It doesn't even feel like Thanksgiving this morning. The house is quiet, my head is hurting, and I have regret. I've never had to make this kind of decision before and I think I chose wrong. I think seeing her, even for only a few minutes, would have been the right way to celebrate Thanksgiving. I guess this will be the year I look back on and ( Read more... )

Do the job or leave so someone that will do the job can come along. I'm fuckin sick of people that won't get their shit done and I have to try pulling the extra weight. I can't do it. I can't do a four person job by myself. If I could I would. I'd gladly do it all by myself over dealing with people. But damnit... Its too goddamn much.

I don't get it. Why the sudden change? I haven't seen a cake on my birthday for at least ten goddamn years now and all of a sudden my mom wants to bake one for me? I've been in Texas for five years and suddenly my grandmother is coming to see 'me'? That one is bullshit, I know. It isn't for me. It is to see my niece. My birthday is just her ( Read more... )

Do you remember what you was doing on September 11, 2001 when you learned of the terroristic attack on the USA? Was you working, at home, shopping? Do you remember how you learned of it? Did you see it on tv, hear it on the radio, hear people speaking about it at work, rumors while you was shopping, or did a friend or relative call you? Most of ( Read more... )

I wonder if someone, anyone, can explain to me what its like to wake up one morning and make it through the entire day without hurting. I'm sick of it. My back hurts, my hip hurts, my 'I don't know what it is for sure but I think it might be a hurnia' hurts. My sinuses hurt. Thankfully, my wrist hasn't given me any problems for a while now. ( Read more... )

It is through them I've learned to love. It is through that love I've learned myself and to live for no other reason than to live. Therefore they are my world. Take one away and my world has a hole in it. An empty space that will never be filled. Each of them has a piece of my heart that they can call their own. A piece of my heart that beats ( Read more... )

I've had many things going through my mind the past few months. Some things have come and gone like a whisper carried to me by the wind and others have lingered... echoing in the darkness as I lie awake at night. My mind is a jumbled mess because of it ( Read more... )