I suppose I could be on fire...

[hatori_1181]

First let me say, I had a great weekend. Got my Red Mage in FFXI to level 10, Spent time with Jayson and Jay, had myself a good time. Jay was late in bringing me home, so it was like, 3:30 this morning when I got home. No problem. Usually

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Damn.... -_-

[blackjet]

Ugh.... way to go life... seems like suicide is becoming more common and common as the apocalypse approaches. (Like 4 people in the past 2 weeks have commited suicide from what I've been told from friends)

I don't really know your sister, but no one should have to go through something like this. It deffinetly makes you think about how others would feel if you killed yourself though doesn't it? Too bad when you finaly prepare to do it you forget all about everyone else and your selfish needs take place more then anything else (I'm talking about depression, not personality just incase anyone thinks I'm bashing anyone, I'm not. Its just that I know depression is a very selfish and overpowering force in life.)

My condolences... you can only truely appreciate something once you have lost something..

Re: Damn.... -_-

[xo_manda_ox]

hey...this is gregs sister and thank you for your words. i used to wonder what other people would think if i killed myself, and to tell you the truth i have thought about suicide(but that was way long ago and i was young and very dumb...oh wait! i still am young and dumb! ^^)...but ive never gone through something like this before, ive never lost someone to suicide and b/c of this experience i hope that nobody has to ever feel the way i do now, it makes me realize how selfish and horribly sad suicide is...its the most wretched feeling, wondering if maybe i couldve been there, maybe i couldve saved him or atleast helped him...but i know now that there was nothing i couldve done...just tell your friends and family how much you love them and tell them frequently b/c you never know when your words or even a smile could save a life. thanks for caring darling. xo

Re: Damn.... -_-

[blackjet]

If theres anything I'm good for, its a shoulder to cry on, an ear to lend, and a word of wisdom. (Also a snide remark if the ocasion calls for it)

If you want someone to talk to, I'm here for you.. I'm sure its not as comforting as someone closer to you saying that.. but we all have to start out somewhere in a friendship right?

I'll add you to my friends list hun. Do you have a messenger incase you want to chat?

Re: Damn.... -_-

[zenboiuke]

Hi Mandy... it's Kieran. If you think Greg or Jason are dorks & you want to talk with someone kewl, you can contact me. I have AIM, Yahoo & email.

That said, as terribly agonizing as suicide is--mostly for the people left behind--no matter what they said, what they put in a note, or journal or anything else, it was THEIR CHOICE. Many people face horrible challenges & choose to live. Everyone's capacity for pain is different.

Spending the rest of your life wondering 'what if' will only eat you alive from the inside out. The best thing you can do is live your life to the fullest... honor their memory & accept the fact that they did what they felt they needed, even if you'll never understand it *HUG*

and now for greg...

[xo_manda_ox]

thank you for wanting to be here for me right now...but i guess that i just have to find my own way to grieve...i know you care and thats all that matters. i'll come and talk to you when im ready but right now im still trying to comprehend whats happening...its such a shock and im just so sad and i really need to surround myself w/my friends, the people that knew him the best, that way we can grieve together and then i think i'll be able to talk about it...until then can you wait for me? b/c you know i always end up back to you when i really need to talk...thanks greggles! i love you dollface! ^-^