Things are turning around...

Ugh. I miss her.

I should be doing all the work that is pretty much due tomorrow, yet I'm just sitting here. I got off the phone with a receptionist for the counseling services here, and she set me up with a phone-interview for tomorrow morning...guess I'll have to wait and explain to my professor later that I can't really get her a note right away ( Read more... )

I relapsed. And I was doing so well for so long, too. I'm gonna go test out the counseling services they have here and maybe I'll get my head set in the right place.

You know what? I can't update my livejournal with everything that's been going on. It's practically impossible. "Why?" you might ask. Well, to be frank, it's emotionally draining if I try to go into detail. I'm trying my hardest not to be overly-dramatic about it all, but things were good...they were too good, and then rationality came to mind. ( Read more... )

I'm not sure why I'm freaking out this much, but I just feel an uncertainty or some kind of dread hanging over me. I guess it's me not being able to figure out what I want or where I want to go from hereon out. In my mind I'm fine, but somewhere there's this feeling that's looming over me, and I can't figure out what it is. I feel like I can't ( Read more... )

I'm hoping things will get better. I had a horrible night last night and it was because my drunkeness blew everything out of proportion. Although most of my friends were saying I was more or less justified in reacting that way (at the moment though...they were pretty drunk, too), I think I could've kept myself under more control...but nope. Totally ( Read more... )

For once in a really long time, I have no idea how I feel. Absolutely none. I can't even begin to describe, but basically it's jumbled in my body so much I feel like a robot...or that I'm just going numb, I dunno ( Read more... )

So somehow I remembered my login information for my Xanga account and just took a quick look at it now. I...can't believe some of the things I wrote on that site, it was all very disturbing how I addressed/described some things, and I felt like I was reading a really annoying, whiny, self-absorbed depressed teenager's blog instead of my own. I got ( Read more... )

I'm kinda surprised I managed to type all of that previous entry down in a coherent manner...that night was just crazy, I was getting a little sick of people by then since most of my friends were worse off than me. We had had our friend's surprise party at her girlfriend's campus apartment, but then the RA came and told everyone to leave, which was ( Read more... )