Oh I am so sorry you are going though this but in the end we need to follow our paths and if you don't you will never fully realize your true-to self life.
that song does seem to sum it perfectly and simply.
Ever spend part of the day checking out everything that you ever thought cool about livejournal? Yeah, it's awesome. Reading an updated bio on your main page and just had to comment how happy you sound. It makes a person smile.
Reminiscing on LiveJournal? I don't believe it's ever come to that, though occasionally I'll read an old post or two, just to remind me how shot my memory is. ;)
Thanks for noticing the change -- I feel happy, and have learned a great deal about myself in the past while/couple of years.
Life is.....life is a fucking roller coaster, man. It's good, but I'm fickle. Tuesdays I wish it was more exciting and there's a million plans to make. Fridays I just wish it was the most boring thing I can remember. Does that make sense? Change. Getting older and changing myself or the things around me, and adapting to it. And tv on dvd.
I don't know if I'd called it "reminiscing" exactly. I remember when I first found livejournal, and it was this awesome meeting of minds. Randomly reading stranger's journals into the wee hours. It was like discovering a new writer, or Leonard Cohen. And then the communities, the blogs, the this and that and I'll sometimes think 'why don't I do that any more? why can't I discover anyone new?' And I have, in fact! But I don't write any more, so I don't bother beyond that. But it does lead one to look in on curious souls. I just like people!....sometimes.
I TOTALLY get your "I just like people!....sometimes." I think that sums up the conflict in my head between shy, hermit me, and the restless part of me that suddenly always wants to be doing something and meeting new people. :)
Writing is hard, I get that, too, but for me it's almost more "remembering to write" or "writing for other people". I recently discovered this, that has me writing something for myself daily.
I was never really very good at finding strangers' journals that appealed to me, but I recently found someone that I felt kind of an odd connection to and am kind of experiencing that for the first time now. It's neat.
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Oh I am so sorry you are going though this but in the end we need to follow our paths and if you don't you will never fully realize your true-to self life.
that song does seem to sum it perfectly and simply.
xoxox.
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Thanks for noticing the change -- I feel happy, and have learned a great deal about myself in the past while/couple of years.
How's life?
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I don't know if I'd called it "reminiscing" exactly. I remember when I first found livejournal, and it was this awesome meeting of minds. Randomly reading stranger's journals into the wee hours. It was like discovering a new writer, or Leonard Cohen. And then the communities, the blogs, the this and that and I'll sometimes think 'why don't I do that any more? why can't I discover anyone new?' And I have, in fact! But I don't write any more, so I don't bother beyond that. But it does lead one to look in on curious souls. I just like people!....sometimes.
LOL Did I just sound weirder?
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Writing is hard, I get that, too, but for me it's almost more "remembering to write" or "writing for other people". I recently discovered this, that has me writing something for myself daily.
I was never really very good at finding strangers' journals that appealed to me, but I recently found someone that I felt kind of an odd connection to and am kind of experiencing that for the first time now. It's neat.
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