. fuck you VH1. Caity is the best ever. end.

I don't think anyone knows how happy I am right now. And I don't care who doesn't like it. Just remember that I am a good person, and I always try to do the best for everyone. If you didn't understand that then, you probably won't understand it now. You wanted this. Now, I'll tell you all what I told my mother the day after I tried to kill myself ( Read more... )

today i woke up with Caity sleeping next to me.
we ate.
we got high.
we went to the mall.
we ate.
we did some homework.
we ate.
we had sex.
i hope to do the same tommorrow.

yesterday i woke up.
i ate.
i got high.
i hung out with Caity.
we got high.
we ate.
we had sex.
we got high.
we ate.
we went to bed.
i plan on doing the same thing today.

i can't do this anymore. i just can't. it always happens like this. why? why do I care so much? why do I put so much effort into them? why do i care for them so much? why do they say they care for me? why do they tell me all the right things, and i tell them all the right thing, and we make plans, and we say we can "make it work"? why ( Read more... )

stop being afraid of the LUD. I'm serious. Let us into your hearts. It's scary, we know. It's supposed to be. But once you let yourself feel the LUD, it won't be so scary anymore.